LAPIS LAZULI - Hahnemann Instituut Nederland

LAPIS LAZULI 

The trituration proving 

(The Hague December 2004 - June 2005)

Medicine Buddha 

Picture on the front page "The Medicine Buddha” by Robert Beer, London. 

Text by Thrangu Rinpoche 1 . 

Teachings on the 

Medicine Buddha Sadhana 

Ven. Thrangu Rinpoche 

"If one meditates on the Medicine Buddha, one will eventually attain enlightenment, but 

in the meantime one will experience an increase in healing powers both for oneself and 

others and a decrease in physical and mental illness and suffering." 

— Lama Tashi Namgyal --- 

Whether or not we have a very strong motive to attain Buddha hood, we all desire these sorts 

of relative objectives, so deity meditation provides tremendous incentive for the practice of 

dharma medicine. 

This is all possible with meditation because of the special quality of the vajrayana, which 

takes enlightenment as the path, rather than seeing it merely as a goal. Through the three 

processes of abhisheka, which ripens the mental continuum; oral transmission, which supports 

one’s practice; and the teachings, which liberate, one is connected directly to the enlightened 

state transmitted by the guru and the lineage. Thereafter, when one practices or merely brings 

to mind those teachings, one is instantly reconnected with that compassionate primordial 

awareness, and this constant reconnecting then becomes one’s path, bringing with it the rapid 

purification of mental defilements and the rapid accumulation of merit and wisdom. The 

recognition of this connection is the uncovering of one’s own wisdom. If it goes 

unrecognized, it still exists in the practitioner’s mental continuum as a seed, which will 

gradually ripen according to conditions." 

Reasons for a practitioner to choose this kind of practice: "We might think that fundamentally 

we are practicing the Medicine Buddha in order to benefit our own bodies, whereas the 

motivation of bodhicitta is the wish to benefit all beings. But in fact there is no contradiction, 

because, in order to be effective in benefiting other beings, we need to accomplish an 

excellent Samadhi or meditative absorption; and in order to accomplish that, together with the 

insight and realization that it brings, we need to have a stable practice. In order to have a 

stable and profound practice, we need to be physically and mentally healthy or comfortable, 

because by being comfortable in our body, and comfortable in our mind, we will be free of 

obstacles to diligence in practice and free of obstacles to the cultivation of meditative 

absorption. So therefore, we are practicing the Medicine Buddha in order to attain states of 

mental and physical health or balance, not merely for our own benefit, but for the benefit of 

others as well." 

* * * 

"The primary technique in the meditation consists of imagining ourselves to be the Medicine 

Buddha, conceiving of yourself as the Medicine Buddha. By replacing the thought of yourself 

as yourself with the thought of yourself as the Medicine Buddha, you gradually counteract 

and remove the fixation on your personal self. And as that fixation is removed, the power of 

1 http://www.dharma-haven.org/thrangu-medicine-buddha.htm 

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the seventh consciousness is reduced. And as it is reduced, the kleshas or mental afflictions 

are gradually weakened, which causes you to experience greater and greater well-being in 

both body and mind." 

* * * 

"It is through regarding oneself as the deity that defects are gradually eradicated and qualities 

gradually revealed. The primary technique of visualization is to visualize ourselves as the 

deity, because the potential to transcend our problems is innate rather than external to us." 

* * * 

"We supplement the visualization of ourselves as the deity with visualizations such as 

imagining the actual wisdom deities themselves dissolving into ourselves again and again, by 

means of which we receive their blessing. Sometimes we visualize the deity in front of us, 

separate from ourselves, thinking that rays of light from the deity’s heart engulf and pervade 

us, granting the blessing of the deity. And sometimes we visualize that rays of light, which 

embody the blessing of that deity in front of us, strike all beings, removing their obstacles, 

increasing their longevity, wisdom, and so on." 

* * * 

"The practice of the Medicine Buddha comes primarily from the uncommon tradition of the 

vajrayana, which means that the transmission of the practice is done using three processes 

called the empowerment, which ripens; the instruction, which frees; and the reading 

transmission, which supports. The function of empowerment, the formal ceremony or ritual of 

empowerment, is to introduce you to the practice and to the process of visualization and so 

forth, which will make up the practice. The function of the instruction, which frees, is to give 

you complete access to the practice by means of telling you literally how to do it— what you 

do with your body, what you say with your speech, and what you think with your mind. The 

function of the reading transmission, which supports, is to transmit the blessing of the lineage 

of the practice which serves to consecrate or bless your practice in the form of sound. Because 

the lineage has been transmitted as the sound of the words of its transmission, when the 

reading transmission is given to you, you simply listen to the sound and think that by doing so 

you receive the blessing of the lineage." 

* * * 

"With regard to the empowerment, you should understand that the Medicine Buddha practice 

is not solely a vajrayana practice. Like the practice of mahamudra, it is a combination of 

vajrayana [tantra] and sutra. For example, while we could say that mahamudra is primarily 

taught in the vajrayana, it is also found in certain sutras, such as the Samadhiraja Sutra, and so 

forth. In the same way, this practice of the Medicine Buddha is a combination of what the 

Buddha taught about the Medicine Buddha in the sutras of the Medicine Buddha and in 

various tantras. Because it is connected with vajrayana, it is most appropriate to receive the 

empowerment to enhance the practice; but because it is also connected with the sutras, it is 

acceptable to do the practice without the empowerment as well." 

The reading transmission or lung for the Medicine Buddha practice tells what the practitioner 

should actually be doing at that point in the liturgy, and what the various symbols and 

symbolic actions mean. 

The liturgy begins with a supplication of the Medicine Buddha and his retinue, including the 

holders of the lineage of this teaching, in order to invite the awareness of and to receive the 

blessings of the deity and the lineage. 

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The invocation of the principle Medicine Buddha begins with these lines: 

You are endowed with an oceanic treasury of qualities and merit; 

by the blessing of your inconceivable compassion 

you calm the suffering and torment of sentient beings. 

I supplicate you, Light of LAPIS LAZULI. 

The description and commentary on the arms and hands points out how they symbolize the 

Medicine Buddha's mastery of both physical and spiritual aspects of healing: 

The Medicine Buddha has two arms: his right hand in the mudra of supreme generosity holds 

an arura. His left hand in meditation mudra holds a begging bowl. 

His right hand is extended, palm outward, over his right knee in the gesture called supreme 

generosity. In it he holds the arura, or myrobalan, fruit. This plant represents all the best 

medicines. The position of his right hand and the arura which he holds represent the 

eradication of suffering, especially the suffering of sickness, using the means of relative truth. 

Sickness can be alleviated by adjusting the functioning of interdependent causes and 

conditions by the use of relative means within the realm of relative truth, such as medical 

treatment and so on. The giving of these methods is represented by the gesture of the 

Medicine Buddha’s right hand. 

His left hand rests in his lap, palm upward, in the gesture of meditative stability or meditation, 

which represents the eradication of sickness and suffering— and, indeed, the very roots of 

samsara— through the realization of absolute truth. From the point of view of either relative 

truth or absolute truth, the fundamental cause of sickness and suffering is a lack of 

contentment and the addictive quality of samsara. Therefore, to indicate the need for 

contentment, in his left hand he holds a begging bowl. 

Visualization is much more than merely wishful fantasy: 

"More important than how many deities you visualize is to understand what you are doing. 

And most important is to understand that by visualizing yourself as the Medicine Buddha you 

are not pretending to be something that you are not, and that by visualizing the Medicine 

Buddha and his retinue in front of you, you are not pretending that they are in a place where 

they are not. By definition, Buddhas are omniscient. Whenever someone thinks of them, 

brings them to mind, or supplicates them, they are aware of it and respond with their 

compassion and blessing. In the final analysis, the situation is identical to their actually being 

present anywhere they are thought of. Therefore, it is always appropriate to regard a Buddha 

that is present in one’s mind as actually being present in front of one. When you think that the 

Medicine Buddha, together with his retinue, is present in front of you, it is really true that they 

are. 

Visualizing yourself as the Medicine Buddha is also appropriate, because your fundamental 

nature— what you truly are— is Buddha nature. Buddha nature is essentially the potential to 

attain awakening. At some point in the future you will attain the same awakening or Buddha 

hood as the Medicine Buddha himself. By visualizing yourself as the Medicine Buddha, you 

are assuming the appearance of what fundamentally you are even now and what manifestly 

you will be upon your awakening. It is to acknowledge this truth that you assume the aspect 

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of the body, speech, and mind of the Medicine Buddha, which is, therefore, entirely 

appropriate. 

"If you can visualize clearly, it is best to do all of this very slowly and gradually. While you 

continue to say the mantra, you think that rays of light emerge from the self-visualization, go 

to the front visualization, and then from the front visualization outwards to the pure realms, 

proceeding gradually and slowly. Especially when the blessings of body, speech, and mind 

rain down upon and dissolve into you, you can do the visualizations in sequence: first, 

visualizing the blessings of body raining down, without being in any kind of a hurry and so 

quite distinctly; and then visualizing the blessings of speech and then the blessings of mind. If 

you find that the visualization is extremely unclear, if you wish, you can do it all at once. But 

if you do it gradually and slowly, you will find that you will get a much stronger sense of the 

blessings actually entering into you. By taking your time with the visualization, you will 

develop real confidence, a real feeling of the blessings entering into you." 

A special type of visualization when the main point is the actual alleviation of sickness: 

You can visualize yourself as the Medicine Buddha, if you wish, but the main focus is to 

actually visualize a small form of the Medicine Buddha, no larger than four finger-widths in 

height, in the actual part of your body that is afflicted. So if it is an illness or pain in the head, 

visualize a small Medicine Buddha in he head; Visualize the Medicine Buddha in that place, 

and think that from this small but vivid form of the Medicine Buddha rays of light are 

emitted. These rays of light are not simply light, which is dry, but liquid light having a quality 

of ambrosia. This luminous ambrosia or liquid light actually cleanses and removes the 

sickness and pain— whatever it is. You can do this not only for yourself, by visualizing the 

Medicine Buddha in the appropriate part of your own body, but you can do it for others as 

well by visualizing the Medicine Buddha in the appropriate part of their body or bodies. The 

radiation of rays of light of ambrosia and so on is the same. 

This can be applied not only to physical sickness but to mental problems as well. If you want 

to get rid of a particular type of anxiety or stress or depression or fear or any other kind of 

unpleasant mental experience, you can visualize the Medicine Buddha seated above the top of 

your head and think in the same way as before that luminous ambrosia or liquid light emerges 

from his body, filling your body and cleansing you of any problem, whatever it is. 

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Bhaisajyaguru Tathagata, 

you who shine in the eastern realm, 

May we know your healing purity 

which cures all sorrow, pain, and ill. 

In your land of Lapis lazuli, 

your power revealed through meditation: 

You dispense your medicine of wondrous Dharma 

that sentient beings might know Relief. 

Never are we apart from your Pure Love, 

though clouds of karma oft’ obscure our sight. 

Help us walk the Path through suffering and its cause; 

the end: Nirvana, ceaseless joy. 

May peace of Heart pervade all beings, 

without, within, and through boundless time and space. 

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Index 

Index Page 7 

Introduction Page 9 

Chapter One - Rocks and Gem stones: an introduction to formation, types; history, religion & medicine Page 10 

1a. Transformation cycle of rocks and formation of gems in term definition. Page 10 

1b. Gemstones in history and religion. Page 13 

1c. Gemstones in ancient medicine and today’s therapies. Page 14 

1d. Gem stones in homeopathy - common themes of gems as a collective. Page 15 

1e. Common themes of the gem remedies psyche. Page 17 

Chapter Two - Introduction to Lapis Lazuli Page 19 

2a. Physical properties of Lapis Lazuli and its chemical composition. Page 19 

2b. Lapis Lazuli historical information and uses. Page 19 

2c. Lapis Lazuli metaphysical properties & healing powers. Page 20 

2d. Links between stone and the trituration proving of Lapis Lazuli. Page 20 

2e. A description of the components of Lapis Lazuli according to the periodic table. Page 21 

Chapter Three -The trituration of Lapis Lazuli in the Netherlands Page 25 

3a. The conduction of the trituration proving. Page 25 

3b/c. The classification of symptoms in the trituration proving. Page 27 

3d. The following order of symptom lists. Page 28 

3e. Mind Symptoms. Page 29 

3f. Physical Symptoms. Page 44 

3g. Rubrics of physical symptoms. Page 49 

3h. Dreams of the Lapis Lazuli trituration. Page 55 

3i. C5- Level ‘Sleeping Beauty’ Page 58 

3j. List of symptoms after one single dose of Lapis Lazuli C40/4. Page 61 

Mother Mary & Lapis Lazuli. Page 63 

Let it be and analysis. Page 66 

3k. Summary of symptoms: Levels C1 to C4. Page 68 

3l. The Essence of Lapis Lazuli. Page 70 

Chapter Four – Other provings of Lapis Lazuli – Schadde (Germany) & Tumminello (Australia) Page 72 

4a. The proving of Lapis Lazuli by Anne Schadde. Page 72 

4b. Summary of the main symptoms: proving of Lapis Lazuli by Anne Schadde. Page 72 

4c. Rubrics of symptoms. Page 73 

4d. Summary of the main symptoms by Anne Schadde Page 80 

4e. Comments by provers & supervisors. Page 81 

4f. Immersion proving of Lapis Lazuli by Peter Tumminello. Page 83 

4g. Key mental themes. Page 85 

4h. Psyche. Page 85 

4i. Spiritual themes. Page 86 

4j. Physical particulars. Page 86 

4k. Generals. Page 88 

Chapter Five - Comparison of the provings Schadde – Timmerman; Tumminello – Timmerman Page 89 

5a. Comparison provings Schadde – Timmerman: Prominent differences & similarities. Page 89 

5b. Conclusion from comparison provings Schadde – Timmerman. Page 92 

5c. Comparison provings Tumminello – Timmerman: Prominent differences & similarities. Page 93 

5d. Conclusion from comparison provings Tumminello – Timmerman. Page 95 

Chapter Six – Differential Diagnoses Page 96 

6a. Themes of remedy groups (Aid for DD’s) Page 96 

6b. Minerals/metals – remarkable differences & common traits to Lapis Lazuli. Page 99 

6c. Plants/Trees. Page 103 

Literature Page 104 

Appendix 

A. Lapis Lazuli Poem by William Butler Yeats. Page 105 

B. Fairy tale Sleeping Beauty by Arthur Quilles. Page 106 

C. Original symptom list from Dutch provers (C1 t/m C5) + C40/4. Page 109 

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Note to the reader: 

Due to some technical problems it has not been possible yet to add the picture of the painting 

done by the provers during the trituration proving of Lapis Lazuli. This shall be added as soon 

as possible. 

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Introduction 

In my fascination for homeopathy I have always strived to experience more and more of it. 

It has always been clear to me, that through experience the knowledge grows and takes its 

place in a lot faster and efficient way. I love reading about remedies and substances but often 

I can not image exactly how that information would come to life until I have had a similar 

experience myself or with someone or something around me. 

The reason why I have chosen to write about a trituration and therefore to go into the 

experience is because I did not only want to read about something and leave the rest to 

imagination. To me a trituration or a proving covers the totality of what I find essential to 

know in homeopathy. 

If I look at it from the four main pillars of homeopathy; I can relate to these in the following 

manner: 

• Minimum dose: it gives me a little of something, not too much of one thing that would 

enough to make me tired of it. 

• Like cures like: it gives a bit of thinking and a bit of feeling; it gives me what I need to 

keep motivating myself, it is a form of healing, if you like. 

• Totality: it covers all the subjects in homeopathy, the proving, symptom registration, 

symptom translation, pathology, repertory, writing the Materia Medica and finally 

understanding the substance as a whole. 

• Individuality: a proving meets my necessities in this process where I can learn all of 

that necessary to be a good homeopath. 

I can only say that these two years of triturations have been a very exciting and most of the 

time pleasant journey, even if at times, I cursed myself for having taken part in something so 

dynamic. Sometimes it was hard to keep up with the experiences. During the trituration of 

Lapis lazuli one of the most rewarding experiences was the collective painting we did, in 

which some essential themes of the remedy became clear to us. Please view the painting on 

the previous page. 

I do recommend everyone to do this, even if it is just once in your life, it will certainly 

broaden your views. I hope my text encourages you to gather strength or even just curiosity to 

take on such adventure. 

I dedicate this work to all the brothers and sisters around the world that have taken on the 

challenge and I thank my mentor, Alize Timmerman for her passionate guidance during this 

journey. 

Vanessa Parrado Lobo 

Hahnemann Institute, The Hague 2006 

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Chapter 1 

1. Rocks and Gem stones: an introduction to formation; history, religion & medicine 

2 1a. Transformation cycle of rocks and formation of gems in term definition : 

Magma: Molten rock material that forms igneous rocks upon cooling. Magma that reaches 

the surface is referred to as lava. 

Igneous rock: A rock formed by congealing rapidly or slowly from a molten state. This 

forms sediment. These are generally very hard. These are liquid lava rocks underground. 

Igneous rock = born of fire. It’s a solidified rock. 

Sedimentation: is the process of deposition of mineral grains or precipitates in beds or other 

accumulations. Here comes sedimentary rock from. 

Sedimentary rock: A rock formed by the accumulation and cementation of mineral grains 

transported by wind, water, or ice to the site of deposition or chemically precipitated at the 

depositional site, built layers on layers. Many years of slow build up. Fossils clear prove 

sedimentary - here we look for history of rocks, made gently enough to preserve living things. 

They are easy to tear apart. Cooling or breaking down process. Impressions and experiences 

built up over a longer period of time. This is the opposite of igneous rocks. 

• Shale or mudstone is made of tiny particles of clay. It forms in the sea bottom. 

Metamorphic rock: These are what happen when sedimentary and igneous rocks become 

changed, or metamorphosed, by conditions underground. The four main agents that 

metamorphose rocks are heat, pressure, fluids and strain. These agents can act and interact in 

an infinite variety of ways. As a result, most of the thousands of rare minerals known to 

science occur in metamorphic ("shape-changed") rocks. 

The fiery element is important in all the gems, fire melds down to basic form. The heat can 

bring about sudden change. 

• Marble: lime stone turns into marble. 

• Gneiss: (pronounced nice) is a typical metamorphic rock type, in which a sedimentary 

or igneous rock has been deeply buried and subjected to high temperatures and 

pressures. 

• Migmatite: it is partly melted. This is an extreme example of metamorphism, like 

putting gneiss through a taffy-puller. 

Crystals (gems) are formed when igneous rocks (born of fire) and sedimentary rocks (sand 

stone that contains water) meet. The result of this meeting is nothing like the original 

substances, a big transformation takes place. 

Crystals 3 : are homogenous solid formed by a repeating, three-dimensional pattern of atoms, 

ions, or molecules and having fixed distances between constituent parts. 

A crystal is a mineral, especially a transparent form of quartz, having a crystalline structure, 

often characterized by external planar faces. 

2 Notes from Peter Tumminello’s seminar The Hague 6-7 May 2005 

3 http://dictionary.reference.com/search?q=crystals 

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Characteristics of crystal structures: 

• Crystals can’t be seen with the naked eye. 

• Crystals are formed through tension and pressure. 

• Andesite: have small crystals very small volcanic. 

• Plutonic: have bigger crystals. 

• Pegmatite: have very large crystals. Where most crystals form, hot magma comes in 

contact with water (fluid) then crystals start to form. Brought up by slow cooling. 

Rock identification tables 4 

These tables will help you identify almost any rock you're likely to find. First determine 

whether your rock is igneous, sedimentary or metamorphic. The quick way to tell is: 

• Igneous: little texture or layering; mostly black, white and/or grey minerals; may look 

like lava. 

• Sedimentary: layers of sandy or clayey rock (strata); tends to split along layers; 

mostly brown or grey; may have fossils and water or wind marks. 

• Metamorphic: layers of light and dark minerals (foliation), often wavy; various 

colours; glittery from mica. 

Then start in the left column of the appropriate table and work your way across. Follow the 

links to pictures and more information. If you don't find a match, try another of the three big 

types. 

Grain Size has two values: "coarse" grains are visible, and the minerals can usually be 

identified using a magnifier; "fine" grains are invisible to the naked eye and cannot be 

identified with a magnifier. The cut-off is about 0.1 millimetres, between sand size and silt 

size. 

Hardness has three values: "hard" rock scratches glass, which usually signifies the minerals 

quartz or feldspar (Mohs hardness 6-7 and up); "soft" rock does not scratch glass but scratches 

fingernails (Mohs 3-5); "very soft" rock can be scratched with a fingernail (Mohs 1-2). All 

igneous rocks are hard. 

Igneous Rocks 

Grain 

Size 

Color Other Composition Rock Type 

fine dark glassy texture lava glass, usually felsic Obsidian 

fine light frothy texture lava froth, felsic Pumice 

fine dark frothy texture lava froth, basaltic Scoria 

fine light contains quartz high-silica (felsic) lava Felsite 

fine medium between felsite and basalt medium-silica lava Andesite 

fine dark has no quartz low-silica (mafic) lava Basalt 

mixed any color 

fine groundmass with larger grains 

(phenocrysts) 

coarse light wide range of color and grain size 

4 http://geology.about.com/od/nutshells/ 

feldspar, quartz, pyroxene or olivine phenocrysts Porphyry 

feldspar and quartz with minor mica, amphibole 

or pyroxene; felsic 

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Granite

coarse light like granite but without quartz 

coarse 

coarse 

medium to 

dark 

medium to 

dark 

feldspar with minor mica, amphibole or 

pyroxene; felsic 

Syenite 

little or no quartz feldspar and dark minerals; mafic Diorite 

no quartz; may have olivine feldspar and dark minerals; mafic Gabbro 

coarse dark dense; always has olivine dark minerals, pyroxene and olivine; ultramafic Peridotite 

coarse dark dense pyroxene; ultramafic Pyroxenite 

coarse green dense olivine; ultramafic Dunite 

Sedimentary Rocks 

Hardness Grain Size Composition Other Rock Type 

hard mixed mixed rocks and sediment round rocks in sediment matrix Conglomerate 

hard or 

soft 

mixed mixed rocks and sediment 

sharp pieces of same material as 

groundmass 

Breccia 

hard coarse clean quartz white to brown Sandstone 

hard coarse clean quartz and feldspar usually very coarse Arkose 

hard mixed 

mixed sediment with rock grains and 

clay 

gray or dark and "dirty" Graywacke 

hard fine very fine sand; no clay feels gritty on teeth Siltstone 

hard fine chalcedony no fizzing with acid Chert 

soft fine clay minerals foliated Shale 

soft fine carbon black; burns with tarry smoke Coal 

soft fine calcite fizzes with acid Limestone 

soft 

coarse or 

fine 

dolomite (magnesian calcite) no fizzing with acid unless powdered Dolomite or Dolostone 

soft coarse fossil shells mostly pieces Coquina 

very soft coarse halite salt taste Rock Salt 

very soft coarse gypsum white or pink Gypsum 

Metamorphic Rocks 

Foliation Grain Size Hardness Color Other Rock Type 

foliated fine soft dark "tink" when struck Slate 

foliated fine soft dark shiny; crinkly foliation Phyllite 

foliated coarse hard mixed "salt & pepper" often has large crystals Schist 

foliated coarse hard mixed banded Gneiss 

foliated coarse hard mixed distorted "melted" layers Migmatite 

foliated coarse hard dark mostly hornblende Amphibolite 

nonfoliated coarse hard red and green dense; garnet and pyroxene Eclogite 

nonfoliated coarse soft light fizzes with acid (calcite) Marble 

nonfoliated coarse hard light no fizzing with acid (quartz) Quartzite 

nonfoliated coarse or fine hard dark dull and opaque colors Hornfels 

1b. Gem stones in history and religion. 

Gem stones have been present throughout history. They have always been a symbol of wealth 

and high social status, especially during the middle ages and after. For instance diamonds 

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were only to be worn by aristocratic families in Europe; diamonds were the first symbol of 

engagement and eternal love. In Asia gem stones were only meant for highly important people 

like kings and emperors. Rubies were especially appreciated in India and Jade in China and 

Japan. 

Long before the middle Ages, during the Egyptian empire, Roman and Greek empires gems 

had more of a spiritual character. Amulets made of gemstones were used in religious and 

spiritual ceremonies. The Assyrians considered Lapis Lazuli to be sacred. The stone brought 

the blue of the sky and the light of the Gods to earth. 

In Egypt they often used Carnelian gems, which they called the blood of Isis (the Egyptian 

Goddess of nature). The Carnelian amulet was placed at the throat of a corpse during 

embalming. It was thought to instill Isis’ protection on their journey through the underworld. 

Also were the Egyptians to write the 26 th chapter of their “Book of the dead” on Lapis Lazuli, 

which was used for religious carvings. One should always hold and rub the Lapis Lazuli with 

one hand while reading that particular chapter of the book. 

Also in the pre- Colombian cultures gems were cherished, emeralds where especially 

appreciated by the Muzo Indians, who controlled the emerald mines of what is now known as 

Colombia. 

Gems are said to posses some metaphysical 5 properties and therefore superstitious believes 

surrounded the gems, as people were convinced that wearing amulets made of some of these 

gem stones would keep them from being harmed. So the Holy Roman Emperors wore crowns 

set with opals, which were thought to protect them and their families. 

In Europe amber was worn as protection against witches and warlocks and even ill luck. 

Sailors wore amethyst to protect them and take them to safe harbor, as emeralds were thought 

to exorcise demons. 

In more recent religions like Judaism “Declaration” was a holy diamond with some negative 

aspects. If people erred in their worship or private lives, the stone was reputed to turn murky. 

This murky changed was a predictor of pestilence and death. If the stone turned red, they 

would die by the sword. If the diamond was bright and clear, the Jewish people of Israel knew 

they were free from sin and could celebrate each of their religious festivals without fear. 

In Christianity the Ruby symbolized the blood of Christ. The emerald denoted peace and 

happiness given by God and the diamond was symbolic to fidelity to Christ and God, so the 

popularity of wedding rings made of diamonds. 

Lapis Lazuli is the color of the Medicine Buddha. The Medicine Buddha is invoked for 

physical and Spiritual Healing. Bhaisajya-guru, Lapis Lazuli Radiance Buddha, Master of 

Healing, taught the “Four Treatises on Medicine,” which form the basis of the Tibetan healing 

arts. His colour is the blue of Lapis Lazuli. The begging bowl in his left hand is made of lapis 

and contains the elixir of immortality. His right hand makes the gesture of giving and holds a 

branch of myrobalan, the yellow fruit of which is said to cure all illnesses. To invoke healing 

power it is sufficient to call the name of Medicine Buddha. With this, if one is not 

immediately healed, one can count on improved karma in one’s next lifetime. About Medicine 

Buddha, please see pages previous to Index (page 7). 

1c. Gem stones in ancient medicine and today’s therapies. 

5 Metaphysical means literally, beyond the physical realm, beyond that which we can realize or discover with our five senses. It also means a 

branch of philosophy which studies the “being ness” or inherent nature of reality. 

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Unfortunately little is known about the use of gems in ancient medicine. The only known 

complete Materia Medica that it is said to have described over 200 gem stones and their 

healing powers is that of Dioscorides 6 , which is mainly a book about herbal medicine, in 

which over a 1000 plants are described. 

Some brief general information about the use of gems as medicine in ancient times follows. 

During cholera plagues in ancient Egypt, slaves that mined malachite were usually unaffected, 

since malachite is a basic copper carbonate. Copper helps rheumatism, asthma, and colic. A 

powder of Carnelian was though to stop wounds from bleeding 

Eastern physicians thought the emerald could cure epilepsy, remove both mental and body 

pain, stop vomiting, purge the blood, act as an antidote to poison and bites from wasps, bees, 

and scorpions; helped diabetes, was a remedy for jaundice, and treat leprosy when ground 

finely and applied as a poultice. 

In 500 A.D., Chinese doctors used finely powdered jade in fruit juice for the relief of 

heartburn, asthma, and diabetes. 

Diamonds were also used as a poison. The stones were ground into powder and put into the 

enemy's food and drink. Many prominent people's deaths were attributed to diamond 

poisoning. 

The use of gem stones today are more energy orientated, this means that the gems are not 

usually crushed and prepared as a medicine but they are either worn or placed on to strategic 

body parts to enhance harmony of the charkas 7 during the healing sessions and after. This is 

believed to stimulate the body’s own healing powers by balancing the chakra energy. 

Balancing the chakra energy means balancing the own body’s energy therefore enhancing the 

body’s own healing properties. Gem stone therapy can be used either as an independent form 

or therapy or as a complement to massage, Reiki 8 or other alternative healing techniques like 

Tibetan Gong therapy 9 . 

In Ayurvedic medicine triturated gems have been used as remedies and beauty products for 

thousands of years. Other methods like wearing so called “astrological jewels” are believed to 

have a uniquely powerful way to mitigate and nullify the unfortunate effects of past wrong 

actions (negative karma), as described in Bhattacharya’s gem therapy. 

1d. Gem stones in homeopathy 

6 Dioscorides: Pedianos Dioskourides, also known as Pedanius Dioscorides, probably lived between 40CE and 90CE in the time of the 

Roman Emperors Nero and Vespasian. A Cilician Greek, he was born in Anazarbos (now Nazarba, near Tarsus) within the Roman Empire of 

the day, and today in Turkey. A learned physician, he practiced medicine as an army doctor, and saw service with the Roman legions in 

Greece, Italy, Asia Minor, and Provence in modern-day France. 

7 Chakras: In some belief systems, it is believed that the human body has seven energy vortexes located in different areas of the body. These 

vortexes are located at the base of the spine, the navel, the solar plexus (diaphragm area), the heart, the throat, the third eye (area between the 

eyes, centred on the forehead), and the crown (top of the head). Every chakra has its own properties in the form of emotions or organs in the 

body. An unbalance in the chakra can lead to disease in the correspondent organ or emotional/mental state of the person (emotions). 

8 Chakra therapy is widely used in India (Ayurveda) and in other eastern therapies like Reiki (Japanese healing technique). 

9 Tibetan gong therapy: a form of relaxation therapy in which gongs are played in a certain way. 

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In homeopathy some gems have been proved 10 to be used as remedies. Dr P. Sankaran proved 

Diamond in the 1950’s in which the remedy was made of triturated diamond. The first 

proving of this gem stone was done by Dr. Fincke in 1879, the proving was conducted by just 

holding a large diamond in the prover’s hands. 

In 1994 Jeremy Sherr proved the diamond with a remedy made from diamond dust, in Peter 

Tumminello’s proving the remedy used was made of diamond immersion, in which the gem is 

not crushed but immerged in water and the water is then used to make the homeopathic 

remedy. Other gem stones like pearl, amethyst, and Lapis lazuli have been proved and used in 

the same way. There have also been meditative provings carried out on gem stones, from 

which the acquired information may be a little less acurate, and therefore considered to be less 

reliable by most homeopaths. 

10 The method used by homeopathic researchers to define the symptom profile of a particular substance. Most provings were done and 

recorded in the late 1800's, although in the last ten years many homeopathic researchers have begun proving new substances. Provings are a 

very specific type of research and usually follow a standard protocol. 

They are carried out in a number of ways depending on the type of homeopath carrying out the trial. This can involve anything from 

following Samuel Hahnemann’s strict protocol to a person taking the remedy and meditating on the effects. 

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1d. Gem stones in homeopathy - common themes of gems as a collective 

Rare, special, beautiful and magic 

Stand apart from common substances, are very attractive. They are very hard to find. 

Durability, last very long. 

They served to heal and to protect from illness and associated with power, natural of psychic 

powers. 

Transformation and opposite forces 

They are product of transformation, appear when lower and common rocks become beautiful 

and magical. 

Opposing forces: the fire element is very important in all gem stones. Fire changes things in 

their basic form. Excess of energy = YANG; a lot of hot energy. It can bring about sudden 

changes. The opposite of this is the water element, feminine, sedentary; a breaking down 

process. YING: Water – Cold / YANG: Fire – Heat. 

Light and darkness: 

Light coming out of the darkness: come out of mess of minerals, come from deep places. 

Magic is in what they do with light. Gems are translucent. 

Irreconcilable forces and transmutation, completely opposite, how can they live together? 

Darkness and death VS Light – new awareness – letting of & rebirth 

The darkness of imprisonment; shackled by negativity, culture, relationship, situation. The 

person lives in the underworld. 

The results of a death experience - a journey through Hades (underworld of the psyche). 

Leaving something behind, letting go of something to make the change/transformation. 

Darkness = old patterns. Light new perspective, new way of looking at things. 

Darkness of old crystallized belief systems about self and the potential and light of a new 

perspective, new awareness. 

Most of gems > Light and < by the darkness. 

Go into darkness to find the light. 

Related to the journey into darkness 

Faith in the process of life, in the whole process: Low self – esteem, low confidence. 

Loss of faith is the deepest – deep lost of sense of the self. 

Faith in self = SELF – connection to spirit and the divine. 

Death of ego and exclusivity - Transition from ego to universal feeling – not exclusive, it is 

all connected. It means taking down the big egos. 

Result = New life, new self – giving birth and babies. (Signature for renewal after the death). 

There may be some greed and money- issues about wealth. 

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Family & structure & relationships 

Minerals are elemental compounds in geometric and fixed relationships = Working 

relationships, class relationships, political relationships. 

Aluminum and Silica (are common in the gems). In the periodic table these are the primary 

substances for relationships and their development. 

Seamless bonding and integrity of relationships; highly developed in a healthy way. 

Relations bring order and structure in someone’s life. 

The issues around family alignments are mostly seen in the Amethyst, Golden topaz, Lapis 

lazuli, Black opal and Ruby. 

Order and perfection 

Uniform structure: they look for basics and structure in their lives; the search for the perfect 

order. Often perfectionism is an issue: “this is how I am supposed to be”. 

Believe systems that we have as human, family, religious. 

Animal/instinctual VS enlightened attitude 

What you want, deep inside feeling and what you are expected to do. They have a sense of 

being a very aware human being; a universal feeling, if you like. 

Violence, sexual energy, something like a very fix attitude, f.i racism and the other side is 

enlightened attitude about these things. 

They can go from one extreme of hate to a complete integrated relationship. 

Fever – Obsession – Passion 

Fever = obsession, passion, feel very deeply about something, usually something about 

themselves. It can eventually be turned around to something about the environment. 

They want to achieve something higher. There are high possibilities and leadership. 

1e. Common themes of the gem remedies psyche 

• Abusive, betrayal, violence and protection. 

• Search for beauty and perfection. 

• Boundaries and light, energetic boundaries – out of the body (Amethyst and Gold 

topaz) or grounded feeling. 

• Durability strength and hardness. (When you go through a big or difficult process you 

need to be strong). 

• Geometry order and structure. They are very structured people and sense of order, 

more than ordinary minerals. Geometric images, squares, triangles. 

• Heat and pressure (Diamonds and Rubies) in your life, sense of imprisonment and 

pressure feeling. Passion. 

• Serious and humorous or silly happening, completely letting go. Comic things. 

Humorous dreams, desire to play practical jokes on people. Even in very depressive 

remedies, black humor kinds. Situation is so heavy that is silly. 

• Imagery and symbolism: animals, faeces and toilets, flowers, volcanoes, gods, saints, 

masters and holy men, sun and the moon. 

• Intellect, memory, focus and concentration. Loss of memory (Diamond) or ability to 

focus and concentrate. (Ruby) 

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• Generals relations to the periodic table: 

In general gems relate to series 3 and 4 in periodic table. 

The Silicum series are relation orientated, family and friends, communication, puberty 

and teenage years. Many gems contain Aluminum and Silicon. 

The Iron series are work, duty and task orientated, highly perfectionist. Other themes 

are routine, order and rules, as well as control. Task and control and being put to the 

test. All come out of a transformation process. These metals (Titanium to Cobalt) 

often taken up in the gems. Safire (Titanium) Ruby (Chromium) 11 

11 Peter Tumminello “Twelve Jewels”; Peter Tumminello’s seminar in The Hague 2005. 

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Chapter 2 

2. Introduction to Lapis Lazuli 

2a. Physical properties of Lapis Lazuli and its chemical composition 

Lapis lazuli is a rock composed mainly of the following minerals: 

• Lazurite: Sodium Calcium Aluminum Silicate Sulfate Sulfide Chloride 

• Hauynite: Sodium Calcium Aluminum Silicate Sulfate 

• Sodalite: Sodium Aluminum Silicate Chloride 

• Noselite: Na 8(AlSiO4)6SO4? 

• Calcite: Calcium Carbonate 

• Pyrite: Iron Sulfide 

Lapis lazuli is a rock composed of a mixture of several different minerals including lazurite, 

huaynite, sodalite, noselite, calcite and pyrite. Diopside, augite, mica and hornblende may 

also be present in small amounts. 

Lapis lazuli usually occurs in crystalline lime stones as a result of contact metamorphism. 

Lapis lazuli is characteristically recognized by its colour. It yields H2S gas (smells of rotten 

eggs) when subjected to HCl. The presence of pyrite can distinguish natural lapis lazuli from 

many (but not all) of the lapis simulates. 

2b. Lapis Lazuli historical information and uses 

The name Lapis lazuli comes from the Persian word lazhward meaning blue, in allusion to its 

colour. In ancient times, lapis lazuli was known as sapphirus, which is the name that we use 

today for the blue corundum variety sapphire. 

Lapis lazuli has been highly valued for many thousands of years. The most famous locality 

for fine quality lapis lazuli is the same ancient deposit high in the mountains of Afghanistan 

where it was originally mined at least 6000 years ago. Lapis lazuli was often made into 

jewellery, carvings, amulets and talismans which were believed to have occult powers. It was 

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used by the ancient Egyptians in many religious ceremonies, and was often used as an 

inscription stone for various passages from the Book of the Dead, most important being 

Chapter 26 th . 

Lapis lazuli was one of the stones in the 'Breastplate of Judgement' of Aaron, described in the 

Bible (Exodus: xxviii, 15-30). Lapis lazuli was said to dispel melancholy and depression, and 

to cure recurring fevers. It was also said to impart ancient knowledge, and the wisdom to use 

it. 

Up until the nineteenth century, Lapis Lazuli was ground up and mixed with oil to produce 

the deep blue-green pigment known as ultramarine which meant literally beyond the sea, as 

the Lapis Lazuli was brought from far away by ship. Since 1828, this pigment has been 

produced synthetically from a roasted mixture of kaolin clay, sodium sulphate and charcoal. 

Lapis Lazuli today is still a very popular lapidary material. It is made into a variety of handcrafted 

objects such as carvings, spheres, beads, cabochons and other jewellery items. 

Lapis Lazuli is imitated by a number of methods typically involving the use of dyes on a 

variety of natural rocks and synthetic materials. Sometimes dyes are used in combination with 

the crushing and reconstitution of lower grade Lapis Lazuli. 

2c. Lapis Lazuli and its metaphysical properties & healing powers 

Lapis lazuli is said to enhance one's awareness, insight and intellect. It is also said to impart 

ancient knowledge and wisdom, bringing peacefulness and self-acceptance. It helps people to 

rid themselves of influences of past situations that still cause trouble in the present. It liberates 

from compromises and restraint. It takes away fears and blockages of the emotional realm and 

helps to work through denial. 

Lapis Lazuli is said to help cure depression, insomnia, recurring fevers, vision and hearing 

problems, and disorders of the throat, lungs and immune system. 

It is also associated with self-confidence, truthfulness, openness and inner tranquillity. 

The astrological sign corresponding to Lapis Lazuli is the sign of Sagittarius. The qualities of 

Sagittarius include: change-loving he governs long-distance travel, matters of the higher mind 

(philosophy, religion and the law), cultural pursuits – and having a good time! It is a fire sign, 

so Sagittarians are positive, forthright communicators who love travelling – although you do 

tend to be restless and hate to take orders. 

2d. Links between stone and the trituration proving of Lapis Lazuli 

A cutter will make a face when cutting the Lapis Lazuli stone, because as soon as the stone 

comes into contact with the cutting wheel, it will emanate a typical, slightly foul smell. Many 

of the provers experienced strong and sharp smells during triturations and after, proving list of 

symptoms page 29. 

Lapis Lazuli was used in Egypt to write a few chapters of “The book of the Dead”. At higher 

levels of the triturations there were visions and associations with Egypt as well as death and 

the dead, proving list of symptoms page 34. 

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Before it was possible to reproduce the ultramarine colour artificially the paint made of Lapis 

was used in many works of art. Many portraits of the Virgin Mary are coloured with this blue, 

for instance Raphael’s “Alba Madonna”. During the proving, after taken a few drops of Lapis 

Lazuli C40/4 the figure of the Virgin Mary appears in channelling sessions and songs, page 

65. 

The metaphysical properties of Lapis Lazuli according to gem therapy are associated with 

self-confidence, truthfulness, openness and inner tranquillity, as well as helping people to rid 

themselves of influences of past situations that still cause trouble in the present. It liberates 

from compromises and restraint. All of these things have been strongly experienced by many 

of the provers during or after the triturations. 

2e. A description of the components of Lapis Lazuli according to the periodic table 

The main component of Lapis Lazuli is lazurite (25 to 40 percent). Lazurite 12 is a 

feldspathoid 13 silicate mineral composed of sodium, aluminium, silicon, oxygen, sulphur and 

chlorine. Because these are the main components of this gem, we can assume that their 

properties, as described in the periodic table of Jan Scholten 14 , should be clearly found in the 

proving symptoms. If not all, at least some of the elements mentioned, to check this I have 

listed some of the themes and properties of these elements, at the end I present a short list of 

the themes I think should certainly be found in the trituration proving of Lapis Lazuli. 

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Chloride (from Chlorum) Aluminum, Silicon, Sulphur all belong to the 3 series or the so 

called “Silicium series”. 

In this series the main themes are relationships, family, you and the other and the relationship 

between these two. Also language, communication, learning and playing, as well as 

presentation to the public are all present in this series. The teenage years are the time of life 

related to this series, which makes sense since puberty is the time when it is all about learning 

from relationships, with parents, friends, the time when we start gaining interest in the 

opposite sex and relations become the core of our lives. Also what others think of you and the 

image you present is important in those years. Learning and playing to learn in relationships 

are part of the formation of human teenagers. 

Muriatricums: Chlorum and Natrium Muriatricum 

Chlorum: the essence of this remedy is the idea that care and attention is all or nothing. They 

are hypersensitive to this. The slightest cause can make them scream and shout that nobody 

takes them into consideration. Their feeling is that nobody cares about them. The reality is 

that they need so much nurturing that other give up trying to fulfil their demands. 

The other side to this are the ones who never ask for any attention. The choice of this people 

is to manage them selves and deal with their own things. 

12 Lazurite is a popular but generally expensive mineral. Well-formed, deep blue crystals are rare and valuable. It is more commonly found 

massive and combined with other minerals into a rock called lapis lazuli. Class: Silicates. Group: both Sodalite and feldspathoids. 

13 The feldspathoids are not a typical mineral group like other mineral groups that are related by structure and chemistry. Their relation to 

each other is due primarily to their relationship to the feldspar group of minerals. Feldspathoids are low silica igneous minerals that would 

have formed feldspars if only more silica (SiO2) were present in the original magma. The aluminum to silicon ratio is nearly 1:1 in most of 

the feldspathoids but is closer to 1:3 in most of the feldspars. As would be predicted, feldspathoids are not found in igneous rocks that 

contain primary quartz. 

14 Jan Scholten “Homeopathy and Minerals” 

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Chlorum is located at Stage 17 of the periodic, according to Luc de Schepper 15 , these elements 

have consumed themselves in the process of great, often misplaced activity. These are 

consumed with anger, irritability, indifference as well as morose and sad feelings. 

In the case of Chlorum this may mean that he has put all the effort on getting the attention he 

needs, and exhausting himself by doing so, not achieving his goal, he becomes irritated and 

angry as well as suffering from grief. 

Nat-m needing people can be very spontaneous and naïve, and initially cheerful. Because they 

tend to see things through pink glasses they are prone to big disappointments, giving room for 

grief and forgetting all about the happy times. Natriums are located in the first stages when 

learning to communicate and relate to others is still an issue, they are not very handy with 

relationships, and this usually leads to rejection and isolation after being hurt. 

They are alone, lonely, forsaken feeling and still wanting to be alone. 

Muriatricum also stands for mother. 

Physically we see mainly headaches, great thirst and emaciation. 16 

Aluminum 

The Stage 3 on the periodic table stands for alternating behaviour because of a struggle. There 

is apprehension about the future, a social struggle, difficult fitting in. There are feelings of 

guilt (anxiety as if a crime has been committed). They are sensitive to criticism. It is possible 

to see improved mental functions as well as confusion. 

In Alumina we see confusion of thoughts versus clarity. There is internal hurry and feeling of 

being hurried, at times with the sensation that time passes too slowly. 

In relations Alumina struggles with domination and a desire to be independent, this result in 

alternating behaviour. They can not free themselves from the chains of dependence. 

Physically we see general dryness and itch of the skin, problems with gastrointestinal tract, 

slow digestion and bloating. 

Silicon – Silicate – Silica element 

Silicates – which contain the Silica element, are all about family, image and timidity. 

Stage 10 of the periodic table, freshly formed ego, still unpolished (meaning that we be 

influenced), and narrowed perception of things, they can be quite stubborn. These are people 

hardened on the outside, still vulnerable on the inside. They are obstinate in their opinions but 

often do not share them to avoid hurting others or being criticised. 

They have fixed ideas of delusions. Intolerance of contradiction, 

We see varying degrees of haughtiness and egotism. 

15 Luc de Schepper “Homeopathy and the Periodic Table” Volume 1 

16 All lists physical symptoms from: Frans Vermeulen “Prisma – The Arcana of Materia Medica Iluminated” 

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Physically we see tremendous chilliness, easy perspiration, very thirsty, suppuration, 

glandular affections and headaches. 

Sulphur 

Stage 16 of the periodic table is about the good old memories. It is about the loss of power 

and still remembering these times. The more power lost, the more compensation or 

acceptance is needed. If adaptation is impossible, life seems worthless, and one might as well 

commit suicide. 

There is a lack of reality; in order to be convincing about whom they are, still passionate is 

body and spirit. They have the delusions about still being in power. Theorizing about 

everything, about the power they imagine or remember, the influence wealth, respect, sexual 

powers. They act as if they still were in power, especially at home, with family. 

They tend to be antisocial, do not ever listen to anybody, they always want to be the centre of 

attention or complete outsiders. 

Sulphur focuses in religion and philosophy. He is still being great at this, wanting to invent 

the something special and being unique at this. Sulphur has clear ideas and is mostly selfsatisfied. 

Physically we see burning pains and sensations, many skin symptoms, slow, lazy and always 

tired. Sulphur desires sweets and spices. 

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Oxygen belongs to the “Carbon series” or 2 series 

The carbon series are about “Ego”. The individual forming himself; it is about self-worth, Iweakness, 

lust and possessions. The age in which these elements of the personality are formed 

is childhood. 

Oxygen is located at Stage 16 in which decay is the main theme. The possible feeling of 

Oxygen at this stage is one of selfishness, being used and abused, feeling the victim, 

indignation and debt. 

According to Jan Scholten 17 , the issues of Oxygenium are around finding balance between 

taking and giving. They are afraid of losing their material things. It can be so extreme that 

they become greedy and avaricious. The opposite can be also true, complete indifference 

towards material goods. 

They feel they are worth it and others need to see this. Because of this, they tend to claim 

attention; they feel that they did not get what they deserve. If they do not get this, feel angry 

and insulted. If this goes any further, the feeling is that of being abused. They feel others have 

taken away a lot; they have lost their possessions or self-esteem. After this there may be an 

attitude of being the victim, they complain about everybody and feel they have been done 

wrong. 

17 Jan Scholten “Homeopathy and the Elements” 

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th 

Iron and Calcium belong to the 4 series or the “Iron series” 

The main themes in the Iron series are task, work, duty, ability, perfectionism, order and rules, 

control, being observed and exams, failure, guilt, crime and being persecuted. 

Calcium stands at the second stage where being observed, questioned and evaluated are 

important. In Calcium we see especially many fears and anxieties, fear of being observed and 

timidity. It is a great deal for them what others think, they are insecure and very sensitive to 

criticism. 

Physically we see coldness, gland affections, heart problems, stomach problem and thyroid 

problems. 

Iron stands at eighth stage. At this stage force, struggle, concentration, endurance are some of 

the main themes. According to Luc de Schepper, this stage is about the struggle to establish a 

balanced ego. These are fighting, battling remedies. Delusion of being at war, alternating 

behaviour because of a struggle, apprehension about the future, social struggle, difficult fitting 

in. There is anxiety as if a crime had been committed, feelings of guilt. They are very 

sensitive to criticism. 

Physically we see hammering headaches, vomiting, and diarrhoea and circulation problems. 

If we assume that the contents of this gem give part of their characteristic to the remedy made 

of Lapis Lazuli we can expect problems related with the following: 

a. relationships and problems with these 

b. grief/disappointment and introspection 

c. need for attention, forsaken feeling 

d. instability – alternating states 

e. ego problems 

f. religion, philosophy, spirituality 

g. feeling of being used or abused 

h. difficulty with sharing things 

i. battling and struggling, possible feelings of guilt 

The most prominent physical symptoms that we in these elements are: 

j. coldness – heat - circulation 

k. skin problems – dryness and itch 

l. gland affections 

m. headaches 

n. thirst 

It is though very important to remember that even if Lapis Lazuli is made of these elements, 

the combination and the presence of these elements in the stone are unique and therefore 

should also be able to produce other unique and specific symptoms for this stone. A more 

detail analysis of this can be found throughout the proving data and under the chapter about 

“Differential Diagnosis”. 

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Chapter 3 

3. The trituration proving of Lapis Lazuli in the Netherlands 

3a. The conduction of the trituration 

The trituration of Lapis Lazuli was conducted under the lead and supervision of Alize 

Timmerman from December 2004 until June 2005 in The Hague, the Netherlands. 

The proving was conducted with a group of about 20 provers, 19 women and just 1 man, ages 

28 to 58 years. The substance was unknown to all provers up to the fourth trituration except 

for the supervisor and the Institute assistants, provers 6, 15 and 18. Prover 3 knew from 

intuition what the substance was but did not share it with anyone until it was made public. 

The first trituration of the proving was conducted on December 8 th 2004, the second one took 

place on January 26 th , the third on February 1 st , the fourth on March 16 th 2005 and the fifth 

trituration took place on April 1 st 2005. In May of 2005 some of the provers also took a single 

dose of Lapis Lazuli C40/4, see page 61. Not all the provers did all the triturations for 

different reasons, the main one seemed to be some sort of fear for what was about to come, 

which was not usual in other triturations. 

Some of the provers chose to start or finish some of the triturations at home (Prover 1, 2, 3, 

16, 17, 19). After every trituration we would have group meetings in which all the 

experiences were shared. 

The method used in this proving was that of trituration, there are four levels and we take one 

hour to triturate each level. This is done like described by Hahnemann in his Organon. See 

reference 18. 

C1 represents the physical level, C2 the mental level, C3 the emotional level, C4 the 

individual spiritual level and C5 the collective spiritual level or archetypical level. The 

experience teaches us that the symptoms produced at each level are not always just the one 

corresponding to that level; it is likely that most provers produced physical symptoms at other 

levels, not just at the C1 level. The same applies for instance to symptoms of emotional nature 

that can appear at the C1 level. It is also interesting to see that often physical symptoms are 

accompanied by emotions. 

The goal of such trituration provings it is not only to make your own good quality remedies as 

Hahnemann encouraged us to us in his Organon 18 , but also to connect directly with the energy 

of the substance by engaging in a meditative way of trituration, doing it in a group is said to 

enhance the resonance with the substance and with each other, which means that the 

symptoms and sensations are experienced more clearly or strongly. It is believed that this way 

you enhance the perception of yourself and the environment and that, just like a regular 

proving, this kind of practices can bring about healing. In some cases some spectacular 

healing processes take place, like some old masters in homeopathy have experienced as well 

in the past 19 . The special thing about this method is that you do not stop at the third trituration 

18 Samuel Hahnemann “Organon der geneeskunst” aforism 264 – 271 “Making the remedies” 

19 Jeremy Sherr, “The Dynamics and methodology of homeopathic provings” page 68-69 

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or C3, like Hahnemann 20 did with the non soluble substances, you go one step further, to the 

C4 in which you connect with still unknown spiritual information of the substance. This level 

touches the individual plane of spirituality; the C5 brings about a collective experience or as it 

is called the archetypical 21 information of a substance. The existence of this “collective 

knowledge” as Jung 22 described it, has not only been confirmed by Jeremy Sherr during his 

Hahnemannian provings but also by more contemporary provers like one of the pioneers of 

the C4- homeopathy Jürgen Becker or Rajan Sankaran himself 23 . 

These kind of triturations are usually done in a silent, meditative way, even though in this 

case we also took the chance to paint, which was a beautiful experience because in this way 

we created a situation in which we could interact with each other under influence of the 

substance, giving us a much better inside in the feelings and sensations of this remedy. One of 

the most striking things that came up was about territories and boundaries, the feeling that 

someone could go over these with no respect awoke a lot of anger and irritation, all of these 

elements come back repeatedly in the proving. The “conflict” was mainly going on between 

provers 7 and 15, the rest were mostly spectators with an opinion about what was going on. 

Proving list of symptoms, pages 30, 35 & 38. 

20 Samuel Hahnemann“Organon der geneeskunst” Dutch version of the 6 th edition, page 149 

21 Archetypical: representing or constituting an original type after which other similar things are patterned; "archetypal patterns"; It also 

means subconscious collective information of the human race.( www.answers.com) 

22 The collective unconscious is a part of the unconscious mind common to all humans. According to Carl Jung, the collective unconscious 

contains archetypes, universal mental predispositions not grounded in experience. (http://skepdic.com/collectiveun.html) 

23 Jeremy Sherr, “The Dynamics and methodology of homeopathic provings” page 33 

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3b. Classification of symptoms in the trituration proving 

Disadvantages in this kind of trituration proving affecting the symptom classification 

As soon as it was decided that I was going to work on this proving as my graduation work I 

read Sherr’s book about the methodology of the provings and I consulted the proving 

guidelines of the “European Council of Classical Homeopathy (ECCH)” 24 . I soon realized that 

those proving guidelines are written for the so called “Hahnemannian provings” in which a lot 

of things are taken in consideration before accepting a prover into a proving. 

Unfortunately the set up for this trituration only met a few of the requests on which a proving 

is considered reliable. These were that the group had between 10-20 provers, that there were 

no pregnant women of lactating women participating and old the provers were older than 18 

years and the group was formed with people from different backgrounds and professions, not 

all of them being homeopaths or students of homeopathy. 

The probably most important requests that are not met are the fact that every one’s medical 

history was and is still unknown to me, that a big number of those provers were receiving 

homeopathic treatment at the time of the triturations. 

It is thus necessary to consider that the methodology of these types of provings is different to 

the trituration ones and therefore is it very difficult to classify the symptoms according to the 

“official method”. 

Sherr gives us a list of guidelines 25 to include symptoms which unfortunately I am afraid I can 

not use consistently since it if often unknown whether the symptoms are old, new, cured or 

altered. Only a few of the provers mention this in their texts. It is a fact that these provers did 

not use the official guidelines for keeping and registering their symptoms, even though a list 

of these was mailed beforehand. I would imagine that the reason for this is that these provers 

all have families, jobs, studies and even pets to take care of. The symptoms, from which this 

information is known, have been classified accordingly. 

Another disadvantage in this kind of trituration proving is that often modalities are not 

mentioned, because sometimes they are just not visible or are discovered by coincidence. 

There is also the fact to be considered that some provers did not know if what they were 

experiencing was due to their treatments or circumstances in their lives. The supervisor did 

provide some guidance in these matters but since the time was limited not everyone got to be 

screened before, during and after the proving. 

General advantages that come out of this kind of trituration provings 

There is some time and quietness to really go into the substance and experience the 

symptoms, this can last for just the trituration times or can be there for days, even weeks. 

It gives the prover the chance to know the remedy really well because you get to experience 

the deepest insides of it, which can be very helpful for the prescribing practitioner. These 

24 http://www.homeopathy-ecch.org/content/view/24/41/ 

25 Jeremy Sherr, The dynamics and methodology of homeopathic provings, p 70-72 

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experiences can be healing and helpful to everyone willing to experience them and embrace 

them fully. 

It creates a bond with the group since you are constantly sharing the most intimate 

experiences, even those of spiritual or religious character. It can create a sense of togetherness 

and sympathy that is not possible when the provers are not in touch with each other, like it is 

requested by the official proving guidelines. 

3c. Classification of the symptoms 

As I have just mentioned above it is very difficult to classify these symptoms according to the 

official guidelines. What I have done instead is translate all the symptoms given to me by the 

provers. I have included almost all of those symptoms in this work. The reason why I have 

done this is because as I started classifying the symptoms I realised that there were hardly any 

symptoms showing that were outrageous or seemed to make no sense at all. All the symptoms 

I have come across have either a strong resemblance or connection to the general themes of 

gem stone remedies as described by Peter Tumminello 26 , or show a strong resemblance to the 

components of the gem Lapis Lazuli as described in the previous chapter. 

Therefore I have no reason to doubt that the symptoms are genuine and belong to the 

substance we were triturating. Another confirmation is the fact that all of the provers 

experienced very similar things, sometimes experienced literally the same. Other loose 

symptoms experienced by some provers where also included in the list, only time can teach us 

whether these are part of the proving or not, as again Sherr states in his book 27 

3d. Following order of lists of symptoms 

The mental symptoms are the first ones you find in the next pages. The mental/emotional 

symptoms have been grouped under main themes. The main themes are chosen according to 

the different mental symptoms and are mention with prover number and level of trituration 

beside each symptom. The choice not to translate the mental symptoms into rubrics is meant 

for keeping the symptoms as intact as possible and easier to understand. Peter Tumminello 

also uses this theme method in his book “Twelve Jewels”. The physical symptoms have been 

grouped under the corresponding body part and translated into rubrics as seen in the Synthesis 

repertory and Frans Vermeulen’s “Concordant Materia Medica”. A list with the proving 

dreams has been added right before a brief explanation of the C5-level linking it to the fairy 

tale “Sleeping Beauty”. The C5-level has only been summarized with those symptoms that 

give a deeper or broader understanding of the remedy. I have not listed again all the other 

symptoms that have been widely described in the first for levels of the triturations. For 

instance symptoms like ice coldness, violent anger and etcetera. The last information given is 

about the symptoms produced after taking a single dose of Lapis Lazuli C40/4, potentized by 

the provers themselves on May 11 th 2005. 

26 Peter Tumminello, “Twelve Jewels” p. 1-11 

27 Jeremy Sherr, The dynamics and methodology of homeopathic provings, p. 68- 69 

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After that a summary of the proving classified by trituration level as well as a small 

summarized text between the mental and physical symptoms has been added. A few sentences 

describing the essence of the remedy have also been added to this summary. 

3e. Mind Symptoms 

MIND – THEMES and related symptoms to the themes 

Wild animals & territories – Instinct – Acute Senses – Nature 

* Awakened instincts, feeling of being an animal with acute senses, shaper vision and 

hearing. Sensation and need to break from human bonds. Freedom of wild animals, no 

borders, like in nature* 

• A lion – I felt more animal than human. I could not think like a person. I could 

experience moistness, the sun on the skin. I tried to rationalize it and it did not work. I 

could only see a big gray mass, no shape. I had lost the human sight on things. I 

checked twice in the mirror to see if I was really a lion. (11/C1) 

• I can smell stronger and vision is sharp. (17/C1) 

• I saw wolves walking, there is an interesting conflict going on with the painting, 

people talk of having no boundaries and at the same time you come there in the 

territory, space and border by arguing about it. In territories there is always a border. 

(9/C2) 

• People do not belong in cities, but in nature like animals. Animal necessity of breaking 

links and bonds. (13/C3) 

• Delusions of smell peppermint, camphor, trees, fruit, sweet smells, burned coffee, 

fresh soap, gasoline. (1/C3 5/C4, 1/C1, 3/C2, 17/C1, 8/C2) 

Alternating moods – Changing states – Contradictions 

* Some sort of emotional instability is experienced. Often joy, alternates with either anger or 

sadness, sometimes both, also contradictory states* 

• Strongly going from anger to the humoristic side of this remedy. (6/C1) 

• I feel like a yo-yo; one minute I am happy, the next very sad, melancholic without 

reason. I wish death. (7/C1) 

• I was feeling good after clearing up the house, in an instant enormous argument with 

partner even though I felt love. There was a quick shift in my moods. (16/C1) 

• After anger and being goofy, teasing, I keep on singing the song it my head “Let it be 

love”. (1/C2) 

• Irritation and then laughing. (3/C2) 

• The fear and anxiety are gone, now I feel good, relaxed, and happy and free. (3/C2) 

• Hyperactivity alternating with dullness. (2/C3) 

• Everything feels opposite. I can either take everything or nothing. (8/C3) 

• I am either cautious or not at all. (8/C3) 

• I feel all these contradictions. Calmness and serenity VS Sadness. Contradictions in 

my life, do not know whether I should go right or left. (12/C3) 

• Being – not being / Indifference – strong feelings. (2/C4) 

• Quiet and relaxed # Chaos and not being able to concentrate. (12/C4) 

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• Depressed # light feeling. (12/C4) 

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Bullying – fights – teenage years – doing forbidden things – feeling of injustice/borders 

* There is a feeling of being teased, bullied, not understood, the way things go is unfair. 

There is a feeling of someone crossing the line and this leading to anger. Some of the provers 

associate this with puberty * 

• I see a 4-6 year old, he is doing something that his mother disapproves and he is 

laughing about it. I did it and you did not even see it! (3/C1) 

• I think of puberty, I know how everything is! (5/C1) 

• I get angry with my mother, enormously angry, I yell. She is not reasonable, it is all 

unfair. She does not get it! It makes me think of puberty. (7/C1) 

• Fights and arguments with teenage sons. (7/C1) 

• The feeling of injustice leads to anger. (14/C1) 

• I see images of the past, situations in which I was very angry, it all had to do with 

crossing the line, the border, the limit. I feel the anger boiling in me. It is violent but I 

know where it comes from, I am not clear; I let it happen. (17/C1) 

• I have a goofy feeling. I feel goofy, I tease my husband. (1/C2) 

• Teasing and suppressed aggression is how I experience the painting issue. Anger 

because someone crossed the line. (4/C2) 

• Feeling of being bullied, teased with almost physical pain, I observe, wait until they 

cross the line, I do not know what I am going to do if they do cross the line, when I 

see that does not happen I relax and start to see it differently, I can let go. (7/C2) 

• There is something I do not like, do not want to follow the group, I do not want to 

resist, but participating is difficult. From resisting, I think of war. (7/C3) 

• I want to make noise, fart, I feel childish, 12-13 years old. (17/C3) 

Inner dark side – goals 

* There is the feeling of being drawn to your own dark side, to the that you would not want to 

see, those things that your gladly ignore about yourself. It seems that from ignoring the dark 

side the goal in life is not visible* 

• Something hard, strong, is drawing me from the inside. Something wants to come out 

of me but it cant, something takes me to the inside; I feel almost breathless, almost sad 

but calm. I feel as if I was pushed into a big, dark inner side. (10/C3) 

• I feel like this trituration is a conversation with my inner self. At some point in the 

conversation I understood one half and then got headache on the third eye area, 

between eye brows. It is about the things that clash in my life. It all feels very heavy. 

(12/C3) 

• It feels like there is a protected wholeness, can not get to the essence or the goal. It 

feels it is almost there. (13/C3) 

Death – cemeteries – ghosts – associations with the elderly and terminal patients 

* Death and dying associated with the elderly, terminal patients, and cold places, lean people 

and bones, all death symbols. Delusions of seeing dead people, grave and dying. Death seen 

as a transformation process* 

• I see ghosts in black gowns. (1/C1) 

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• Feeling of a dark energy. (1/C1) 

• Feeling as if I was in a horror film, sod off! (1/C1) 

• I see a cemetery; it feels like I am digging a grave. (1/C1) 

• I see a cemetery (4/C1), cemetery and coldness. (4/C1) (16/C3) 

• I feel quiet inside; I quietly look death in the eyes. (4/C1) 

• Remedy for old people; terminal patients. Some sort of transformation from one fase 

to the other. To help terminal people accept death. (4/C1) (17/C3) 

• My dad said: you look terrible, like dead. (4/C1) 

• I feel dead, also mentally but it does not scare me, it is not negative. (4/C1) 

• Presentiment of death, but it did not bother me. (6/C1). 

• I wish death. (7/C1) (17/C3) 

• I see old people all over. I think they are lonely. I am afraid of getting old. (7/C1) 

• Death – people of the world in a circle, hand in hand, Hallelujah. A huge iron plate, 

surrounded by grass crashes all the people, some came crawling out as if nothing had 

happened. The feeling is: ok we are going to die, come from down under and go on. 

(11/C1) 

• I had images of Auschwitz (in snow and cold). (15/C1) 

• Transformation. (1/C2) 

• Dead feeling. (8/C2) 

• Dying from coldness. (hypothermia?) (19/C2) 

• I think of my grandma, aunt, uncle, they are all dead. (3/C3) 

• I think of death after have seen very big, gigantic trees, mother earth. This remedy 

follows BEECH. (3/C3) 

• I wonder what I am doing on earth; wish to be on the other side. (3/C3) 

• I do not feel depressed and in fact I do not wish death, but I just felt so good on the 

other side, on top of the mountain. I was not down here then, I was up there and it felt 

good. (3/C3) 

• A friend of mine had an operation; he is probably going to die. It touches me 

enormously. This means another good-bye. (16/C3) 

• The material world is too heavy; I can not get through it. I want to be up there, in the 

spiritual world, a world with no thoughts. This life is too much for me. I want to be up 

there. (17/C3) 

• I feel I need to say good-bye to this world. (17/C3) 

• I feel like letting go, do not want to be on earth. I want to go, away from this earth, I 

have seen too much already. (1/C4) 

• I yearn for music to help me float away from here. (1/C4) 

• After a while I feel as if I was gone, I get lighter all the time, thinner as if I was 

dissolving. I come back and wonder where I am. I realize I am back, this is my destiny 

and it feels heavy. (17/C3) (1/C4) 

• I need to do my best to be here, have the feeling that I can “slip away” anytime; after 

this enormous grief and need to cry intensely. (1/C4) 

• I think of dead people and the way they lived. (5/C4) 

• Passing on to the next world through death. (15/C4) (17/C4) 

• Sadness, I do not want to die, I want to live. (17/C4) 

• Dementia, death, death of my own dad. Lean and bones. (20/C4) 

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Detachment – Indifference – Soberness – Recklessness 

* A sense of detachment, indifference, like nothing matters anymore, not caring anymore. 

There is a strong feeling of being unmoved by things, no feeling of any kind. Emotional 

coldness* 

• I leave the house and leave the heaters on. I do not usually do that, learned from my 

dad to be cautious but today I just do not care. (3/C1) 

• I have been taking distance. I had to get away from it all. I knew things and that was 

enough. 

• I have been detaching from reality. It is a sober feeling. (9/C1) 

• Sober – that you do not get taken over by the feeling or emotion (10/1) 

• I could dose the news about the Tsunami very well, could cry when TV on, but I could 

go on easily when it was off. (11/C1) 

• I feel sober, very manly, a farmer man. (11/C1) 

• I felt some sort of soberness. (12/1) 

• Seeing the grief around me does not move me, I just perceive it. (17/C1) 

• Things go wrong at work, it is very busy but it does not affect me. (1/C2) 

• I feel neutral, nothing specific. (3/C2) 

• Trance like feeling – neutral feeling – detached from reality – things around appear 

vague. (3/C2) 

• Neutral feeling about death. (3/C2) 

• Emptiness that feels nice. (19/C2) (17/C3) (1/C4) (2/C4) 

• Dimmed emotions, untouchable. (19/C2) 

• Neutral meditative feeling, trance. (3/C3) 

• Do not feel like dressing up, do not care what other think, this feels good to me. (7/C3, 

17/C2) 

• I feel that I am in a different dimension, I do not relate to others. Cannabis feeling, 

every one is theorizing. (18/C3) 

• Feeling of distance and death. (2/C4) 

• I feel indifferent, detached. (2/C4) 

• Neutral feeling, walking on a golden aisle to the other world. (3/C4) 

• Deep indifference, it does not do me anything. (17/C4) 

• No connection with the environment. I am fine alone. (17/C4) 

Different dimensions – wider view (C3/C4) 

* In a deeper level the pain of experiencing things as unfair not being understood and others 

crossing the line, transforms into the possibility to see things from a wider perspective, a 

different point of view. It is about seeing without borders* 

• This remedy gives us the energy to see that facts and reality can change real quickly. 

People can experience different truths and that is why there is separation and 

arguments. People relate to truth and injustice, just like kids feels it is not fair! (15/C3) 

• Cruel dreams are not cruel in a different dimension. The time and culture define this. 

The cruelty can be normal in another culture of time. Living in different dimensions 

produces grief. (18/C3) 

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• Having the feeling of wanting to be up there and not down here. (3/C3) (17/C3) 

• I want to go to other dimensions, for this I need to let go. I do not want to be on earth. 

(1/C4) 

• Feeling of being in the eternal mountain world, on a snowy mountain top, looking 

down the world. I have an overview. I am above of the people’s non-sense. Feeling of 

eternity. (5/C4) 

• Der Untergang. There was no overview; those people were too deep into it. (7/C4) 

• I am so far across the borders that I do not even see the earth. It is not fair how people 

cheat each other, everyone does it. (13/C4) 

Ego – selfishness – a way to deal with your pain (C3/C4) 

* Again in a deeper level we find that to have a wider view and being able to see further than 

your own perspective you need to let go of your ego. Selfishness seems to be a way to protect 

balance your extreme feelings and to help you carry what might be unbearable otherwise* 

• I have had quick thoughts about what selfishness really is. A few years ago a patient 

died in my practice while doing her follow up. The remedy had done her well, felt 

very happy, realized. Back then, when she died I was not sad and I was angry at 

myself for not being sad. I was sad for her husband and children but not for her. Later 

I understood why I did not feel the sadness. That was a logical time for her to die. We 

people have an aversion of situation of others. We have a problem ourselves, sadness 

about someone who has died, we only really feel our own sadness but project it into 

the death of that person; feelings that you reuse through the others. This stabilizes our 

extreme feelings. (15/C3) 

• Association of the angry sea with violent waves. Young boys who are disobedient or 

even almost hard, seem to have no feelings. This rebellious feeling is where the pain 

hides. Young boys have the strength to do it like this. (15/C3) 

• I do not want to prove myself, I am ok like this. It is the horrible egos to which I need 

to prove myself. (1/C4) 

• You can all have the EGO- existence, it is fine by me, and I am gone! I feel sad but 

proud. (1/C4) 

• As I walk down the golden aisle I ask myself. Did I learn enough? I got the feeling 

that this does not touch me, move me. What is the opposite of this? That everything 

comes in goes through you. Give and take. Selfishness can be harmful but also 

healthy. You do not need to miss anything, what you need will be provided. 

• I see a farao, the Queen Nefertiti and a slave, I ask myself, who is privileged? The one 

who can forget his ego. In reality it is all the same, you have to walk the golden aisle 

by yourself. (3/C4) 

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Egypt 

• You lose awareness and overview when you get stuck in your ego. To be able to walk 

down the golden aisle, you have to grow. Growing comes from overview, a wider 

perspective. (3/C4) 

• This remedy is for people who have lost their wide perspective because of their ego, 

therefore being unable to see from other perspectives. The opposite is too little ego, 

therefore not feeling understood what leads to grief. The solution to this is being able 

to see from ALL the perspectives. (3/C4) 

• When do we need EGO? It all has to do with boundaries. Boundaries do not exist, but 

you can only understand this when you can let go of your ego. (3/C4) 

• Why do not we get to know things? Is our ego in the way? (7/C4) 

• People are beautiful in the way we try to strive for truth, reaching the BEING state. 

(7/C4) 

* Egypt associated with death and a passage to the after life. Another way to see the 

transformation process* 

• Smell of old rags, like from the pyramids. (17/C1) 

• I see Egypt, an oasis in the dessert. I see the orange sky and Nefertiti’s head. I have a 

neutral feeling. It feels like the passage to the other world. I walk in a golden aisle, 

going somewhere but the aisle does not seem to end. (3/C4) 

• Dry skin associated with mummies. (17/C4) 

• I had something with Egypt. (18/C4) 

Excitement – joy – feeling happy 

*Feeling of happiness and thankfulness. Feeling understood* 

• I get a little pile of this blue stuff in the mortar. It looks very beautiful. I feel excited, I 

am curious about the result of this trituration. (3/C1) 

• I feel this excitement (in the stomach). Then I feel that my bladder is full and that I 

might pee myself from the excitement. (3/C1) 

• I see a group of children at some park, playing with a ball. They throw the ball in the 

air and then I see the sky. I see the clear, blue sky. I have happy thoughts. (3/C1) 

• I feel happy and open, intense conversations. I feel that my conversation partners 

understand exactly what I mean. (5/C1) 

• I feel excited, surprised of how beautiful the color blue is. (17/C1) 

• I feel good. (17/C1) 

• Gay and happy feeling, I feel thankful to be able to experience this. (1/C2) (7/C4) 

• I think of color times, happy times. I feel happy thinking of the past a lot, I see 

pictures of my family and me, old pictures. (2/C2) 

• Smiling, sensation of happiness. (3/C2) 

• Excited, want to get on with painting and do not want to be stopped in this. (7/C2) 

• I feel happy, happy that I got the information I got about the ego. (3/C4) 

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Fear – anxiety, of the intensity of the symptoms, feeling of threat with anger 

* Violent fears and anxieties for what it is about to come. There is a fear of the intensity of it 

and not being able to handle it or cope with it, most of these fears are felt in the stomach or 

abdomen* 

• Fear, I walk back and forth, I feel like a caged animal. (1/C1) 

• I feel threatened, as if the powder was going to attack me. (1/C1) 

• On the day of the trituration very anxious before I came to the meeting. I felt the fear 

in the abdomen. (12/C1) 

• I am afraid of finishing the trituration, I am afraid of my own anger and violent 

explosions. (17/C1) 

• Anxious, fearful, something is going to happen, somebody is going to die, it is 

someone I care about.(3/C2) 

• Something needs to explode, meteorite, fireball with a feeling of being attacked. 

(7/C2) 

• Anticipation fear, fear of the future, I feel it in the stomach. I do not know how to do 

things in the future; I do not know what is going to bring me. (13/C2) 

• Fear of the trituration. (15/C3) Fear of the trituration and that is why does not do it. 

(16/C3) 

• I have very anxious premonitions when I get up and it stays with me the whole day. 

My abdomen hurts because of this. (16/C3) 

• Fear associated with good-byes, death and transformation. (16/C3) 

• Danger comes from an unexpected corner. (18/C3) 

• Fear of triturating the C5 level, I am afraid of losing the good feeling, the knowledge, 

afraid something bad will come. (3/C4) 

• I am afraid, it is a deep fear of existence, and this goes to fast for me. (7/C4) 

Freedom from time, material things, bonds, ties and guilt 

* Breaking loose from everything. Being able to be free from boundaries, time, material 

things and eventually guilt* 

• Freedom from material things. Connection with the soul, spirit. (3/C2) 

• Freedom, breaking loose feeling. Freedom in relation to material things. (3/C2) 

• Blue butterflies, sensation of freedom – I paint this on the wall. (3/C2) 

• Feeling of freedom after painting, I am done! (3/C2) 

• I feel free and happy. (3/C2) 

• Allowing yourself to feel things, gives u freedom. (3/C2) 

• Time has to go; universe has a timeless existence. (15/C2) 

• Animal necessity of breaking bonds and ties. Do not feel attached to rules, anti-social. 

I want to be free, a drifter, being free means being strong. (13/C3) 

• Blaming each other is the way to get the freedom; it gives you the answer and the 

solution. Like terminal patients blaming the environment. It is needed to get the 

freedom to go. (15/C4) 

• Something with prejudices and blaming others, I do not know what. It is so heavy that 

you do not know if you can go on with it yourself. First negative prejudices, and then 

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something beautiful. Blaming is necessary to come out of something and see that it 

can be the solution. (20/C4) 

Forgetfulness – not concentrated 

* There is a feeling of not being able to concentrate, forgetfulness and word hunting* 

• I forget things I usually do automatically, like taking the shopping box for the 

groceries. (5/C1) 

• I have a vague feeling. Very forgetful. (12/C1) 

• Looking for the right words when speaking. (12/C1) 

• I had things in my head and then I lost them in 3 seconds. Gone! (12/C1) 

• I do not remember how to triturate, that is why I postpone the trituration. (19/C1) 

• I can not concentrate, difficult to remember names, though all over the place. (19/C1) 

• I can not concentrate at work, feel absent, weary; it lasts for about a week. (1/C2) 

• Wandering thoughts. (2/C2) (7/C4) 

• I can not concentrate of the trituration, I am distracted. (3/C2) 

• It is difficult to stay with one subject. (7/C4) 

• Chaos, I forget everything. No thoughts – Mind is Blanc. (13/C4) 

Hard and heavy – too much going on – trying to ignore reality 

* The symptoms are so violent and the emotions so intense that there is a feeling of it all 

being really hard and heavy to handle, being to much and therefore trying to ignore it is there 

or suppressing it * 

• Already all these symptoms, oh jeez, how violent! My God, can I take it? (1/C1) 

• I do not want to bother anyone; I have to solve things myself. At the end I call 

someone and spit it all out. I can not handle it all by myself, it is too much. After this I 

sleep for 2 nights straight since a couple of months. (7/C1) 

• It feels heavy, stuck; slow. (19/C1) 

• Heavy and tired feeling with the grief. The grief is too much, too heavy. (1/C3) 

• Heavy and tired feeling. (6/C3) 

• Heavy, have to triturate with both hands. (6/C3) 

• There is too much going on, it is so much, it does not stop, it feels like I can not tell or 

my head shall explode. (11/C3) 

• The unbearable being helped by a drug produced in our bodies. I feel the childish 

element of not understanding the cruelties of humanity and being relieved by the 

thought of this drug. There is a feeling that there is no solution, just an illusion that 

there is. I feel resistance to go into the illusion. If the must not go too deep into the 

emotion, the way should be opened to a bigger wholeness but that is an escape, 

suppression and so we should not leave the pain and inflicted pain behind to make it 

easier!! (15/C3) 

• A friend is going to die, the pain he suffers is horrible and his death means another 

good-bye, this all feels like it is too much for me. I meditate after this and feel a bit 

calmer. (16/C3) 

• The material world is too heavy; I can not get through it. I want to be up there, in the 

spiritual world, a world with no thoughts. This life is too much for me. I want to be up 

there. (17/C3) 

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• Life is very heavy, not physically but emotionally heavy. (17/C3) 

ICE COLD - Associations with glass, ice, snow – blue, dark blue 

* Extreme ice cold, not only physically but also mentally and emotionally, these translate to 

indifference and wishing death. The strongest associations to cold and ice in color is blue * 

• Beautiful blue color, as if there was some glass. (1/C1) 

• The mortar looks like skating field, the powder of all the skates that have gone over it, 

trituration sounds like skating on ice. I think of the past, on the ice field. 

• Cold, winter cold, it is nice. Cold makes me think of the film “Snow Queen”. She lives 

in an ice castle. (2/C1) 

• It is very cold outside and that is why I do not feel like going out. I can not sleep at 

night, because I am so cold. (3/C1) 

• Dark blue and black. (4/C1) 

• Ice age. (8/C1) 

• I had images of Auschwitz in snow in cold, ice cold mind to think that up. It was a big 

plan. (15/C1) 

• I see images of winters in the past; snow and ice. I feel sorry that those winters are not 

there, maybe in the next life, it feels comforting. (2/C2). 

• Blue is beautiful, blue waves, the sea, water. (3/C2) 

• Hail, cold, still and cold world. I see lines of people walking through the snow. I find 

it painful and close my eyes. (2/C4) 

• Feeling very cold, also mentally. (15/C4) 

• Deep sea, floating. (13/C4) 

• Northern cold. White and snow. (15/C4) 

• Cold in needed to be in quietness. Cold is needed to make the transformation. (15/C4) 

• Dr Zhivago – deep love that comes out of coldness. The coldness is needed to reach 

the deeper love. Coldness develops strength through cold and winter sleep. Gathering 

energy to be able to come out of the cold. (15/C4) 

• I feel frozen inside, like there is nothing. (17/C4) 

• Cold and going on, a transformation that is needed to gather strength and grow. 

Feeling cold and loneliness. (20/C4) 

• Northern, cold countries. (20/C4) 

Introspection 

* Following the feeling of not being understood, not being listened to, there is introspection, 

closing up and not wanting to share emotions with others. Feeling of being estranged and 

belonging somewhere else (spiritual world) * 

• Obs: provers do not want to share the information on the webpage as it is usually 

done. 

• I do not want to bother anyone; I have to solve things myself. At the end I call 

someone and spit it all out. I can not handle it all by myself, it is too much. (7/C1) 

• I feel I do not belong here, from that moment on introspection, taciturnity. There is no 

use in talking if I do not get understood. (16/C1) 

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• I feel alone, apathy, I do not belong here, stubborn and taciturn, complete retraction, 

estranged, things do not get through to me, I am slow, I do not want to work and can 

not force myself to do so. (16/C1) 

• I had the feeling of having to do with no family, having to say good-bye to them. This 

is true with reality. It is time to say good-bye. (16/C1) 

• While I was telling about the symptoms, I was only aware of that and not of the people 

around me. (17/C1) 

• It feels good to be alone with my thoughts. Wondering whether I am suppressed and 

how to connect my inner side. I felt isolated from the group, with my own thoughts, 

like a dream. (10/C2) 

• I would rather turn my back to the group, but I think that I can not do that and I don’t. 

(1/C3) 

• It is nice to be in this trance, no thoughts, and emptiness. (17/C3) 

• I want to be in myself, leave me alone feeling! Letting go of earth. (1/C4) 

• It is like in nature, the feeling to retreat during winter, some plants and trees need it to 

grow. 

• That was the feeling. (15/C4) 

Irritation – violent/explosive anger - suppressed anger – strong emotions 

* Suppressed old anger and grief coming out as explosions, out of control, very violent; Old 

grievances coming back so strongly that is not possible to ignore the, can not let go of them. 

Emotions are so strong that can be preventing one from sleeping. Anger is felt in stomach in 

the form of cramping pains * 

• I triturate faster and faster all the time, I feel aggressive (I am upstairs, my husband is 

down stairs and can hear me) (1/C1) 

• I want to destroy the powder; I feel frustrated (1/C1) 

• Irritation from the itch, it goes on together with the itch. (3/C1) 

• I can not enjoy the trituration cause of the itch. (3/C1) 

• I get irritated in the streets, it seems very busy. This is usual in me, but this time it 

happened in a second. (3/C1) 

• I notice that I suppress my anger when I feel that I am not seen, or listened to. I feel 

like screaming for attention and want to smash things against the walls. (3/C1) 

• I feel irritation because the same symptoms keep on coming back. My hair irritates 

me. (3/C1) 

• Anger. (6/C1) 

• I have been extremely angry, with a reason and cramping stomach. The steam inside 

came out. (12/C1) 

• About Tsunami: Anger with cramps in stomach. The images touched me and I was 

tired of it. (12/C1) 

• I was very angry, had arguments with insurance company. I wrote them a very angry 

letter. Things felt uneven, I was not agreeing with it. (13/C1) 

• The tsunami really got to me, this is not me, and usually I do not get so emotional. I 

felt very nervous and disappointed. (13/C1) 

• I was very angry, slamming the table, shouting, yelling in a rude manner, all of this 

because of things feeling unfair. (14/C1) 

• Violent anger, explosion, my family got scared, they were shocked. I wonder if I want 

to continue with this substance. I exploded because my son did not help with 

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preparing dinner while I was on the phone with a patient. I was very unreasonable. I 

yelled and did not recognize my own voice, I wanted to stop but I could not do it. 

(17/C1) 

• The talking of people irritates me during trituration. I shut myself to the rest. (17/C1) 

• The hairs on my face irritate me. (17/C1) 

• Painting? I’d rather have a boxing bag!! (1/C2) 

• I have an explosion of anger over the mail. Argue with my boyfriend as soon as I 

come in. He does not understand what is happening. I go to my room, cry and cry. I 

feel ice cold inside and out. I feel that I am doing so much from the bottom of my 

heart and he does not see it. He only sees the sharpness of my words. To avoid more 

arguing he walks away whistling, this feels like a confirmation that he does not care. 

At one I am at this very hysterical state, it feels like a nervous breakdown. I can not 

stop weeping, sobbing like crazy. I feel that I destroy relations but I do not understand 

how. I have changed. I try hard but he does and says the same as my ex-boyfriend. I 

feel desperate. I do something wrong and do not see what, I do not see it. Feelings of 

guilt. I think of my mother’s family, the guilt that my grandfather must have felt when 

he abandoned 3 daughters and a wife. The hysteria stopped but I am still crying. My 

partner and I talk and things go back to normal. Analysis of this: explosion of anger 

about nothing, after that grief, crying and guilt. Very, very old issues come back up 

that I did not have for years and years. (3/C2) 

• I feel anger I can not let go, it prevents me from sleeping well. (8/C2) 

• Conflicts, spitting out what does not belong to me, the issue was dishonesty. (11/C2) 

• Irritation from tiredness, very angry, want to toss the mortar and break it. (2/C3) 

• Angry and sad. (8/C3) 

Peaceful – feeling of confidence – sacred feeling – privileged feeling – warmth 

* Sacred, timeless feeling associated with spirituality and nature* 

• I feel peaceful and have a quiet feeling. I get to really be with myself. (5/C1/C3) 

• It feels like I get strength in the area between the sternum down to the pelvis. It is like 

having a stable base. (5/C1) I feel stable, not so afraid of everything. I got myself 

back. I had a stable feeling, having a stable base. (11/C1) 

• I hear the bell, that tells us to begin, I think of sacristy. I feel something holy and 

devotion. It is a spiritual experience. It is almighty. (17/C1) 

• I take a deep breath and feel this deep quietness over me. My chest opens and feels 

itself with oxygen, air. (17/C1) 

• Quiet feeling, sweeter, I feel like in a trance. (1/C2) 

• I feel privileged - it felt warm and made me smile. (3/C2) 

• It feels like a found my life’s propose, doing provings and triturations. (3/C2) 

• I see yellow and gold, like the sun around me. I am on top of the mountain and I feel 

peaceful. (3/C3) 

• I feel purity. (3/C3) 

• The Sun plays a central roll in this. (4/C3) 

• Rainforest, tropical rainforests, big, old trees. Sacred, timeless feeling. (4/C3) (17/C3) 

• Think of the Christmas and the Bible. (5/C3) 

• Mountain tops, sitting on top of the mountain, seeing the world from above. (3/C4, 

5/C4) 

• I feel relaxed and see the others as fruitless activity. (5/C4) 

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• Feeling of thankfulness. (3/C4, 5/C4) 

Sacrificing – women’s suffering and strength (C4) 

• Feeling of sacrifice. Sacrificing what is dear to you. Rituals. The moon is important. 

(11/C4) 

• I have lost everything, business partner, partner, future projects. (11/C4) 

• Temples were hands were being sacrifice, sacrificing the manly to serve the women’s 

strength. Dying a small death = orgasm of the man. Feeling of using that to get to the 

higher levels = spiritual world. Orgasmic energy. Feeling this in the crown charka, like 

an explosion and that is why headache appears. (18/C4) 

• Strong women, with a lot of powers. Goddesses and priestesses. Rituals. (11 & 18/C4) 

Relaxed, quiet, tired and falling asleep 

* There is extreme tiredness and sleepiness, before associated with the heavy and hard 

feeling. Being very tired from not sleeping well, due to old grievances and things can not be 

let go* 

• I feel relaxed. I feel quiet and listless. In the last 5 minutes, I fall asleep. (2/C1) 

• Before the trituration I feel very tired, the last weeks have been very hectic, school and 

work. (3/C1) 

• I did not realize that we had to attend class today, it discovered it by accident. (3/C1) 

• I feel quiet inside; I quietly look death in the eyes.(4/C1) 

• Dead tired in the morning from sleeping badly at night. (7/C1) 

• I do not feel like working, tiredness. (16/C1) 

• I can not get up; do not want to get up. My energy is completely gone (from 

sleeplessness). (16/C1) 

• I suddenly feel very sleepy. (17/C1). 

• Diminished awareness. (19/C2) 

• I feel tired and sleepy, my eyes are heavy. (3/C3) 

Sadness – loneliness – forsaken 

* Enormous grief, usually felt in chest or heart area. Lonely & cold feeling, not being 

understood. Sadness from arguments* 

• I feel sad. I feel sad and alone in the world. I want to stop, I feel forsaken. (2/C1) 

• I feel very sad; I feel that in my chest. (3/C1) 

• I miss the group (I am triturating alone at home). It is not nice to be alone. I wish the 

group was here, I would feel better and the trituration would have more meaning. 

(3/C1) 

• Loneliness is to share everything with you. (8/C1) 

• I feel empty and sad. Lonely Planet. I feel very, very lonely. (8/C1) 

• Grief. (10/C1) (11/C4) 

• I cried a lot one evening, it came suddenly, I had not cried like that in a long time. I 

felt lonely and forsaken, an ice cold Siberian feeling. (16/C1) 

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• I felt estranged at night, could not sleep after argument with partner. I miss my 

children. (16/C1) 

• After an argument with my daughter I was grieving, I cried for hours. I did not cry like 

this in years. The grief of the last few years came out. (17/C1) 

• I feel deeply hurt and that is why I keep quiet. Some people do not see the line, my 

line, and border; by doing so I feel hurt because it feels like their experience is more 

important than mine. After talking about it, it feels better, I can now see the big 

picture, after this I can sleep again (did not sleep for weeks). (7/C2) 

• Grief when you do some things that other people perceive as bad or are interpreted 

differently. (15/C2) 

• Pain because you do not want to be judged just because you see things in another 

dimension. (15/C2) 

• Sadness, old grief; war, Jewish people, I see lines of lean, sad people that are waiting 

to be taken to concentration camps. I feel a stitching pain in my heart. Sighing. (1/C3) 

• I feel sadness and loneliness and I do not understand that I, we as human beings we 

are able to be so cruel (Auschwitz). (15/C3) 

• I can not stop crying. I feel grief, especially women suffering. (11/C4) 

• Grief and feeling hurt from old things, from long ago. (12/C4) 

• Sadness and loneliness, spiritual. (15/C4) 

• Grief, I do not want to do anymore. (17/C4) 

Sharp and clear thoughts – awareness 

* Very awake and aware. Perceiving the surroundings in a clear way * 

• The first 3 weeks I was very sharp. (11/C1) 

• Sharp and clear in reaction, things that I felt.(12/C1) 

• My eyes are wide open; I can clearly perceive things around me. I am conscientious of 

the surroundings and I see deep sadness, grief and suffering in some of the faces. It 

does not move me, I just perceive it. (17/C1) 

Time – hurry – anxiety about time – feeling pressure - letting go of time 

* Feeling of hurry, feeling of time going slowly and not having time to finish up the task or 

the opposite, calmness because there is no time * 

• I triturate faster and faster (1/C1) – with feeling of pressure in the head. 

• I triturate faster and faster all the time, I feel aggressive (I am upstairs, my husband is 

down stairs and can hear me). (1/C1) (1/C2) 

• Quick thoughts. (1/C1) 

• Time passes slowly, I wonder if this is the time to be doing this. I feel anxiety in the 

stomach; it has to do with the time, in a hurry to finish the trituration. I feel hurry and 

triturating fast. Time passes still slowly. I get tired of sitting and take a walk around. 

(3/C1) (5/C3) (5/C4) 

• Times passes slowly, this is strange, as I feel stressed inside, like I have not enough 

time. (3/C2) 

• I kept wondering if it is not time yet (to die?) (4/C1) 

• Intense, increasing feeling of pressure, like I am in some race. (10/C1) 

• I have no watch on, that is very unusual for me. (1/C2) 

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• Impatient, I want to get on with things. (3/C2) 

• I worry about the time; it feels like my stomach is shrinking. (3/C2) 

• I feel irritated about the time, time should go, and it serves no purpose. (3/C2) 

• Anxious about time, I am not going to make it in time! Feeling that I have to do what I 

am doing as fast as possible, because I still have so much more to do! (3/C2) 

• Time does not exist in the feeling of bliss. (3/C3) 

• There is no time. State of being, neutral, no time, no boundaries. (4/C3) 

• Trituration takes too long, impatient. (6/C3) 

• There was no time left ? (2/C4) 

Togetherness – universe – no boundaries 

* Experience of the wholeness of the universe but without any kind of excitement * 

• Feeling of togetherness, I resonate and recognize but it is neutral. (3/C2) 

• I feel sympathetic but it does not move me. (3/C3) 

• On top of the mountain everything is complete and whole. (3/C3) 

• I have an enormous feeling of love to partner and the human race. Feeling of oneness. 

(3/C3) 

Quarrelsome 

* Picking fights and arguing easily, especially with family members* 

• I argue with my mother. Get very angry at her. (7/C1) 

• Fights with family members. (3/C1, 7/C1, 17/C1) 

• Argument with daughter and son separately. (17/C1) 

Washing off – cleaning and clearing up – past and present – order & structure 

* There is a feeling of cleaning and clearing up old things, old vexations, old grief, 

unpleasant memories, also a literal need to clean and clear up, either oneself or the house* 

• When I am done I wash my hands thoroughly, I want to wash it off of me, I take a 

shower, want to rinse it off! (1/C1) 

• I had the feeling that everything came out, like a clean up, had the flu for 1,5 weeks, 

stronger than ever, I think the remedy speeded up the process. (12/C1) 

• I have been clearing up at home enormously, it felt good. (16/C1) 

• After an argument with my daughter I was grieving, I cried for hours. I did not cry like 

this in years. The grief of the last few years came out. (17/C1) 

• I see images of the past, situations in which I was very angry, it all had to do with 

crossing the line, the border, the limit. I feel the anger boiling in me. It is violent but I 

know where it comes from, I am not clear; I let it happen. (17/C1) 

• Life is a circle with beginning and end. (2/C2) 

• This remedy purifies the feelings that take room from others. (15/C3) 

• Grief and feeling hurt from old things, from long ago. (12/C4) 

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nd 

Past – thoughts of the past – 2 world war – Nazi’s and Jews – War 

* Melancholy to the past, thoughts of the past and sadness, grief or a sense of homesickness 

to the past* 

• I had images of Auschwitz in snow in cold, ice cold mind to think that up. It was a big 

plan. (15/C1) 

• I see images of winters in the past; snow and ice. I feel sorry that those winters are not 

there, maybe in the next life, it feels comforting. (2/C2 16/C2) 

• Thoughts of the past, what have my grandparents felt during the war? I feel the 

sadness of the family, tired and heavy feeling. (1/C3) 

• I hear someone coughing and think: see!? The gas chamber!! (1/C3) 

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3f. Physical symptoms 

List of physical symptoms Lapis Lazuli - trituration 

Vertigo 

Dizzy feeling & sleepiness (8/C3) 

Lightheaded feeling (13/C2) 

Head 

Congestion & hot cheeks (3/C1 4/C1) 

Itching in occiput (2/C2 3/C1 8/C1) 

Head pain, constant & lasting for days (16/C1) 

Head pain, right eye extending to left eye & forehead (17/C4) 

Head pain, in forehead and nose Bridge (1/C1), in forehead and occiput (12/C4) 

Head pain & glowing sensation. Pain from between scapulae extending to neck and head. 

(1/C2) 

Head pain, pressing in forehead < by pressure (3/C1) 

Head pain, pressing temple left. HA goes away gradually. Then a sensation of a cold spot is 

left behind, as if wet and the wind blows over it. (5/C1) 

Head pain, stitching on temples, both sides of the head (15/C2) 

Noises in head, hearing illusions (7/C4) 

Sensation of pressure in the head, violent (with anxiety) (1/C1 19/C1) 

Sensation of heat, yet feels cold to touch (15/C2) 

Eyes 

Inflamed eyes (16/C1) 

Irritation, right, outer corner (5/C3) 

Itching right (1/C2) 

Itchy eyelids, burning, desquamating < right (16/C1) 

Lachrymation, right eye and then left (2/C1) 

Pain, behind eye, left 916/C3) 

Pain, burning (2/C3) (3/C1) < right (10/C1) 

Pain, burning upper lids (4/C1 C3) 

Pain, burning, while reading (3/C1) 

Pain, stitching, left eye, above in waves (2/C2) 

Sensation of tiredness in eyes (3/C1) & painful (16/C1) 

Vision 

Closing the eyes, desire to (2/C4) 

Red before the eyes (2/C4) 

Orange, gold, and yellow (3/C3) 

Ears 

Itching in the meatus, left (3/C1) 

Noises in ears, < left; from morning on (7/C3) 

Tingling, glowing in ears, right after starting (1/C1/C2) 

Stitching pain in right ear. Stitching pain in left ear (1/C1/C3/C4) 

Pressure, sensation of, behind the ears (1/C1) 

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Hearing 

Hearing illusions (see ears) 

Nose 

Acute; stronger sense of smell (17/C1) 

Bleeding/ Epistaxis in the morning on bending forward (with feeling of pressure in head) 

(3/C1) 

Coldness, freezing (2/C1 2/C2 8/C2) 

Discharge, transparent (19/C1) 

Dryness, inside & dry throat (3/C1) (8/C2) 

Itching (10/C1) 

Nostrils, open, left. Feeling of cold air going in (5/C3) oxygen going in (17/C1) 

Odors, imaginary and real 

camphor (7/C3) 

coffee, burned (5/C3) 

gasoline (1/C1) 

old ladies perfume (7/C3) 

peppermint (13/C3) 

soap (17/C1) 

something sharp (8/C1) 

spring/fresh (1/C4) 

sweet, fruity (3/C3) 

Sneezing (12/C1) 

Face 

Cramp in the jaw (16/C1) 

Eruptions, very small pimples in face, back & back side upper legs. Red & painful. 

Eruptions, itching in forehead & chest (3/C1) 

Feeling of a spider web & irritation (3/C1) 

Glowing sensation (12/C3 17/C4) 

Itching (1/C1) 

Itching in chin (1/C1) 

Pain in jaws (1/C1) 

Mouth 

Burning feeling in the mouth, esp. tongue, like a blister or aphthae (1/C2) 

Burning in upper lip (1/C3) 

Dryness (11/C4) (20/C4) 

Salivation, profuse (2/C1) 

Swollen salivary glands (12/C4) 

Taste, bitter, like bile; after a sip of water. Water < (3/C2) 

Tingling, tongue (2/C3) 

Throat/Ext. throat 

Feeling of lump in the throat & feeling of choking (1/C3) 

Itching & coughing < left (3/C1) 

Pain, stitching, left on waking (3/C1) Violent pain, swallowing < (13/C2) 

Sensation of heat (2/C1) 

Torticollis drawn to the left (17/C4) 

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Food & Drink 

Desire for cold & sweets (ice- cream) (1/C4) (7/C4) 

Desire for yogurt (3/C3) 

Desire chocolate, menses during (7/C3) 

Desire & aversion artichokes & chicory (3/C1) 

Stomach 

Distension (1/C3) (7/C1) 

Grumbling in stomach (2/C1) 

Heavy feeling (2/C1) 

Hunger & easy satiety. Hunger & empty feeling in stomach. Hunger at night (3/C1) (10/C1) 

Hungry and tired (15/C4 20/C4) 

Nausea & Belching (1/C1 2/C1) 

Nausea constant, lasting for 2 weeks, after that only on waking (7/C1) 

Nausea with Sighing &Yawning (1/C4) 

Pain from anxiety (18/C3) 

Pain, burning; after apples (3/C1) 

Pain, cramping during anger (12/C1) 

Sensation of a lump in cardia, as if something were stuck there & nausea (3/C1) 

Shrinking sensation & anxiety about time (3/C1) 

Thirst intense (1/C2) (17/C1) 

Abdomen 

Pain with fear (12/C1) & palpitations (16/C3) 

Pain, just under diaphragm (12/C4) 

Pain, stitching in liver region (1/C3) 

Distended, feels hard, flatulence & belching (7/C3) for weeks (13/C1) 

Rectum 

Dry stool (3/C1) 

Urinary 

Bladder full & excitement (3/C1) 

Female 

Conscious of uterus (3/C1) 

Menses profuse, sensation of swollen breasts (7/C3) 

Desire for chocolate during menses (7/C3) 

Sexual desire increased, lascivious (17/ 18/ C4) 

Larynx & Trachea 

Choking; daytime & fear of suffocation (17/C1) 

Respiration 

Difficult; choking sensation & fear of suffocation (17/C4) 

Slow & deep (19/C1) 

Yawning (19/C1) 

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Cough 

Dry & raw feeling behind sternum (3/C3) (15/C3) 

Cough, just once every time (3/C3) 

Chest 

Conscious of lungs & yawning & itchy nose (10/C1) 

Itching, in sternum (3/C1) 

Pain, feeling of pressure in heart area (1/C1 7/C3) 

Pain, violent pressure on the chest, right side (1/C4) 

Pain burning & glowing sensation (1/C2) 

Pain, sore as from a blow on waking, 5 days before the menses. < Left. Nipple is swollen & 

bluish on one side. (3/C2) 

Pain, stitching, left side. Pain goes from nipple straight inwards, through the breast. (3/C2 

15/C3) 

Swelling of axillary? glands & painful, before menses (16/C1) 

Mammae; sensation of swelling & growth (7/17/ C4) 

Heart 

Palpitations & tired, heavy legs (1/C2) 

Back 

Itching back & shoulders (3/C1) 

Sensation of warmth in the back (1/C1) 

Stiff neck muscles (12/C1) 

Limbs (Upper) 

Coldness of hands & cold face (2/C1) 

Cold right arm and shoulder with pain (7/C3) 

Eruption, itching on hand, like a fleabite (3/C1) 

Numb upper arms (19/C1) 

Pain in left arm, extending to left leg & tingling (16/C3) 

Pain in right arm, numb feeling (1/C1) 

Pain in right arm & coldness; as if rubbed with peppermint oil (13/C3) 

Pain cramping in shoulders (with irritation) (1/C2) 

Pain drawing in shoulders, as if drawn upwards (8/C1) 

Pain cramping in wrist (3/C1) 

Pain & heaviness in shoulders, upper arms and cervical region (16/C3) 

Perspiration in hands (1/C2) Wrists (10/C1) 

Scanty feeling in thighs (16/C3) 

Warm hands (4/C1) & feet (12/C4) 

Limbs (Lower) 

Coldness, thighs & feet at night (3/C1) 

Cold feet and lower legs (7/C3) & tingling (8/C1) < left and then right (12/C2/C3) 

Cramps in foot sole and toe, left > standing (5/C3) 

Pain in right knee (1/C1) 

Stretching out legs is impossible (12/C4) 

Swollen as if, and out of proportion (3/C1) 

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Sleep 

Difficulties falling asleep. Do not remember the dreams. (3/C1) 

Interrupted, from dreams, waking at 4 am (5/C3) 

Position, on abdomen with knee on the same side lifted (5/C3) 

Sleeplessness from worries, anger & vexation; dwelling at night (7/C1) 

Strong desire for sleeping (15 17/C4) 

Wake up tired and cold. (3/C2) 

Wake up often with a feeling of suppression (18/C3) 

Dreams of daily occupations, of cruel things (5/8/12/C1) 

Chill 

Shivers all over the body (1/C3) 

Perspiration 

Perspiration at night (7/C1) 

Skin 

Dryness, as if that of a mummy (17/C4) so dry that it hurts (15/C4) 

Goose flesh & shivers (8/C1 8/C3 8/C2) 

Ice coldness; hot water > (3/C1) 

Ice coldness; at night (3/C1) (16/C1) 

Wandering itch, right shoulder, wrist, nose, ear, right cheek & irritation (3/C1) 

Modalities 

Hot bathing, sun and warmth > 

Sleeping > 

Quarrelling < 

Generals 

Alternating and contradictory states 

Desire color blue 

Dryness of mucus membranes 

Heat & burning 

Ice coldness & tiredness & yawning (almost every prover) 

Ice coldness & shivering 

Itching all over 

Lack of energy from sleeplessness & tiredness 

Symptoms lasting for a week or two (1/3/7/16) 

Violent & quick symptoms 

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3g. Rubrics of the physical symptoms 

Rubrics of the Physical symptoms of Lapis Lazuli - trituration 

VERTIGO 

- Light headed (see Vertigo) 

- Vertigo (Pr 13/C2) 

HEAD 

- HEAD - COLDNESS, chilliness, etc. - water, as from cold (Pr 5/C1) 

- HEAD – CONGESTION (Pr 4/C1, Pr 3/C2, Pr 4/C3, Pr 17/C4) 

- HEAD - ITCHING of scalp – Occiput (Pr 3/C1/Pr 2/C3) 

- HEAD - ITCHING of scalp - Sides – left (Pr 3/C1) 

- HEAD - PAIN - morning - waking, on (Pr 1/C4) 

- HEAD - PAIN - Forehead, in - left side (Pr 1/C4) 

- HEAD - PAIN – eye right, then left - in - extending to – Forehead (Pr 17/C4)* 

- HEAD - PAIN - Forehead, in – pulsating (Pr 11/C4) 

- HEAD PAIN pressing (Pr 19/C1) 

- HEAD PAIN pressing – Fear with (Pr1/C1)* 

- HEAD PAIN pressing – Forehead in pressure agg (Pr 3/C1)* 

- HEAD - PAIN - pressing – between Forehead & Vertex (Pr 5/C2) 

- HEAD - PAIN - pressing - Forehead - Eyes – Behind (Pr 9/C1) 

- HEAD - PAIN - Forehead, in (Pr 1/C4) 

- HEAD - PAIN - Forehead, in - left side (Pr 18/C4) 

- HEAD PAIN pressing Temples left (Pr 5/C1) 

- HEAD - PAIN - stitching – Sides (Pr 15/C2) 

- HEAD - HEAT - accompanied by - Face - heat of (Pr 1/C2) 

- HEAD - HEAT - cold - touch, though heat; cold to (Pr 15/C2) 

- HEAD - HEAT - flushes of (Pr 5/C4) 

- HEAD - TINGLING – Vertex (Pr 16/C3) 

EYE 

- EYE - DISCHARGES – burning (Pr 2/C1) 

- EYE - ERUPTIONS - Lids – scurfy (Pr 16/C1) 

- EYE - ERUPTIONS - Lids – right (Pr 16/C1)* 

- EYE – IRRITATION (Pr 10/C1) (Pr 5/C2) 

- EYE – IRRITATION – right (Pr 10/C1) 

- EYE - ITCHING – Lids (Pr 16/C1) 

- EYE - ITCHING - Lids – right (Pr 16/C1) 

- EYE - LACHRYMATION – right (Pr 2/C1) 

- EYE – LACHRYMATION – burning (Pr 2/C1) * 

- EYE - LACHRYMATION – right and then left (Pr 2/C1)* 

- EYE - PAIN – burning (Pr 3/C1) (Pr 4/C1) (Pr 10/C1) (Pr 16/C1) (Pr 2/C3) 

- EYE - PAIN - burning - Lids – Upper (Pr 4/C1, Pr 4/C3) 

- EYE - PAIN - burning - reading, while (Pr 3/C1) 

- EYE - PAIN - burning - light - agg. (Pr 3/C1) 

- EYE – PAIN – stitching inner canthi - extending to outer canthi (Pr 5/C3)* 

- EYE – SWELLING (Pr 16/C1) 

- EYE - SWELLING - morning - waking, on (Pr 16/C1) (Pr 19/C2) 

- EYE - TIRED SENSATION (Pr 3/C1, Pr 16/C1) 

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- EYE - QUIVERING – Lids – from irritation (Pr 3/C2)* 

VISION 

EAR 

- VISION - LOSS OF VISION with tired sensation in eyes (Pr 16/C1)* 

- VISION - COLORS before the eyes – red (Pr 2/C4) 

- VISION – BLURRED (Pr 5/C5) 

- EAR - HEAT - External ear (Pr 1/C1) 

- EAR - HEAT - External ear accompanied with heat in the cheeks (Pr 1/C2)* 

- EAR - ITCHING - Meatus – right (Pr 3/C1, Pr 1/C2) 

- EAR - ITCHING - Meatus – left (Pr 3/C1) 

- EAR - NOISES in – rustling (Pr 17/C3) 

- EAR - NOISES in – rustling left (Pr 7/C3)* 

- EAR – TINGLING (Pr 1/C1) 

- EAR - PAIN – stitching (Pr 1/C1) 

- EAR - PAIN - stitching – right (Pr 1/C1, Pr 1/C4, Pr 2/C5) 

- EAR - PAIN - stitching – left (Pr 1/C3, Pr 5/C3) 

- EAR - PAIN – pressing (Pr 1/C2) 

- EAR - PAIN - pressing - Behind the ear (Pr 1/C1) 

NOSE 

- NOSE - COLDNESS - icy coldness (Pr 2/C1, Pr 8/C2) 

- NOSE - DISCHARGE – transparent (Pr 19/C1, Pr 5/C2) 

- NOSE - DISCHARGE – watery (Pr 19/C1, Pr 5/C2, Pr 20/C4) 

- NOSE - DRYNESS – Inside (Pr 3/C1, Pr 8/C2) 

- NOSE - DRYNESS – Inside and cold (Pr 8/C2)* 

- NOSE - EPISTAXIS – morning (3/C1) 

- NOSE - EPISTAXIS - stooping, on (3/C1) 

- NOSE – IRRITATION as if from cold weather (Pr 2/C1)* 

- NOSE – ITCHING (Pr 3/C1) 

- NOSE - ODORS; imaginary and real bleach (Pr 2/C5) (Pr 8/C5)* 

- NOSE - ODORS; imaginary and real camphor (Pr 7/C3)* 

- NOSE - ODORS; imaginary and real coffee – burned (Pr 5/C3)* 

- NOSE - ODORS; imaginary and real cold stones (Pr 12/C2)* 

- NOSE - ODORS; imaginary and real – fresh/ spring (Pr 1/C4)* 

- NOSE - ODORS; imaginary and real gasoline (Pr 1/C3)* 

- NOSE - ODORS; imaginary and real peppermint (Pr 5, C3)* 

- NOSE - ODORS; imaginary and real soap (Pr 17/C1) (Pr 5/C4)* 

- NOSE - ODORS; imaginary and real – sweetish (Pr 3/C3)* 

- NOSE - OPEN - Nostrils are wide - sensation as if left then right (Pr 17/C1)* 

- NOSE - SMELL – acute (Mind sense acute) (Pr 11/C4) 

- NOSE – SNEEZING (Pr 12/C1, Pr 7/C1, Pr 8/C1) 

FACE 

- FACE - COLDNESS - accompanied by - Hands; coldness of (Pr 2/C1, Pr 4/C1) 

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- FACE - CRAMP - Jaws – Lower – left (pr 16/C1) 

- FACE - DISCOLORATION - red - glowing red (Pr 12/C3) 

- FACE - DISCOLORATION - red - glowing red – Cheeks (Pr 3/C2) 

- FACE - DISCOLORATION - red - glowing red – Cheeks and Ears (Pr 1/C2)* 

- FACE - ERUPTIONS – Forehead and chest (Pr 3/C1)* 

- FACE – ERUPTIONS – itching (Pr 16/C1) 

- FACE - ERUPTIONS - itching – Forehead and Chest (Pr 3/C1)* 

- FACE - ERUPTIONS – painful (Pr 16/C1) 

- FACE - ERUPTIONS – red (Pr 16/C1) 

- FACE – ITCHING (Pr 1/C1) 

- FACE - ITCHING – Chin (Pr 1/C1) 

- FACE - ITCHING – Cheeks – right (Pr 3/C1)* 

- FACE - ITCHING - Lips – Upper – above (Pr 17/C1)* 

- FACE - COBWEB - sensation of (Pr 3/C1) 

- FACE - PAIN – Jaw (Pr 1/C1) 

- FACE - PAIN - burning - Lips – Upper (Pr 1/C3) 

MOUTH 

- MOUTH – DRYNESS (Pr 11/C4, Pr 20/C4) 

- MOUTH – DULLNESS feeling of (Pr 2/C5)* 

- MOUTH - PAIN - burnt, sensation as if (Pr 1/C2) 

- MOUTH - PRICKLING – Tongue (Pr 2/C3) 

- MOUTH - TASTE - bitter - water agg. (Pr 3/C1)* 

- MOUTH - TASTE - bitter - Tongue; sides (Pr 3/C1)* 

- MOUTH - TASTE - sweetish - Tongue – Root (Pr 5/C5) 

- MOUTH - TASTE – acute (Pr 11/C4) 

- MOUTH - SWELLING - Salivary glands (Pr 12/C4) 

THROAT 

- THROAT - CHOKING – daytime (Pr 17/C4) 

EXTERNAL THROAT 

- EXTERNAL THROAT - TORTICOLLIS - left; drawn to the (17/C1) 

STOMACH 

- STOMACH - APPETITE - easy satiety (Pr 3/C1) 

- STOMACH - APPETITE - increased (Pr 10/C1, Pr 20/C4, Pr 15/C4) 

- STOMACH - APPETITE - increased – night (Pr 3/C1) 

- STOMACH – ERUCTATIONS (Pr 7/C3) 

- STOMACH – NAUSEA (Pr 7/C1, Pr 15/C1, Pr 1/C4, Pr 20/C5) 

- STOMACH - NAUSEA – daytime (Pr 7/C1) 

- STOMACH - NAUSEA - sleep – after (Pr 7/C1) 

- STOMACH - NAUSEA - accompanied by – eructations (Pr 1/C1, Pr 2/C1) 

- STOMACH - NAUSEA – accompanied by heavy feeling in stomach (Pr 2/C2)* 

- STOMACH - NAUSEA – accompanied by sensation of a lump in cardia (Pr 3/C1)* 

- STOMACH - NAUSEA - motion – and looking away agg (Pr 2/C5)* 

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- STOMACH - NAUSEA - pain, during - Abdomen, in (Pr 20/C5) 

- STOMACH - PAIN – burning – apples after (Pr 3/C1)* 

- STOMACH - PAIN – cramping (Pr 12/C1) 

- STOMACH – THIRST (Pr 17/C1, Pr 1/C2, Pr 17/C3) 

ABDOMEN 

- ABDOMEN - DISTENSION - eating – after (Pr 5/C1) 

- ABDOMEN - DISTENSION – Hypochondria (Pr 13/C1, Pr 1/C3, Pr 7/C3) 

- ABDOMEN – FLATULENCE (Pr 7/C3) 

- ABDOMEN - HARD – Hypochondria (Pr 7/C3) 

- ABDOMEN - PAIN - cramping (Pr 8/C1, Pr 7/C3) 

- ABDOMEN - PAIN - cramping - Across abdomen (Pr 5/C3) 

- ABDOMEN - PAIN - Epigastrium - accompanied with - Chest; oppression of 

(Pr19/C1)* 

- ABDOMEN - PAIN - stitching - Liver – Region (Pr 1/C3) 

- ABDOMEN – RUMBLING (Pr 2/C1) 

FEMALE 

- FEMALE GENITALIA/SEX - CONSCIOUS of the uterus (Pr 3/C1) 

- FEMALE GENITALIA/SEX - MENSES - copious - accompanied by – swollen 

breasts (Pr 7/C4)* 

- FEMALE GENITALIA/SEX - SEXUAL DESIRE - increased - dreams sexual – with 

(Pr 17/C4, Pr 18/C4, Pr 20/C5) 

LARYNX & TRACHEA 

- LARYNX AND TRACHEA - DRYNESS – Larynx (Pr 3/C1) 

- LARYNX AND TRACHEA - HEAT – Larynx (Pr 2/C1) 

- LARYNX AND TRACHEA - LUMP; sensation of a - Larynx, in (Pr 1/C3) 

- LARYNX AND TRACHEA - PAIN - stitching – Larynx (Pr 3/C1) 

- LARYNX AND TRACHEA - PAIN - stitching – Larynx – warm drinks agg (Pr 3/C1) 

- LARYNX AND TRACHEA - PAIN - stitching - Larynx - swallowing – impeding (Pr 

13/C2, Pr 15/C1) 

- LARYNX AND TRACHEA - SWELLING - sensation of (Pr 3/C1) 

RESPIRATION 

- RESPIRATION – SLOW (Pr 19/C1) 

- RESPIRATION – DEEP (Pr 17/C1) 

- RESPIRATION – DEEP and SLOW (Pr 19/C1)* 

- RESPIRATION – SIGHING (Pr 1/C4) 

COUGH 

- COUGH - ITCHING - Larynx; in < Links (Pr 3/C1)* 

- COUGH - ITCHING - Throat-pit evening and night (Pr 1/C4)* 

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CHEST 

- CHEST - CONSTRICTION – Heart (Pr 1/C1) 

- CHEST - CONSTRICTION - Mammae - right – (Pr 1/C4)* 

- CHEST - ERUPTIONS – itching (Pr 3/C1) 

- CHEST - ITCHING – Sternum (Pr 3/C1) 

- CHEST - OPPRESSION – with heaviness in stomach (Pr 19/C1)* 

- CHEST - PALPITATION of heart – (Pr 1/C2, Pr 16/C3) 

- CHEST - PALPITATION of heart - coldness; with (Pr 1/C3) 

- CHEST - PAIN – Heart (Pr 7/C3) 

- CHEST - PAIN - gnawing – Heart with anger (Pr 5/C5)* 

- CHEST - PAIN - stitching – Heart with grief (Pr 1/C3)* 

- CHEST - PAIN - stitching - Mammae – left (Pr 15/C3) 

- CHEST - PAIN - sore – Mammae – left (Pr 3/C2) 

- CHEST - PAIN - sore - Mammae - menses - before - accompanied by – swelling 

nipples (Pr 3/C2)* 

- CHEST - SWELLING - Mammae (Pr 17/C4) 

- CHEST – SWELLING - Mammae - menses – during (Pr 7/C4) 

- CHEST - SWELLING - Axilla - Glands – painful (Pr 16/C1) 

- CHEST - SWELLING - Axilla - Glands – ovulation during (Pr 16/C1)* 

BACK 

- BACK – ITCHING (Pr 1/C1) 

- BACK – HEAT (Pr 1/C1) 

- BACK - HEAT - Cervical region - extending to – dorsal region – Scapulae (Pr 1/C2)* 

- BACK - PAIN – gnawing right extending to left (Pr 5/C5)* 

- BACK - PAIN – sore (Pr 20/C5) 

- BACK - PAIN - sore - Dorsal region - Scapulae – Between (Pr 5/C5) 

- BACK - PAIN – stitching (Pr 20/C4) 

EXTREMITIES 

- EXTREMITIES - COLDNESS - Upper limbs (Pr 4/C3) 

- EXTREMITIES - COLDNESS - Upper limbs – right (Pr 7/C3) 

- EXTREMITIES - COLDNESS - Upper limbs – as if rubbed in peppermint oil (Pr 

13/C3)* 

- EXTREMITIES - COLDNESS – Foot (Pr 12/C2, Pr 12/C3) 

- EXTREMITIES - COLDNESS - Lower limbs – icy cold from knee down (Pr 7/C3)* 

- EXTREMITIES - COLDNESS - Leg – night (Pr 3/C1) 

- EXTREMITIES - COLDNESS - Leg – with numbness (Pr 8/C1)* 

- EXTREMITIES - CRAMPS - Upper limbs – right (Pr 3/C2) 

- EXTREMITIES - CRAMPS – Foot (Pr 5/C1) 

- EXTREMITIES - CRAMPS - Foot – Sole – left (Pr 5/C1) 

- EXTREMITIES - CRAMPS - Toes – First – Left (Pr 5/C1)* 

- EXTREMITIES - CRAMPS - Toes – First – standing amel (Pr 5/C1)* 

- EXTREMITIES - ERUPTIONS - Hand – right - flea bite, like (Pr 3/C1)* 

- EXTREMITIES - HEAT – Hand (Pr 4/C1) 

- EXTREMITIES - HEAT – Hand and Feet (Pr 12/C4)* 

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- EXTREMITIES – (painful) HEAVINESS - Upper arm and shoulders (Pr 16/C3)* 

- EXTREMITIES - HEAVINESS – Leg (Pr 1/C2) 

- EXTREMITIES - ITCHING – Shoulder – right (Pr 3/C1)* 

- EXTREMITIES - NUMBNESS - Arms – right (Pr 1/C1, Pr 13/C4) 

- EXTREMITIES - NUMBNESS - Upper arm (Pr 19/C1) 

- EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Knee – right (Pr 1/C1) 

- EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Shoulder – right (Pr 7/C3) (Pr 3/C1) 

- EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Upper arm – left (Pr 16/C3) 

- EXTREMITIES - PAIN – Wrist (Pr 3/C1, Pr 10/C1) 

- EXTREMITIES - PAIN - cramping – Shoulder (Pr 1/C2)* 

- EXTREMITIES - PAIN - cramping – Wrist (Pr 3/C1) 

- EXTREMITIES - PAIN - drawing – Shoulder (Pr 8/C1) 

- EXTREMITIES - PERSPIRATION – Hand (Pr 1/C2) 

- EXTREMITIES – Scanty sensation – thigh inner (Pr 16/C3)* 

SLEEP 

- SLEEP - FALLING ASLEEP – difficult (Pr 3/C1) 

- SLEEP - FALLING ASLEEP – difficult from coldness (Pr 3/C1)* 

- SLEEP - INTERRUPTED - night – waking many times (Pr 7/C1, Pr 16/C1)* 

- SLEEP - POSITION - abdomen, on, knee lifted (Pr 5/C3) 

- SLEEP - SLEEPINESS – overpowering (Pr 2/C1) 

- SLEEP - WAKING - night - midnight - after - 2 h (Pr 7/C1) 

- SLEEP - WAKING - night - midnight - after – 5 h (Pr 7/C1) 

DREAMS 

- DREAMS – ANIMALS being stung by bees (Pr 8/C2)* bitten by snakes (18/C4) 

- DREAMS – CRUELTY (Pr 18/C3) 

- DREAMS - EVENTS – daily (Pr 8/C3) 

- DREAMS - EVENTS - past; long (Pr 16/C1) 

- DREAMS – FAMILY – own (3/C3 5/C3 16/C1) 

- DREAMS – QUARRELS (Pr 3/C3) 

- DREAMS – WAR (Pr 8/C5) 

PERSPIRATION 

SKIN 

- PERSPIRATION – NIGHT (Pr 7/C1) 

- PERSPIRATION – PROFUSE (Pr 5/C5) 

- SKIN – DRY (Pr 17/C4) 

- SKIN - WRINKLED, shriveled (Pr 17/C4) 

INFLUENZA 

- HEAD - HEAT - flushes of – influenza; during open air amel (Pr 12/C1) 

- NOSE - CORYZA - influenza; from (Pr 12/C1) 

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- COUGH - ITCHING - Larynx; in- influenza; during (Pr 1/C1) 

- COUGH - ITCHING - Larynx; in- influenza; appearing in the evening (Pr 1/C1) 

- EXTREMITIES - PAIN – influenza; during accompanied with fever (Pr 1/C1)* 28 

- GENERALS - PAIN - sore - influenza; during (Pr 12/C1) 

- GENERALS - HEAT - lack of vital heat – influenza; during (Pr 12/C1) 

3h. Dreams of the Lapis Lazuli trituration 

DREAMS of the Lapis Lazuli trituration 

Prover 3/C1 

Dream – night of the trituration day 

I dream that I have some sort of tumor in my knees, they are purple and swollen. I can see the 

veins in them. Then they fall on the ground and leave these ulcers behind. Once on the 

ground, they grow and this enormous bee comes and feeds from them. My father and sister 

are standing in the street, I meet them there. My sister tells me then that my mother has cancer 

and that she is going to die sometime in November. She knows the exact date. My mother is 

standing behind my sister and she looks like she does not know anything. I find that 

distressing. 

I have dreamt a couple of times that my teeth fell off. Healthy, sound teeth, with no holes but 

were thin. It felt like having sea shells in my mouth. In the second dream I had no teeth and 

though: I look like sh..! How horrible! 

Prover 3/C2 

I dream that my teacher has taken over one of my patients. She prescribed some other remedy. 

She tells me the story of this other remedy, hoe it is made and where from. It is an animal that 

looks a bit like an armadillo. She claims that this remedy is better for the child. She tells me 

this seriously but the people around her are laughing, as if they knew that what she is telling is 

not right. I feel angry and frustrated; I feel powerlessness and can not believe it. How is this 

possible? I can just not believe it. I think that I have deep respect for my teacher and I always 

ask you about things. I do that gladly, and this can not be. This is my patient I would have 

liked to be asked first, before anyone did anything. 

Prover 4/C1 

Dreaming of something broken, it is done with the teeth and then spitting it all out. It is like 

some soft and bloody stuff. 

Prover 5/C1 

Dream a lot about every day things like doing the groceries or cleaning. 

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Prover 5/C4 

I saw the church tower of my parents’ village crushing down. My parents live close to the 

church, everything was destroyed. I saw my parents’ house from the other side of the street. 

There was no much going on, just that everything was destroyed. 

Prover 12/C1 

I dreamt a lot about everyday things like vacuuming of doing the dishes. In the morning I had 

forgotten the dreams and then around 15 pm I remembered some of it. 

Prover 16/C1 

I dream a lot about my father and the past. 

Prover 8/C2 

I dream of bees in my room. They sting me. They are in the curtain, they are flying at me. 

Some unknown person takes the curtain and shakes them off. 

Prover 3/C3 

I dream that I am so angry at someone that I can not stop yelling and end up beating up this 

person. I have drawn that person violently into a room and start beating her up. The reason for 

this is that I feel she crossed the line, disrespected the boundaries. This is a female family 

member coming on to my partner. My thoughts about this: you are not touching the most 

sacred in my life. After this I feel very sad and cry a lot because my partner is very angry at 

me for what I have done. He says to me in the dream: you have made a scene at a family party 

and that is not the place to do it! You have no respect for anybody!! 

Prover 5/C3 

Dreams of strange situations in family, daughter had 3 children in dream instead of one. 

Also dreamt that my father in law, at 91 years went off to get something and fell, he ended 

standing on his feet one floor lower and walked away. I was surprised he was not injured. I 

had not emotions with this, I just watched it. 

Prover 18/C3 

Cruel dreams. Felt shocked in the dreams. 

I dreamt of turtles eating a fish head, association with suppression and cruelty. 

Dreams of dancing, a lot of dreams, often. 

Prover 18/C4 

I dreamt of a snake, 2 days in a row. The snake was very thin, was in my pocket and bite me. I 

let it fall, and goes away. Children are walking up the stairs they get bitten but do not feel it. 

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Prover 8/C5 

I dream about the war. I and my children are in some attic. Somebody knocks strongly on the 

door. And then there is silence. One of my sons climbs on the roof to see what is going on. He 

then gets threatened with a gun by a soldier that was on the roof. They tell us that we shall be 

picked up in two days. I say good bye to the attic. I look through its round windows, I see a 

long and wide ditch full of weed, green plants, and it extends for as long as my eyes can 

reach. I get up with a heavy feeling. 

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3i. C5 level – “Sleeping Beauty” 

C5 level – the archetypical information of Lapis Lazuli 

During the fifth trituration of the remedy the main feelings expressed were: 

• Resistance to things – to old things that come back, to what there is to come, 

especially negative things like the coldness and cruelty of humanity. (Hitler as 

example) (3/C4 7/C5 15/C5) 

• Fear that joy will turn around into misery – (3/C4 6/C5 7/C5) 

• Feeling that maybe you can not be yourself because of duties and time, responsibility 

– wanting to break loose from these - (8/C5 13/C5) 

• Feeling of being gone, detached – with “Sleeping beauty” as comparison in this gone 

feeling as well as the contradictions in it. (6/C5 15/C5) 

• Experiencing the dark side as cruelty and wanting to skip that part. Anger about 

having to go through it forcibly. ( 2/C5 15/C5) 

• Living in paradox 29 – contradictory emotions – the solution being : believing in 

yourself and going above that feeling. (5/C5 7/C5 9/C5 11/C5 15/C5) 

Ultimately what seems to be the core of this information is the paradox, having to go through 

the darkest of times to see the light and experiencing many contradictions in feelings, deeds, 

wishes, just like seen in the previous four triturations. 

- It is difficult to get to the light, that is why the darkness feels like isolation to me, 

because I can not see it right. (8/C5) 

- I am in the darkness and I feel isolated, there is just one beam of light. (8/C5) 

There is resistance to go through darkness because it is brought on by someone’s cruelty. 

Someone’s cruelty brings on the darkness, a darkness that is so hard to bear that someone has 

no choice but to grief intensely and be consumed with anger, like we see in the proving. 

Most of the above mention feelings are reflected in the fairy tale “Sleeping Beauty”. In the 

next page two pages I explain the links between the proving and the fairy tale. The text used 

for this is that of Sir Arthur Quiller-Couch. 

29 Paradox (disambiguation). 

A paradox is an apparently true statement or group of statements that seems to lead to a contradiction or to a situation that defies intuition. 

Typically, the statements in question do not really imply the contradiction, the puzzling result is not really a contradiction, or the premises 

themselves are not all really true or cannot all be true together. The recognition of ambiguities, equivocations, and un stated assumptions 

underlying known paradoxes has led to significant advances in science, philosophy and mathematics. Wikipedia encyclopedia 

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“Sleeping Beauty” 

Painting by Maxfield Parrish: Sleeping Beauty (A Bella Adormecida) – 1912 30 

30 For paragraph references, see “Sleeping Beauty” appendix B, page 106 

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Comments about “Sleeping Beauty” in relation to the trituration proving 

In the fairy tale there are contradictions in which we see that a family that could wish nothing 

else was in grief because they did not have a child (paragraph 2). Another one could be that in 

a palace where everything runs around the princess, at the time of the unfortunate event there 

is no one around to save her completely from her fate (paragraph 17-23). Instead of dying she 

would fall into a deep sleep, which to her father the king, this sounded like “cold comfort at 

the best” (paragraph 14). It is interesting to see that this sensation of coldness is seen 

throughout the proving as well. 

All of these elements we find in the fairy tale “Sleeping Beauty” where as in history, a family 

who has and enjoys everything, lives happily in light (paragraph 1) is brought cruelly into 

darkness by someone who has issues, in the fairy tale’s case the Fairy Uglyane 31 , who curses 

the young Princess Aurora to die by piercing her hand with a spindle; bringing her 

unexpectedly from light into darkness for many, many years (Paragraph 11). This reflects the 

element of the unexpected that we see in the proving, where there is resistance to go on 

because of the fear of misfortune, fear of what it about to come. Once in the darkness you can 

not do anything but wait, wait to see the glimpse of light, like Princess Aurora had to wait for 

the prince to come by and break the spell. We can all imagine how such state can give us the 

feeling of isolation, being by your self in the darkness not being able to get help from anyone. 

Another curious link between this fairy tale and the proving is the “sleeping sickness” 

(paragraph 31) where everyone sleeps deeply. In the proving we see an extreme feeling of 

tiredness with great need for sleep, wanting to go to sleep. This sleep symbolized death, as it 

is experienced by the Prince when he first enters the castle to rescue Princess Aurora 

(paragraph 40-42). 

The other similarity between the tale and the proving is the hunger everyone experiences on 

waking up, they all think of food (end paragraph 49 & 50), even the Queen herself who was 

first devastated by the events. 

The fairy tale shows that at the end, if you do dare to suffer the darkness as it comes, the light 

will show itself sooner or later, but even then there will be less joyful events, as these all 

belong to life itself and can not be avoided. The Princess and Prince lived happily ever after 

but had to see their fathers die of old age (paragraph 42-58). 

31 “The Sleeping Beauty and other Fairy Tales” at 1910 by Sir Arthur Quiller-Couch (1863-1944) 

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3j. List of symptoms after one single dose of Lapis Lazuli C40/4 

On May 11 th 2005 we potentize the remedy up to C30/4 and then C40/4 by hand according to 

the Korsakov method. After this most of the provers take one single dose (one drop) of the 

C40/4 remedy. Provers 1, 2 and 12 do not take it, they are afraid of the reaction. Only a few 

provers send in their experiences after taking the remedy. 

Observations & mentioned reactions at the time 

- Provers look young and fresh. 

- Accelerated heartbeat – feeling a rush of energy on the chest. 

- Feeling that thyroid works faster, feeling of hurry. 

- The letters in the paper seem to dance & feeling of hurry. 

- There is a lot of humor, people teasing each other. 

Mental Symptoms 

- Feeling of not being here anymore, having lost yourself (1, 8) 32 

- My relationship with this remedy is that of love/hate. It attracts me but I am afraid of 

its dark side. (3) 

- I feel courageous or coward. I postpone things that I do not like but they keep coming 

back. Then I feel that I need to confront them. I feel like a warrior before the battle. (3) 

- I wake up singing ‘Let it be´ by the Beatles and need to listen to it many times on 

waking – feeling of unity and trust (3) 

- I feel moved by provers 3 story with the Beatles, it is about mother Mary. In one of the 

sessions with a patient I drew something in an intuitive manner; a dark blue bow 

appeared with the contours of mother Mary beside it. It feels like we can now contact 

this high and healing entity, please read “Let it be” (8) 

- I have the feeling of overview in my life, I feel relaxed, like an old soul, feel the 

wisdom, the emotions get quieter. Things are like they are, that is nature! Even if it 

means that I shall loose loved ones. I shall miss them but it won’t destroy me. All the 

contradictions in my life are clear now. If there is something very beautiful, something 

horrible will follow, this is nature’s law; I accept it and embrace it. I have a terrible 

need to mother others; I am not a mother so I play mother with my parents and friends. 

(13) 

- Trying not to make room for those deeper feelings that you would rather suppress (15) 

- Strong need to suppress emotions (15) 

- Sympathy towards those who suffer (15) 

- Anger about trifles, be nice, let it be, function from a higher perspective (15) 

- Superficial attitude towards cruel events & emotions that these bring up (15) 

Prophecy 

- A Hurricane coming to America from China (11) – this was in May 2005, Katrina 

stroke the USA in August 2005. 

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Physical Symptoms 

Back 

Heart 

Fever 

- Pain in lumbar region, very sudden and violent. The pain extends to abdomen, 

abdomen feels distended and stagnated. < Sitting > Lying down (1) 

- Lumbar pain, sensation of constriction in pelvis > motion. It feels like a cystitis, I 

wonder if I have one (5) 

- Pain in lower back, feeling as if it split in two. Burning pain. After a week I still have 

the feeling of a lump or a stone in the lumbar region (8) 

- Cervical and lumbar region cold and stiff (15 16) 

- Lower back aches, have to do with suppressed anger and not making room for what 

you really need to express (15) 

- Pain in lower back with stitching pain in bladder (16) 

- Palpitations & cold hands and feet (8) 

- Palpitations with the feeling that heart jumps up with shocks through the body (16) 

- Palpitations with excitement (16) 

- Coming on at the end of the day (16) 

- Fever with an ice cold feeling inside and hot skin, warmth of bed does not > (16) 

Dreams 

- Can not remember, woke up singing “Let it be” the Beatles (3) 

- I am walking around the Church’s yard, someone is being followed and shot at, and he 

dies. I become afraid and hide behind a small building with a little porch. I am 

convinced that I can not be seen. I am afraid the shooter is going to shoot more people. 

I feel save and think I am not seen, then someone I know comes by and asks: are you 

coming? And then I ask: How do you know I was there? He could see me from the 

distance, I had made a mistake (5) 

- Someone does not want to believe what I am telling, denies what I did and tells the 

story wrong, I feel powerless. When she keeps on denying and pointing at me I bite 

her on the finger because I feel powerless. The bite is so hard that I can taste the blood 

in the dream. I feel like I want to squeeze her, this does not happen. (5) 

- I am giving birth with 3 other women. The contours of the baby could be felt through 

my skin. Then I sit straight up and feel the head between my legs. The child looks at 

me and I know that it is a boy. (8) 

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“The Mother Mary” 

34 Symbolism 

Mosaic by Sano di Pietro Painting “Mother and child” Sano di Pietro 33 

The Virgin mother is the prima materia, the matrix, the virgin earth, the bearer of light, 

transforming power; she is symbolized by the tree, flowers and fruits. 

Virgin goddesses are not necessarily “virgo intacta” but unwed, free. Their chief symbols are 

the moon and the serpent. Virgin birth is the union of the divine and the human, heaven and 

earth, which results in the birth of God or superior being. It also symbolizes the birth of 

intelligence, or the higher faculties in men. The Great Mother, Queen of Heaven, is a virgin 

and her son is born of the spirit of the will, or she is born of her own son, symbolizing original 

identity. 

The Christian Virgin Mary is associated with a number of symbols; all enclosed places such 

as the walled garden; sealed fountain, the Ark, the living spring; also with the “living bush” 

from the burning bush, a place of divine manifestation; the closed gate and the gate of heaven, 

the light cloud, pure and unattached from which blessing falls in spiritual rain; the untilled 

soil of Eden; the never extinguished lamp, a bridge leading to heaven, a ladder by which 

Christ descended to earth; Star of the sea, and many other attributes. 

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The great Mother’s archetype 

The Great Mother, however, can frighten as well as sustain. Nothing is quite as unnerving as 

watching the Moon transformed from the nurturing light in the midnight sky into a black disk 

cutting away the light of the sun during an eclipse. Mother Earth may sustain the crops, but 

Mother Earth can generate terrible forces--earthquakes, floods and volcanic eruptions. Our 

primitive psyches enshrine the ecstasy of hunger banished by mother's breast, but we also 

33 Sano di Pietro: Italian Early Renaissance Painter, 1406-1481 

34 J.C Cooper “ An Illustrated encyclopaedia of traditional symbols” p 186 

35 Jung, C. G. (1969). Four archetypes: Mother/rebirth/spirit/trickster Princeton, NJ p 9, 26 

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harbour dark shadows of her absence, of her inability to make everything better. The Great 

Mother not only pours her love out upon the earth, but she also generates an image in our 

shadow, smothering, devouring, implacable, and too terrible to contemplate. 

This is the mother-love which is one of the most moving and unforgettable memories of our 

lives, the mysterious root of all growth and change; the love that means homecoming, shelter, 

and the long silence from which everything begins and in which everything ends. Intimately 

known and yet strange like Nature, lovingly tender and yet cruel like fate, joyous and untiring 

giver of life--mater dolorosa and mute implacable portal that closes upon the dead. Mother is 

mother-love, my experience and my secret. Why risk saying too much, too much that is false 

and inadequate and beside the point, about that human being who was our mother, the 

accidental carrier of that great experience which includes herself and myself and all mankind, 

and indeed the whole of created nature, the experience of life whose children we are? The 

attempt to say these things has always been made, and probably always will be; but a sensitive 

person cannot in all fairness load that enormous burden of meaning, responsibility, duty, 

heaven and hell, on to the shoulders of one frail and fallible human being--so deserving of 

love, indulgence, understanding, and forgiveness--who was our mother. He knows that the 

mother carries for us that inborn image of the mater natura and mater spiritualis, of the 

totality of life of which we are a small and helpless part. 

The Nourishing Mother 36 The Soul Mother 

The Dark Mother 

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The Nourishing Mother: Building home, deep connection to family, community, and ones ancestral background 

The Soul Mother: Strong healing service. 

The Dark Mother: to honour the deep, passionate part of self. 

(www.jungianarchpsych.com/images) 

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Mother Mary and Lapis Lazuli 

As seen in the beginning of this work (Chapter 2, 2d) the link between Lapis Lazuli and the 

Virgin Mary can not be denied. Most of the paintings of the Mother Mary in history have 

been painted with ultramarine blue 37 , made out of Lapis Lazuli. 

If we compare the symbolism of the Mother Mary with the proving information we see some 

links. The first is her transforming power and the bearer of light. In the trituration proving, 

levels C1-C4 we see death as the transformation process. In the higher potentized Lapis Mary 

appears as the transformation power. She brings light into darkness, she is the light bearer. 

She is often symbolized by the moon – the female principal – appear both in the level 4 of the 

trituration (Pr 8, 15, 18). Also symbols like old, big trees are mentioned in the proving, the 

rainforest (Pr 3, 4, 8). 

There is also a link mentioned between heaven and earth, which are complementary but 

opposite, the birth of a superior being or the higher intelligence of mankind. This we can link 

to the proving at the higher levels when some of the provers feel a sensation of arising above 

all the problems and seeing everything from a higher perspective (see list of mental 

symptoms, page 32). 

It seems so that Mary is the highest female symbol for the light, reaching the wisdom to 

overcome the worst of darkness periods. The spiritual feelings during the proving might be 

linked directly to her and not so much to Jesus himself as he is not mentioned at all. The 

provers mention bells, sacristy, nature, high mountains and trees, some of these being directly 

Mother Mary’s symbols. 

It is quite amazing to see that in the proving the song “Let it be” comes up where it literally 

mentions Mother Mary as a comfort and source of light. The analysis of the song’s lyrics is 

found at the end of the “Let it be” text. 

37 Some examples of European / Dutch colour symbolism Blue: sincerity, loyalty, melancholy, heavenly 

(http://www.dutchflowerlink.nl/engels/Lessons/esthetics/color/color.htm) 

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Let it be 

The Beatles (Lennon/McCartney) 

When I find myself in times of trouble 

Mother Mary comes to me 

speaking words of wisdom, let it be. 

And in my hour of darkness 

she is standing right in front of me 

speaking words of wisdom, let it be. 

Let it be, let it be. 

Whisper words of wisdom, let it be. 1 

And when the broken hearted people 

Living in the world agree, 

There will be an answer, let it be. 

For though they may be parted there is 

Still a chance that they will see 


Let it be, let it be. Yeah 

There will be an answer, let it be. 2 

And when the night is cloudy, 

There is still a light that shines on me, 

Shine on until tomorrow, let it be. 

I wake up to the sound of music 

Mother Mary comes to me 

Speaking words of wisdom, let it be. 

Let it be, let it be. 


Let it be, let it be, 

Whisper words of wisdom, let it be 3 

Analysis 

Verse 1: In this part of the song it literally says that when things do not go right the source of 

light appears, she brings comfort and light in the hour of darkness. 

Mother Mary is telling that “letting it be” is the answer to the problem. Letting it be being the 

opposite of dwelling and trying to fight things, suppression. Letting things happen, letting 

things come as they are. Not fighting, not resisting. 

The listener, the son that listens to Mother knows very well that what she is telling is what 

needs to be done. 

Verse 2: When there is unity in people that have been hurt, this probably meaning to 

sympathize with each other instead of blaming or hating others the solution to the darkness 

will show itself. This applies even to the ones that have already departed; the dead ones. 

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Verse 3: The message here seems to refer to “cloudy nights” or times when things are not 

clear, when you do not know the answer, when you hesitate or experience some dilemmas. 

There will still be glimpse of light shining to show you the way, also tomorrow there will be 

that light, there is always hope. Music might be a way to let go of thoughts and fears and in 

this letting go, you will see the light at the end and find the solution. 

Another thing I would like to add to this, is that while looking at the title of the song I realised 

that it also symbolizes the kind of dilemma seen in the Lapis Lazuli proving. The person is so 

hurt and so damaged that can not let go of things and that creates the illness. 

LET ----------------------------- IT ----------------------------------------- BE 

Letting (Neutral terrain) being 

To be able to just BE, you need to be able to let go; like it is mentioned in many holistic and 

naturals healing arts where the mental, emotional and physical state are all related. In 

meditation this is a common practice. Thinking of this I found a very interesting text that also 

confirms that in Lapis, the incapability to let go of anger, fear and pain can lead to illness. 

Letting Go 

Simple Tips to Staying in Balance 

By Petrene Soames, author of The Essence of Self-Healing 38 

An important part of becoming healthy and staying in balance is letting go of tension, stress 

and deeply buried or surface negative emotions such as anger, frustration, fear, hurt, pain and 

hate. I mentioned these so-called negative emotions because I have not yet found anyone who 

was ill or out of balance because he or she was living in or holding onto an abundance of joy 

and love. However, people are often ill because of the loss of joy and love from their lives; 

some have never known either of these emotions. 

Although I always look at each person as a unique individual being, and never apply 

generalities to anyone, it is possible to recognize patterns and links between some illnesses 

and certain emotions or mix of emotions. For example, lower backache, cancer, rheumatism, 

and irritable bowel syndrome are often linked with holding on to anger, pain and fear. I'm not 

suggesting that these illnesses are not very real in the body, but that letting go of these 

emotions is necessary to initiate and to allow the healing process to move towards completion. 

If you are in perfect health and shape you have found ways to let go already or not to hold on 

to what you do not need. You let go quite naturally. When you were young and carefree 

perhaps you let go of things more easily and never seemed to be ill; you were excited then and 

busy exploring life. There is some truth in the idea of not having time to be ill, a philosophy 

that works for many people. But as time goes by, letting go is often not so easy or 

spontaneous. 

Perhaps we simply do not make time for it; we get overloaded. Some people become more 

relaxed once again in their older years. They live life from a more relaxed perspective 

believing that the smaller events and problems that they used to worry about are no longer 

38 Based on The Essence of Self-Healing: How to bring health and happiness into your life (FleetStreet Publications - March 2001) by 

Petrene Soames (http://1stholistic.com/reading/liv_healing-letting-go-soames.htm) 

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eally important: "Time is running out, might as well make the most of it!" Such sentiments 

are played then in their minds. 

3k. Summary of the symptoms of the Lapis Lazuli trituration: Level C1 to C4 

C1 – Physical Level 

• Ice coldness, especially extremities – sensation of being rubbed with peppermint oil 

• Stitching pains in heart region (associated with grief) 

• Burning sensations in eyes 

• Illusions of odors (Camphor, Peppermint, Chlorum, Gasoline etc) 

• Dryness of skin and mucus membranes & intense itching in skin 

• Nausea, belching and distension in abdomen – cramping pains with fears 

• Congestion, heat in head and face 

• Throat ache, sensation of lump in throat, can not swallow, dry cough & oppression 

• Deep tiredness, wanting to sleep, lack of energy 

• Heaviness of limbs, sluggishness 

C2 up to C4 Level – Mental, emotional & spiritual 

• Violent anger and quarreling – suppressed anger & cruelty 

• Explosive emotions 

• Fears – of misfortune & stomach ache 

• Boundaries – lack of and feeling your boundaries are not respected – breaking 

boundaries – freedom 

• Soberness – boundaries in emotions, dosing emotions to survive, perceiving 

environment without emotions. Indifference 

• Desire for cleaning & clearing up (old grievences come back) 

• Death – darkness, old people, cemeteries, saying good-bye to the world, loathing life, 

wishing death, light feeling (as if pulled upwards) 

• War – Jewish people dying, Hitler, concentration camps 

• Grief with pain in the heart region, grief is too hard and heavy, unbearable. Feeling of 

loneliness 

• Tiredness – not wanting to go on anymore, wanting to sleep 

• Concentration – forgetful, not concentrated, wandering thoughts vs sharpness of 

thoughts and senses 

• Spiritual feeling, rest, quietness, peace inside, timeless 

• Ego – separateness in humanity for seeing things from different dimensions, seeing 

different truths vs broad vision, seeing things from a wider perspective. Blaming 

others vs taking own full responsibility 

• Dreams – about every day tasks & cruelties. Sleep difficult; waking up many times 

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Other themes – less prominent 

• Animals and animal instincts – wolves, lions, snakes 

• Egypt, mummies 

• Sun & Moon 

• Sea, dark blue 

• Nature, big old trees, rainforest (related to mother MARY?) 

• Sexuality – sacrificing the male principle for the female 

Generals 

Ice cold (physical and mental/emotional) – lack of vital heat 

Alternating moods (happiness # sadness, active # dullness, depressed # light feeling) 

Intense and quick symptoms 

Dryness – mucus and skin 

Desire for color blue 

Sluggishness – heavy feeling in limbs, lack of energy 

Summarizing the proving by linking the main themes of mental and the physical level 

As I try to make a round circle in the proving information I can say that the Lapis shows us 

clearly what it is about. We see different symptoms at each level and these are no more than a 

deeper understanding of the same feeling or its possible origins. 

There seem to be very strong emotions. These strong emotions are mostly anger and sadness. 

The anger is most prominently accompanied by abdomen complaints, like cramping pains. 

Also heat in the head and other parts is seen as an expression of this anger. And the sadness 

with palpitations of the heart and stitching pains in this area. 

There is also a heavy, hard feeling and fear and anxiety of the violence of these experiences. 

This reflects physically on the heavy and tired feeling in limbs and general loss of energy. 

It seems so that the pain has been so hard and so heavy that to be able to bear it, it has to be 

either ignored or suppressed initially. These emotions at this time are old grievances that have 

been there for long. The suppressed pain is associated with war, concentration camps, death, 

leaving home and saying good-bye to the dearest things. On a deeper level we see 

indifference and a wish for death. This indifference or emotionless state is associated with 

extreme cold, which is also experienced physically. The coldness brings on associations with 

ice bergs, cold Northern countries and even Auschwitz in winter, which has a link with the 

pain, loss, cold and emaciation and bones also mentioned during the proving. 

This remedy seems to bring up all kinds of old, suppressed dark feelings and brings them into 

the light, where one can deal with them and get rid of them for good. This seems to be a form 

of “cleaning up”, this is how it is experienced by the provers and it is literally told in this way. 

Also literal cleaning sessions have taken place at some prover’s homes. 

The anger seems to be related to a feeling of not being heard or understood, a feeling that 

someone is crossing the border, it is all going beyond what you can understand and tolerate. 

This can lead to introspection later on, as the person feels that there is no point in trying. The 

bonds and borders come back in the proving in the form of animal feelings and wanting to 

break ties. The ultimate way of breaking ties is death itself, which is also a big theme in this 

trituration. 

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The sadness seems to be also a part of feeling lonely and having the feeling not to belong 

here, being estranged, having to leave, and say good-bye. The prominent nausea can be 

related to the feeling that someone is so bad, so cruel, so beyond the human understanding 

that makes one sick. This can be explained better at the C5-level of the trituration. (See 3i) 

At a deeper level we see a swift in these feelings. What was death and end, feels like a 

transformation process, there is calmness and quietness and a sense of a base, no fear. 

The anger and the feeling that the boundaries are being crossed are replaced by understanding 

selfishness and ego, and letting go of this for a wider understanding. A whole understanding 

that would mean having no borders. 

3l. The Essence of Lapis Lazuli 

The Essence of Lapis Lazuli according to what is seen through the trituration. 

It is not always easy to describe the essence of a substance with a few sentences. At this point 

I find it necessary to give a description of the essence as I have learned it through 

summarizing this proving. I hope that these words will help you remember the striking 

characteristics of Lapis Lazuli making the recognition in practice a bit easier for you and your 

colleagues. 

The essence of this remedy: 

A sudden misfortune brought on by someone’s cruelty or something (fate/mother nature); this 

cruelty that goes beyond all human boundaries and understanding causes the deepest of grief 

and anger, bringing on a state of almost total darkness; this darkness also being a metaphor for 

death. It is so painful that it kills something in you and you resent and blame that person for it, 

because it all goes beyond the human understanding. The pain seems to involve mainly family 

members, loved ones, the mother, children, losing your loved ones. 

These feelings of grief and anger can be so hard to bear that need to be suppressed to the 

deepest, maybe also because of a feeling of responsibility towards the human existence, being 

able to go on with everyday tasks. In this suppression there is a tendency to act superficially 

or focus on unimportant things, not to look at the truth lying underneath. The suppression can 

be the cause of instability and therefore alternating states sadness, isolation, and anger. 

But why does this happen? I think that it is just part of life. What goes around comes around. 

There are times of abundance, when we take things for granted and focus on the trivial things 

in life, forgetting what really is essential. A cruel event can bring you to the most essential in 

matter of minutes, a survivor of the Katrina who had lost everything material said on TV: this 

hurricane has taught me that I can live with nothing. I think that the reaction to this can be 

either confronting the pain and going on (if you do not know darkness, can never appreciate 

the light) or you get stuck with it get bitter and eventually become cruel yourself. 

An example for this would be the life of Jewish people being pretty happy until Hitler decided 

to go after them. During Hitler’s time many families were torn, fathers, mothers and children 

were separated, tortured, killed. I have always wondered, why Jews? Why them? Maybe it is 

just pure coincidence, being at the wrong place at the wrong time but after this remedy’s 

proving I thought that maybe it was something they needed because they were heading down 

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the wrong road. It is widely known that Jews have always been wealthy; maybe they were 

focussing too much on this and taking things for granted? We will never know.. 

Also the fairy tale “Sleeping Beauty” shows a similar situation between the Princess’s family 

and the fairy Uglyane. Someone’s cruelty that goes beyond human understanding brings on 

darkness and death at some unexpected time in your happy life. Here we see how the daughter 

is taken away from her parents and put into the darkness. 

Rajan Sankaran writes in his book “The Sensation in Homeopathy” 39 that: 

• Sensation and action are equal and opposite: actions are equal to what we perceive is 

happening to us. 

• The opposite is equally true of what is said: sensitivity, we mention the things that are 

issues to us and therefore means we are sensitive to these. 

• There is no one or nothing out there other than myself: we only perceive that what we 

are sensitive to; other things we may not perceive at all. 

If all of these are true we can assume that Lapis Lazuli does not only have a sensation of 

being the victim of cruelty but also is cruel to others or would want to be cruel to others. 

“I do not have or feel warmth, nurture, love, so I shall make sure that nobody else around me 

does”. 

The sensitivity of Lapis lies within the issues of cruelty (towards oneself and family), getting 

warmth/love and nurture. The reaction to these sensations could be active, passive or 

compensated. In the active reaction we would see someone being cruel to others; the passive 

would be compassion and the compensation could be constant fighting against cruelty. In the 

trituration proving itself we see suppressed aggression (cruelty), some sort of sympathy and 

the feeling of something being unfair and feeling the need to quarrel about it. These 

symptoms confirm Sankaran’s theory. 

39 Rajan Sankaran “The sensation in Homeopathy” p 123-138 

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Chapter 4 

Other provings of Lapis Lazuli: Schadde (Germany) & Tumminello (Australia) 

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4a. The proving of Lapis Lazuli by Anne Schadde 

The substance used: 2 grains of raw, untreated piece of dark blue Lapis Lazuli containing a 

few pyrites. Origin: Afghanistan. 

Method: the substance was triturated up to C3 and succussed up to C30. Hahnemannian 

proving. 

Proving: the substance was proved in 1999. The C30 potency was taken by 12 provers (8 

women & 4 men). 

4b. A summary of the main symptoms: proving of Lapis Lazuli by Anne Schadde 

Mind themes 

• Stupefaction with vertigo 4 pm > lying down, when thinking and acting slowly, with 

the sensation of excessive pressure in the head. 

• Relating to the rest of the world: feeling of connection inside and outside or sensation 

of being disconnected from the world. 

• Fear: Fear of water, rain, of malignant disease, of being hurt and the next symptoms 

coming up. 

• Being rushed: 

Feeling rushed cause of a trip or feeling less rushed than usual. 

• Gestures: 

Raising eyebrows while talking, as gesture of emphasis, face is very red. 

• Greed: Feeling that I overate with a huge stone in belly. I feel gluttonous when I see 

something edible. 

• Inhibition: 

I feel inhibited because I can not sing very well. I am worried that others 

will realise I am off key, with heart palpitations. 

• Concentration: Concentration better than usual or mental exhaustion and lack of 

concentration with great fatigue. 

• Nervousness: Suddenly very nervous, tremble from inside with shaky hands as if very 

agitated. Exhausted and irritated. 

• Order & Structure: 

Desire for order and mental clarity. Urgent desire to rearrange the 

house, to organize, clean the entire house. 

• Prophecy – premonition: 

Premonitory dreams. Predicts time of death. 

• Retreat, inward and desire to be by oneself: 

Aversion to conversations. Desire to be 

alone. Nagging at night with family with the desire to be alone, total aversion to 

company. 

• Desire: 

longing for something, do not know what. 

• Changing mood: 

euphoria # depression. Extremely angry, I imagine how I strangle 

someone. 

• Sluggishness: General sluggishness of body and mind, heaviness of limbs > after 

getting up. I deliberately do one thing after the other. In this state I am communicative; 

40 Anne Schadde & Jürgen Hansel “Listening to Stone, Wood and Shell” p 15-72. Please read the book for more detailed information about 

the symptoms. 

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my thought process is slow, while my general mood is cheerful. I enjoy my leisure 

time, no sign of hastiness. 

• Grief/sorrow/weeping: 

Terribly sad and cry a lot. I feel abandoned and sad, am 

annoyed by my self-pity. Communication with friends has ceased as well. 

• Unyielding: Less yielding, more consequent. 

• Commitment, lack of: 

I think that my tolerance towards others is really only a lack of 

commitment. I do not get involved enough with people and things. 

• No defence: 

I can not defend myself, can’t hold my own. 

• Rage/Anger: Jumped out of my skin, I even slapped my son in the face. That is 

extremely rare; I apologized later. 

4c. Rubrics of Mind Symptoms 

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MIND - ABSENTMINDED 

MIND - ANGER 

MIND - ANXIETY - pains, from the - Heart; in the 

MIND - AWKWARD - drops things 

MIND - CLAIRVOYANCE 

MIND - COMPANY - aversion to 

MIND - CONCENTRATION - active 

MIND - CONCENTRATION - difficult 

MIND - CONSCIENTIOUS about trifles 

MIND - CONVERSATION - agg. 

MIND - DEATH - presentiment of 

MIND - DELUSIONS - pregnant, she is 

MIND - DELUSIONS - starve - being starved 

MIND - DELUSIONS - starve - family will 

MIND - DESIRES - full of desires - indefinite 

MIND - FEAR - disease, of impending 

MIND - FEAR - hurt, of being 

MIND - FEAR - rain, of 

MIND - FEAR - starving, of 

MIND - FEAR - water, of 

MIND - FORSAKEN feeling - isolation; sensation of 

MIND - HAUGHTY 

MIND - IMPATIENCE - contradiction; at slightest 

MIND - INDIFFERENCE 

MIND - INDIFFERENCE - sleepiness, with 

MIND - IRRITABILITY 

MIND - IRRITABILITY - conversation, from 

MIND - IRRITABILITY - spoken to, when 

MIND - IRRITABILITY - talking - while 

MIND - MEMORY - weakness of memory - expressing oneself, for 

MIND - MEMORY - weakness of memory - words; for 

MIND - MISTAKES; making - speaking, in 

MIND - OFFENDED, easily 

MIND - QUIET disposition 

MIND - QUIET; wants to be 

MIND - RETIREMENT; desire for 

41 List of rubrics taken out RADAR version 9.1 – Dutch version 

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MIND - SADNESS 

MIND - SADNESS - causeless 

MIND - TACITURN 

MIND - TRANQUILLITY 

MIND - WEEPING - cannot weep, though sad 

MIND - WEEPING - suddenly 

MIND - YIELDING disposition 

Rubrics of Physical Symptoms 

VERTIGO - VERTIGO 

VERTIGO - MORNING - waking, on 

VERTIGO - ACCOMPANIED BY - epistaxis 

VERTIGO - ACCOMPANIED BY - Head - pain in head 

VERTIGO - BALANCING; sensation of 

VERTIGO - PERSPIRATION 

VERTIGO - ROCKING - as if 

VERTIGO - WEATHER - cold 

HEAD - ERUPTIONS - itching 

HEAD - ERUPTIONS - scales 

HEAD - ERUPTIONS - scurfy 

HEAD - ERUPTIONS - Margin of hair 

HEAD - HAIR - falling 

HEAD - HEAT 

HEAD - HEAT - contradiction, from 

HEAD - HEAVINESS - Forehead 

HEAD - ITCHING of scalp - Occiput 

HEAD - NOISES in head 

HEAD - PAIN - morning - waking, on 

HEAD - PAIN - accompanied by - nausea 

HEAD - PAIN - air - open - amel. 

HEAD - PAIN - cold - air - amel. 

HEAD - PAIN - cold - applications - amel. 

HEAD - PAIN - rubbing - amel. 

HEAD - PAIN - sleep - after - amel. 

HEAD - PAIN - walking - air - open; in the - while - amel. 

HEAD - PAIN - Forehead, in - right side 

HEAD - PAIN - Forehead, in - Eyes - Above 

HEAD - PAIN - Occiput 

HEAD - PAIN - Occiput - left 

HEAD - PAIN - Occiput - extending to - Head - Over whole head 

HEAD - PAIN - Sides - right 

HEAD - PAIN - Vertex 

HEAD - PAIN - pressing 

HEAD - PAIN - pressing - Forehead 

HEAD - PAIN - stitching - Occiput 

HEAD - PAIN - stitching - Occiput - morning - waking, on 

HEAD - RAISE THE HEAD - unable to 

HEAD - TIRED feeling 

EYE - FALLING - out; as if eyes were falling 

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EYE - INFLAMMATION - Conjunctiva 

EYE - ITCHING 

EYE - LACHRYMATION 

EYE - LACHRYMATION - pain, from - eye, in 

EYE - PAIN - weeping; as after 

EYE - TIRED EXPRESSION 

VISION - DIM 

EAR - HEAT - sensation of 

EAR - NOISES in 

EAR - NOISES in - left 

EAR - NOISES in - sitting, while 

EAR - NOISES in - waking, on 

EAR - NOISES in - pulsating, throbbing 

EAR - NOISES in - rushing 

EAR - NOISES in - whistling 

EAR - NOISES in - whistling - right 

EAR - NOISES in - whistling - left 

EAR - PAIN 

EAR - PAIN - blowing nose, on 

NOSE - CORYZA 

NOSE - CORYZA - air - draft of; from a 

NOSE - CORYZA - cold - air - agg. 

NOSE - CORYZA - discharge, with 

NOSE - DISCHARGE - bloody - morning - blowing nose, on 

NOSE - DISCHARGE - yellow 

NOSE - EPISTAXIS 

NOSE - EPISTAXIS - morning 

NOSE - EPISTAXIS - morning - bed, in - waking, on 

NOSE - EPISTAXIS - blowing - nose; the 

NOSE - EPISTAXIS - exertion, from 

NOSE - EPISTAXIS - headache - during 

NOSE - OBSTRUCTION 

NOSE - OBSTRUCTION - discharge - with 

NOSE - PAIN - burning, smarting - Nostrils 

NOSE - PAIN - burning, smarting - Root - Inside 

NOSE - PERSPIRATION on 

NOSE - SNEEZING - morning - waking, on 

FACE - CRACKED - Lips 

FACE - CRACKED - Lips - Lower 

FACE - DISCOLORATION - pale 

FACE - DISCOLORATION - red 

FACE - DRYNESS - Lips 

FACE - ERUPTIONS - acne - rosacea 

FACE - ERUPTIONS - boils - Chin 

FACE - ERUPTIONS - crusty, scabby - Mouth - Corners of 

FACE - ERUPTIONS - red - Nose, on 

FACE - ERUPTIONS - rough - Lips 

FACE - ERUPTIONS - Nose 

FACE - FORMICATION 

FACE - FORMICATION - Lips 

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FACE - HEAT 

FACE - HEAT - headache, with 

FACE - HEAT - sensation of 

FACE - PAIN - Eye - Below 

FACE - PAIN - Jaw 

FACE - PAIN - Jaw - Lower 

FACE - PAIN - Jaw - Upper 

FACE - PAIN - burning - Lips 

FACE - PERSPIRATION 

MOUTH - CRAWLING - Palate 

MOUTH - DRYNESS 

MOUTH - DRYNESS - thirst, with 

MOUTH - DRYNESS - thirstless 

MOUTH - ERUPTIONS - vesicles - Tongue - Tip 

MOUTH - INFLAMMATION - Gums 

MOUTH - NUMBNESS 

MOUTH - NUMBNESS - Palate 

MOUTH - PAIN - Tongue - motion agg. 

MOUTH - PAIN - burning - Tongue 

MOUTH - SALIVATION - night 

MOUTH - SPEECH - difficult - weakness; from 

MOUTH - TASTE - metallic 

MOUTH - TASTE - wanting, tastelessness of food 

THROAT - PAIN 

THROAT - PAIN - right 

THROAT - PAIN - left - extending to - right 

THROAT - PAIN - cold - air 

THROAT - PAIN - cold - becoming, on 

THROAT - PAIN - drinks - cold 

THROAT - PAIN - scratching 

THROAT - PAIN - sore - accompanied by - coryza 

THROAT - PAIN - stitching 

THROAT - PAIN - stitching - swallowing, on - empty, on 

EXTERNAL THROAT - PAIN - Cervical glands 

EXTERNAL THROAT - SWELLING - Cervical Glands 

EXTERNAL THROAT - SWELLING - Thyroid gland 

STOMACH - APPETITE - ravenous 

STOMACH - APPETITE - wanting 

STOMACH - EMPTINESS 

STOMACH - FULLNESS, sensation of 

STOMACH - HEARTBURN 

STOMACH - NAUSEA 

STOMACH - NAUSEA - cough - during 

STOMACH - THIRST 

STOMACH - VOMITING - coughing 

ABDOMEN - DISTENSION 

ABDOMEN - DISTENSION - painful 

ABDOMEN - FLATULENCE 

ABDOMEN - PAIN 

ABDOMEN - PAIN - walking - amel. 

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ABDOMEN - PAIN - cramping 

ABDOMEN - PAIN - cutting - flatus - passing - amel. 

ABDOMEN - PAIN - cutting - Sides - right 

ABDOMEN - PAIN - drawing - Sides - right 

ABDOMEN - PAIN - stitching - Hypochondria - right 

ABDOMEN - RUMBLING 

RECTUM - DIARRHEA 

RECTUM - FLATUS - offensive 

RECTUM - FLATUS - offensive - eggs; spoiled 

RECTUM - HEMORRHAGE from anus 

RECTUM - HEMORRHAGE from anus - stool - after 

RECTUM - HEMORRHOIDS 

RECTUM - ITCHING 

RECTUM - ITCHING - warm bed, in 

RECTUM - PAIN - cutting - stool - during 

STOOL - BALLS, like 

STOOL - BLOODY 

STOOL - ODOR - offensive 

STOOL - ODOR - putrid 

STOOL - PASTY, papescent 

STOOL - SOFT 

STOOL - THIN 

BLADDER - PAIN - burning 

BLADDER - URGING to urinate - frequent 

KIDNEYS - PAIN - drawing - Region of 

MALE GENITALIA/SEX - SEXUAL DESIRE - increased 

FEMALE GENITALIA/SEX - LEUKORRHEA 

FEMALE GENITALIA/SEX - LEUKORRHEA - brown 

LARYNX AND TRACHEA - PAIN - burning - Throat-pit 

LARYNX AND TRACHEA - VOICE - hoarseness 

LARYNX AND TRACHEA - VOICE - nasal 

RESPIRATION - IMPEDED, obstructed 

COUGH - DRY 

COUGH - OPPRESSION; from - Chest; in 

CHEST - CEASES to beat; as if heart - would cease 

CHEST - CONSTRICTION 

CHEST - CONSTRICTION - waking - on 

CHEST - ERUPTIONS 

CHEST - ERUPTIONS - itching 

CHEST - PAIN - Heart - walking - amel. 

CHEST - PAIN - pressing - Heart 

CHEST - PAIN - sore - Heart 

CHEST - PAIN - stitching - Axilla 

CHEST - PAIN - stitching - Heart 

CHEST - PALPITATION of heart - vertigo, with 

CHEST - SWELLING - Axilla - Glands 

BACK - ERUPTIONS - fleabites, like 

BACK - ERUPTIONS - Cervical region 

BACK - ITCHING 

BACK - ITCHING - Cervical region 

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BACK - ITCHING - Dorsal region - Scapulae - Between 

BACK - PAIN 

BACK - PAIN - lying - while 

BACK - PAIN - sitting - long, after 

BACK - PAIN - Cervical region 

BACK - PAIN - Cervical region - motion - head 

BACK - PAIN - Cervical region - turning head - right; to 

BACK - PAIN - Dorsal region 

BACK - PAIN - Dorsal region - motion - on 

BACK - PAIN - Lumbar region 

BACK - PAIN - Lumbar region - morning 

BACK - PAIN - Lumbar region - lying - while 

BACK - PAIN - Lumbar region - extending to - Hips 

BACK - PAIN - Sacral region 

BACK - PAIN - Sacral region - stooping, on 

BACK - PAIN - cramping - Dorsal region - Scapulae - right 

BACK - PAIN - cramping - Dorsal region - Scapulae - left 

BACK - PAIN - lancinating - Dorsal region 

BACK - PAIN - pressing 

BACK - PAIN - pressing - Dorsal region - Scapulae - Under 

BACK - PAIN - pressing - Dorsal region - Scapulae - Under - left 

BACK - PAIN - stitching - Cervical region 

BACK - PAIN - stitching - Cervical region - extending to - Head 

BACK - PAIN - stitching - Dorsal region 

BACK - PAIN - stitching - Dorsal region - Scapulae 

BACK - PAIN - stitching - Dorsal region - Scapulae - right 

BACK - TENSION - Cervical region 

EXTREMITIES - COLDNESS - Hands - vertigo, with 

EXTREMITIES - CRACKING in joints - Knee 

EXTREMITIES - DISCOLORATION - Nates - redness 

EXTREMITIES - DRYNESS - Hands 

EXTREMITIES - ERUPTIONS - Hand - red 

EXTREMITIES - FELON 

EXTREMITIES - HEAVINESS 

EXTREMITIES - ITCHING - Hand - Back of 

EXTREMITIES - NUMBNESS - Upper limbs - night 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Joints - rheumatic 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Upper limbs - morning 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Shoulder 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Shoulder - right 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Elbow 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Wrist 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Wrist - dislocation, as from 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Wrist - motion - on 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Fingers - Second 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Fingers - Second - Joints - Metacarpus 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Thumb 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Thumb - right 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Lower limbs - sciatica 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Nates 

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EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Hip - right 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Hip - motion - amel. 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Hip - sitting - while 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Hip - weather - wet 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Knee - motion 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Knee - rising - seat; from a 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Foot - walking - while 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Foot - Heel 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Toes - stepping, on 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Toes - First 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - Toes - First - left 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - burning - Thumb 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - burning - Hip 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - pressing - Toes - First 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - stitching - Shoulder - right 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - stitching - Knee 

EXTREMITIES - PAIN - stitching - Knee - motion, on - amel. 

EXTREMITIES - RESTLESSNESS - Lower limbs 

EXTREMITIES - TOTTERING gait 

EXTREMITIES - TREMBLING - anger, after 

EXTREMITIES - TREMBLING - Hand - holding objects - on holding objects 

EXTREMITIES - WEAKNESS - Knee 

CHILL - CHILL in general 

CHILL - EVENING 

CHILL - NIGHT 

CHILL - INTERNAL 

CHILL - PERSPIRATION - with perspiration; chill 

FEVER - SHIVERING, with 

PERSPIRATION - NIGHT 

PERSPIRATION - EXERTION - during slight 

SKIN - DRY 

SKIN – ITCHING 

Rubrics of General symptoms 

GENERALS - COLD - internal coldness with external heat 

GENERALS - FOOD and DRINKS - alcoholic drinks - desire 

GENERALS - FOOD and DRINKS - chicken - desire 

GENERALS - FOOD and DRINKS - chocolate - agg. 

GENERALS - FOOD and DRINKS - chocolate - desire 

GENERALS - FOOD and DRINKS - cucumbers - agg. 

GENERALS - FOOD and DRINKS - dry food - desire 

GENERALS - FOOD and DRINKS - milk - desire 

GENERALS - FOOD and DRINKS - vegetables - aversion - raw 

GENERALS - HEAT - sensation of 

GENERALS - HEAVINESS 

GENERALS - HEAVINESS - Externally 

GENERALS - HEAVINESS - Internally 

GENERALS - LIGHT - agg. 

GENERALS - MOTION - agg. 

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GENERALS - MOTION - desire for 

GENERALS - PAIN - crushed, as if 

GENERALS - SLUGGISHNESS of the body 

GENERALS - TREMBLING - Internally 

GENERALS - WEAKNESS 

GENERALS - WEARINESS 

GENERALS - WEARINESS - morning 

GENERALS - WEARINESS - evening 

GENERALS - WEARINESS - eating - after 

GENERALS - WEARINESS - talking, after 

Sleep & Dreams 

SLEEP - DISTURBED - moon, at full 

SLEEP - LIGHT 

SLEEP - POSITION - impossible; lying 

SLEEP - SHORT 

SLEEP - WAKING - night - midnight - after 

SLEEP - WAKING - night - midnight - after - morning, toward 

SLEEP - WAKING - fright, as from 

SLEEP - WAKING - vertigo, from 

DREAMS - CHURCHES 

DREAMS - FALLING - abyss, into an 

DREAMS - FLOATING 

DREAMS - PROPHETIC 

DREAMS - WATER 

DREAMS – WITCHES 

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4d. Summary of the proving by Anne Schadde 

• Consolidation and disintegration: 

Symptoms of consolidation appear, like metal plate in the head, petrification, swelling 

of indurated lymph nodes and the matching dream about a lump in the breast. One 

prover dreamed that the substance was granite. 

There is also deep sadness leading to feelings of disintegration which showed itself in 

physical symptoms as joint is as if disintegrated, sensation of disintegration of the 

back and in delusions of transparency. 

• Lightness & heaviness: 

A sensation of heaviness appears repeatedly as in now I will petrify completely, the 

Colossus of Rhodes. It comes in constant fatigue, exhaustion, weakness. On the other 

hand the discrepancy between internal lightness and external heaviness and tiredness 

becomes apparent. It could be said that there is something tender, subtle versus 

rigidity, sluggishness, as well as slowness and lack of concentration, versus being 

rushed and nervous. 

• Womanliness, motherhood, pregnancy: 

Two provers express the sensation as if they were pregnant. The great mother, being 

pregnant, breast feeding, mother milk play a role in dreams as well, so does the above 

mentioned dream of the lump in the breast. 

• Religion: 

42 Anne Schadde “ Listening to Stone, Wood and Shell” p. 55-58 

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We find religious symbolism in dreams about altars, paintings of saints, trip to Buddha 

and also about witches and heathen rituals for the great mother. 

• Order: 

Three different provers mentioned order and as a contrast clumsiness as an important 

theme. In the big picture it is of importance that the remedy brought up the things that 

were out of order: malfunctions of the car appeared, weaknesses in the organism 

surface. 

• Water and dryness: 

The water is mentioned as part of the synchronicity: the matching dreams about 

Noah’s Ark and animal Polonaise, as a contrast: dryness of the skin, lips, mouth, dry 

cough, coryza with running discharge, but also congestion of the nose. 

• Heat and cold: 

Sensation of heat combined with abundant perspiration in the face, cheeks, forehead, 

ears and the entire body, as well as dryness of the skin increased; also but less 

sensitivity to cold and sensations of coldness. 

• Disease pictures: 

Numbness, stiffness and trembling of the hands, arms as well as staggering gait, 

sagging in the knees when trying to walk, also the dream about shuffling gait 43 . 

Pain in limbs and rheumatic complaints. 

Four provers noticed heart disorders, including the sensation of cardiac arrest. 

Three different provers noticed various symptoms of vertigo and sounds in the ears. 

This included whistling high frequency sounds twice. 

Bleeding from the anus and bloody stool, nose bleeding complaints regarding the head 

as if vessels were rupturing. 

4e. The comments by provers and supervisors (before the substance was revealed): 

Prover 1 

I experience a strong discrepancy between inside and outside, between physical and 

mental/emotional. 

Aversion to talk, but also enjoyment in meeting and exchanging with others. 

I respond more sensitively to critics; I feel treated unfairly. But I also experience a lack of 

sensitivity and emotion, I am indifferent and observing. 

There was a non-specific longing and later the feeling of change and sometime euphoria. 

Physically I became more and more immobile: hip, knee, thumb (not being able to tackle 

something) with weight gain. 

I thought now I will petrify completely, I became more and more apathetic. I felt like the 

Colossus of Rhodes. 

There was a feeling that something was going to change, as if it was about to happen; certain 

clairvoyance, prophetic dreams, more sensitive in regards to myself and others. 

Prover 3 

Desire to retreat, I cleaned out the practice, cleaned the house. I spent one sleepless night 

because of the fire in the oven was not supposed to be out, that was very important to me. 

Followed by a dream: 

43 Ataxic gait -- Awkward, uncoordinated walking (http://teachmefinance.com/Scientific_Terms/ataxic_gait.html) 

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Dream about the mountain of Ararat (where Noah’s ark landed). I am riding in a train, sharing 

a compartment with my family, there is an announcement: the weather forecast calls for 

strong winds on the way to Westland (?), please dress warm. 

I think to myself that such wind does not penetrate the walls of a train. I feel a breeze going 

through me in the dark. I can not see my children and my husband in the dark I apparently 

brought the wrong wardrobe for the trip. In the morning through the trees of a big forest I can 

see a mighty gigantic white mountain. It is the Ararat, how magnificent; I had no idea that this 

is where this trip brings us. It is way more beautiful than I had even imagined. The mountain 

is covered with pure snow. I cried out of happiness. 

Association: wind – flood- feeling the ark. 

She reported sudden moments of deep sadness “not even crying helps this state”, it is as if 

everything disintegrated. 

She cut her hair during the active phase of the remedy “as if cutting the umbilical cord”. Her 

periods of sadness improved after that. Physically she felt clearly better after cutting her hair. 

“I desire clarity and being grounded”. 

Supervisor of prover 3: 

“Everything prepares for something new. She has to create order”. 

Prover 4 

The radiator of our car explodes on Sunday after receiving the remedy. It turns out later that 

this was due to a defect in the construction of the radiator. The car is 12 years old and drove 

just fine, in spite of the defect. 

One week later, on another Sunday, I ran into a roadside ditch: the car was totalled. Nobody 

was injured. 

On another Sunday a waiter poured water over my shirt. 

Prover 8 

The remedy brings me closer to my true being, reliable and friendly on the other side, 

physically and mentally rigid on the other. 

It confronted me with my own rigid side. Listless and sluggish, rigid, no interest in 

cooperation. 

The remedy also inspires something very deep, genuine, tender and subtle inside of me, the 

dimensions of which I can only imagine, because defence, blockage and not-wanting to see 

dominate me. 

Prover 9 

I had a lot of technical problems in my house: can’t install the software, the phone does not 

work; I am cut off from the world. 

One night the toilet was running, I was not able to turn off the water. I had to ask a friend for 

help the same night, because I could not handle the rushing sound of the water. 

Prover 13 

I was clumsy, dropped the globules all over the desk; poured water of files. I was trembling 

like an old woman. Many incidents involving water: it rained during the entire vacation. The 

bad on top of the car got wet and all homeopathy books got soaked. 

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4f. The immersion proving of Lapis Lazuli by Peter Tumminello 

The substance used: High quality stone in its natural unpolished state. 

Method: Immersion. The gem is immersed in distilled water and left it exposed to sun and 

moon for 24 hours before drawing off the water and mixing it with 50:50 with 90% alcohol, 

which is the mother tincture. The potencies were made out of this tincture. 

Potencies used 30K, C30, 200K & 10MM, as well as meditation. 

Provings: 

• Experiment A: group proving. 13 June 1997. Single blind. Meditation/Hahnemannian. 

• Experiment B: Group proving, 22 June 1997. Single blind. Meditation/Hahnemannian. 

• Experiment C: Independent provers. 2 provers, 3 separate experiments. 

Total of provers: 11 (5 women and 6 men) 

Negative Seed Essence 

Fruitless digging and the search for meaning 

• Being stuck in the small picture and wanting to get to the bigger one. Finding the 

meaning of life, meaningful things to do, instead of being stuck with “Mundane, daily 

things, price of food I had bought, things to clean at home, things to organise. This 

was frustrating to me, as I wanted to move on to bigger more meaningful things” This 

situation causes anger; anger at being constrained, being disconnected and having to 

lead a mundane existence, frustrated at life’s trivialities. 

• Anxious about things that have nothing to do with the cause (of the disease), she 

focuses on all her little aches and pains, these become major issues, she is unable to let 

go and she cannot transcend them. 

No mirrors, no mirrors 

• She is not willing to look at herself; it would be unbearable because she would see the 

truth, the reality that she does not really have a life, just a token gesture for vibrancy, 

joy and living. 

Negative keywords 

Alone; Barren; Blinded by action; Cold Mother; Digging holes; Disconnected; Driven; Empty 

and desolate; Field in the; Fixed Focus; Fruitless digging; Fruitless searching; Grey sky; 

Locked in her own individuality; Lost; Mothered; Mundane; No mirrors; Nurtured not; 

Searching for meaning; Self-critical; Superficial and Trivial; Uncared for; Unprotected. 

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The underlying cause: Embrace of the Mother, care and nurturing of the child. 

The fundamental problem is in the relationship between mother and child. It is an outstanding 

medicine for those who have not received the love they needed from their mother or for a 

mother who does not know how to give that love. 

It is common in the personal history that love has not been expressed: affection, kisses, hugs, 

loving support or that zealous protection that a natural mother affords her child in the threat of 

danger. 

Indicated in situations where carers were absent of unaware of the child’s needs. They will 

say that their mother was cold and distant, of that they were robbed of nurture. 

The lack of mothering, caring and nurturing generates an inability to see and to embrace the 

whole. The positive dimension of this perspective is that of a caring mother who looks after 

all the needs of her children and family, like Jung states in his book “The Four archetypes”, 

see page 56-57, the giver of all in abundance, like mother earth. 

Positive seed essence 

• The resolution of this state is realizing that there is a bigger picture, that she can let go 

of the small things and detail to concentrate on seeing things from a higher perspective 

and not just focus on the problem at hand. There is a program that had to be removed; 

the program that the little things were the issues. She realises that she has chosen the 

painful, hard path, and that she always soldiered through. On letting this program go, 

she can see her way through, let go of remorse and punishment, and be understanding 

and compassionate to herself. 

• Ultimately it is a move to embrace herself, to mother herself, to nurture herself and 

love herself. With this come love, nurturing, abundance and the ability to give birth to 

her real self. 

The field and the sky.. Earth to the heavens 

• The central issue in Lapis Lazuli often appears around the idea of the field. This word 

was used prominently in the proving and in cured cases. On one hand a person who is 

searching, digging in a defined place in the field. The field here means a place where 

you find a natural resource. This place is limited, a place of finite possibilities. Here 

she is only finding bareness. The other side of this is the sky, a place with a full aerial 

view, unlimited with unlimited possibilities. It envelopes everything. Lapis allows a 

sense of expansiveness and freedom, in terms of perspective, understanding, beauty 

and love. 

Positive keywords 

Being; not searching; Big picture, sees; Blue sky; Communication intimate and meaningful; 

Compassionate with herself; Embraced, feels; Embraces, self; Embrace, the whole; Higher 

perspective; Loves, self; Mothering, self; Nurtures, self; Protected; Skyward, moving; Soft on 

self; Understanding. 

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4g. Key mental themes 

The amusement park 

• It is as if he lives in an amusement park. He, his family & friends are all engaging in 

rides of pleasure and thrill. The world of materialism and the senses. Life is nothing 

but the seeking of material excitements, a superficial existence. When he realises this 

is empty and there is nothing there spurs his search for real connection, 

communication, love and nurturing. He needs to see the big picture, to let go of the old 

programs and travel beyond the superficial amusements of life to find a sense of 

meaning. 

Communication, freedom of expression and connectedness 

• Implicit to the search for meaning in Lapis is connection to others. It can be with 

partner, family or friends. Lapis may feel that the communication with others is 

ineffective, mundane or focused on the trivial or superficial. His relationships have 

descended into offensive nuances, the persistent chatter of superficialities, swearing or 

persistent arguments. There is a great desire to communicate on an intimate level, to 

exchange, understand, feel and experience that joy of togetherness. 

• Lapis enables people to communicate and express their feelings and activates the 

throat charka. It may help autism and shy introverted individuals. It is excellent for 

personal articulation and the expression of buried emotions. 

Grieving over death of the mother 

• For people, especially women who are still mourning over the death of someone in the 

family long after the natural time. Mediterranean women who dress in black forever 

after such a death. These women have been totally focused on the trivial aspects of 

home and being a housewife. Having identified so deeply with their role of nurturer 

they are unable to receive nurture themselves. Their lives have become dead, empty 

and purposeless. In the loss of a loved one their whole world is lost and they 

themselves become as if dead and empty. 

• The very process of being a mother seems to naturally invoke an eternity of loving, 

caring and protection that has the power to transcend death. 

4h. Psyche 

Animals & colours 

• Many animals appear in meditations and dreams. The most prominent being the 

African Savannah animals. The characteristics of this are a profusion of wildlife. 

• Colours: go hand in hand with the profusion of life. Deep aqua, jade, deep blue, deep 

purple; red, yellow, gold and black. Primary colours being red, yellow and blue. 

Intellect 

• It stimulates mental clarity and the ancients recommended it in dementia. 

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Mundane things and the mother 

• There is much investment in the mundane things of life; they often become the whole 

focus, preventing perception of a bigger picture and the meaningful things in life. 

There can also be a frustration with these mundane things. 

Character and dress 

• Women in black and are in permanent mourning. 

• Men who are coarse, ignorant and mouth off offensively. 

• Refugees who are coming home. 

4i. Spiritual themes 

Embracing the whole Earth 

• On the spiritual plane Lapis stimulates a movement from the small picture of our small 

human existence to the big picture of connectedness with everyone and everything, a 

sense of unity and universal loving. 

• Lapis calls for nurturing and healing for all persons, beings and things on earth. It is a 

true movement to the bigger picture in which everyone is included in the loving acts 

and a healing poultice of motherly love is wrapped around the Earth. 

Hanuman, the monkey god 

• The monkey god of India appeared in the proving. He was a great warrior and inertly 

he was profoundly devoted to loving nature. Although a monkey and a warrior he is 

renowned for this gentlemanly manners, his etiquette, his great sensitivity and 

kindness even to foes. Sensitivity to the pain of others and at all times his motive was 

deep devotion to Rama, the Divine King of ancient India. The quality of this kindness, 

sensitivity and undying love link him to the love of the mother. 

• Hanuman was the incarnation of strength, vitality and virility. In a cure case it was 

commented “my issue is about protection and strength, I had given my parents role to 

protect me”. 

Throat charka 

• Throat charka focuses on communication and has action on the voice and thyroid 

gland. Additionally cleaning the emotions through this charka is clearly indicated. 

4j. Physical particulars 

Head: tension across the left side of forehead - occiput. SE of pressure in the head. 

Headache > cold applications. 

Face: Cracking tempero-mandibular joints for two days. Sudden formication; skin crawling 

on the left cheek. 

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Ears: Ear trouble and deafness. 

Eyes: Pulsation of the eyes when closed. 

Nose: Epistaxis from blowing the nose with substantial amount of blood for 5 days. 

Mouth: Right-sided stones in salivary duct reduced 50 percent on taking the medicine. 

Gumboils and gum pains. 

Teeth: Strong toothache in lower right back molar. SE went from a toothache to a feeling that 

is injected with anaesthetic, a full, heavy feeling; indicating use for the bad effects of tooth 

anaesthetics. Toothache. 

Throat: Constantly clearing the throat. Sometimes the voice cuts out completely. Voice 

irregular, can’t reach deeper tones. Strong sense of constriction in throat. Strong feeling it is 

acting on thyroid. Clear sensation of thyroid. Inflammations of oesophagus, larynx, upper 

bronchial passages and tonsillitis. Cancer of larynx. Disease of throat in general. 

Gastro-intestinal: Very sharp pain in the region of appendix (which had been removed years 

before). The pain woke him up and it took almost 1 hour. Nothing would reduce the pain. 

Biliousness. 

Male: Sharp persistent pain in left groin, adjacent with left testicle, as if being stabbed there. 

Conscious of nothing else until the pain subsides. 

Female: Menstruation that finished a few days before began all over again, lasting 6 days. 

Unsure if it is menses or just bloody discharge. Strong throbbing in uterus with sensation it is 

growing and filling the abdomen. Feels pressure as if a lump in uterus like a big head. As if I 

was trying to give birth. Protects from miscarriage but must be removed at the time of birth 

lest it keep up the child. Menopausal flushing. 

Respiratory: Aware of his breath is noisy. Disease of lungs. 

Chest: Cramping in the breast, specially the right, similar to “let down of breast milk”, 

experienced when the mother hears the baby cry. 

Back: SE of a great weight on the back of the neck, as though something was pushing down 

hard and heavy. Dream: of falling hard on her back. 

Extremities: SE of great heaviness in the limbs. Arthritis, gout and rheumatism. 

Upper limbs: SE as if had been carrying a heavy weight like a bundle of steel pipes on his left 

shoulder for a very long time. SE that this has pushed the musculature on the left shoulder 

down and it is very painful. Pain extends down to the left side of the spine to lower lumbar 

region. Woke at 4 am burning pain left elbow, and inflammation of the skin. Blister 

resembling a burn appears on elbow one hour later. Blister is slightly irregular in shape, round 

+ -1 cm of diameter, 4 mm high, filled with fluid and the skin was very inflamed around the 

edges. It burst twice through the day and both times refilled with fluid. 

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Weakness of right arm. SE that my left hand is facing downwards when it is facing upwards. 

Pain in the tip of the third and fourth fingers of the right hand. Pain in the tip of the first finger 

of right hand. 

Sleep: Sound and refreshing. Insomnia. 

Fever: Used for quartan 45 fever by the ancients. 

Skin: Irritatingly sensitive to clothing. It was rubbed on plague boils of the middle ages. Boils, 

carbuncles and abscesses. Combined with white coral cures dermatitis. 

4k. Generals 

• Tingling through the body for a minute leaving a sensation of warmth that lasts for 

some time. 

• Surges of energy, buzzing and vibrating through the body. Floating sensation. Sudden 

trembling, a shudder through the whole body. Sensation of being hollow. 

• Sides of body: left side feeling longer than the right side. It felt out of balance, almost 

as if left side was larger it would tip me over and smother the right side. Feeling of 

different sensation on my right than left side. 

• Left side: Intuited to be a left-sided remedy. Sensation that left hand was facing 

downwards when in reality it was facing upwards. Pain left side of forehead; pain in 

shoulder and lower back; painful eruption on elbow; pain in groin. 

• Right side: Right-sided salivary glands; lower back molar, pain in region of appendix, 

pain in breast, weak arm; pain in fingers tips. 

• Lymphatic system: Pituitary and thymus gland are invigorated, as are sections of the 

vertebrae connected to the parasympathetic ganglia. Treats diseases of the spleen, 

lymph and thymus, as well as Hodgkin’s disease. A potent cleanser. 

• Conditions: Apoplexy; blood disorders; diabetes; epilepsy; fainting; jaundice; 

neuralgia and spasmodic disorders, osteitis, TBC; urinary troubles. 

• Food: desires exactly like that of Natrium Muriatricum. 

45 Fever caused by malaria parasites with a periodicity of 72 hours (http://www.icp.ucl.ac.be/~opperd/parasites/terms.htm) 

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Chapter 5 

The comparison of the provings Schadde –Timmerman; Tumminello –Timmerman. 

5a. Schadde – Timmerman: Prominent differences & similarities. 

Schadde Timmerman 

MIND SYMPTOMS & THEMES MIND SYMPTOMS & THEMES 

Animal themes, instinct & territories absent. Lions, wolves, acute senses & territories. 

Changing moods, euphoria # depression. Changing moods melancholy # happiness. 

Less prominent (1 prover). 

Unyielding (hard & unyielding with 

children). Does not express it as bullying or 

teasing. 

Anger, irritation # humour, laughing. 

Bullying, teasing, quarrelsome towards 

children, husband, and mother. 

Not present. Inner dark side – goals in life. 

Not really present. Only depression with Death, cemeteries, ghosts, elderly & terminal 

feeling of disintegration = end of life. patients. 

Commitment, lack of. Feeling of not getting 

involved. 

Detachment, indifference, soberness. 

Not really present. Only prover 8 

Different dimensions, wider view that goes 

experienced something similar that remains above everyday understanding. Views about 

unconscious. Speaks of dimensions that he 

can only imagine. 

cruelty, boundaries. 

Absent. Ego – Selfishness – deeper understanding of 

dynamics of the Ego. 

Absent. Egypt, mummies, walking into the other 

world. 

Relating to the rest of the world. Both 

isolation & happiness. 

Excitement, joy, feeling happy. 

Fears of water & Rain. Sensation of no Fears of threat with danger, of what future 

defence. 

brings trituration. Fear associated with 

good-byes and death. 

Absent. Freedom, wanting to break bonds and ties. 

Concentration better or lack of concentration. Concentration better or lack of concentration. 

Awareness & clear thoughts. 

Sluggishness general with heaviness of Hard & Heavy, too much to bear. Falling 

limbs, motionless, apathetic. 

asleep. Weakness. 

Cold (ice) a lot less prominent. ICE COLD (Mental & Physical). 

Associations with snow, ice, winters & 

concentration camps. 

Retreat, inward, desire to be by oneself. Introspection. 

Rage/Anger. Irritation. Violent & explosive anger. Very 

prominent. 

Absent. Past, war, Nazis & Jews. 

During preparation of the remedy (trituration Peaceful, confident, sacred feeling, warmth. 

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up to C3). Not after that. 

Grief/Sorrow/Weeping. Feeling abandoned. Grief, sorrow, forsaken feeling (with 

palpitation & stitching pains in heart) 

Being rushed. Feeling pressure, anxiety about time, rushed 

feeling. Time passes slowly, letting go of 

time. 

Greed – gluttony. Sudden feeling of hunger. 

Delusion being pregnant. Absent. Swelling of breasts and abdomen not 

associated with pregnancy. 

Smell illusions absent. Delusions smelling sharp, cold things. 

Order and structure. Organizes a lot and Order and structure. Cleaning, washing, 

cleans up. 

clearing up. 

Prophecy, premonition. Presentiment of death. Prover 11 did mention 

Hurricane Katrina, C5 trituration. 

Water, floods, fear of rain. Basically absent, Sea is mentioned but no 

fears about it. 


PHYSICALS (differences) PHYSICALS (differences) 

Vertigo – more vertigo symptoms & 

modalities. 

Light headed & vertigo. 

Head – Eruptions & falling off hair. Absent. 

Eyes – No eruptions, nor burning pain. Eruptions & burning pains in eyes. 

Vision – Dim. Blurred & tired sensation. 

Ear – general pain on blowing nose. Pressing & Stitching pains. 

Nose – No imaginary odours, nor acute 

smells. 

Less Epistaxis symptoms (just one prover (3). 

Face – Cracked lips & formication. Absent. 

Mouth – Taste metallic. Eruptions, 

Taste bitter or sweetish. The rest of the 

Numbness & Salivation. 

symptoms absent. 

External throat – swelling of glands. Torticollis drawn to the left. 

Stomach – Pain cutting, drawing, stitching. Pain burning & cramping (with anger or 

fear) 

Stool – many more symptoms & modalities. Dry stool (1 prover (3). 

Rectum – Bleeding. Absent rectum symptoms or not mentioned. 

Kidneys/Bladder – burning. Kidneys/Bladder – see C40/4 symptoms. 

Female – Leucorrhoea brown. Absent leucorrhoea or not mentioned. 

Respiration – Impeded. Slow & Deep. Sighing. 

Back – more symptoms & modalities. Absent or not mentioned. 

Dreams – Churches, falling into abyss, Dreams – Animals bitten, stung by; cruelty; 

floating, prophetic, water and witches. daily events, past events long, war, quarrels 

and family. 

Food – desires chicken, cucumbers, milk. Food – desires sweets, artichokes. Aversion 

Aversion – raw vegetables 

– bitter vegetables. 

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GENERALS (differences) GENERALS (differences) 

Internal trembling. Absent or not mentioned. 

Pain as if crushed. Absent or not mentioned. 

Desire for motion. Absent or not mentioned. 

Absent. Desire colour blue. 

Absent. Symptoms lasting for a week or two. 

Less prominent. Itching all over. 

Absent. Dryness of mucus membranes. 

Yawning absent. Cold, tired & yawning. 

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5b. Conclusion from comparing Schadde – Timmerman. 

Anne Schadde did triturate the remedy up to C3 to potentize it to a C30, which was the 

potency used for the proving. As explained before, in the trituration proving the substance is 

triturated up to a C5-level (2 hours longer than a C3). These triturations are the main 

information source for the trituration proving. So basically the preparation of the remedy in 

the beginning of both provings is the same, the substance needs to be grinded or triturated in 

order to be able to potentize it further. The reason for this is that the stone in its ungrounded 

form would never dissolve in water and its healing powers would never come apparent 46 . 

In Schadde’s proving there are a lot more modalities mentioned in the physical symptoms. 

This can be due to a more thorough follow up of the provers and their symptoms. In 

Hahnemannian provers a supervisor is assigned to every prover or every two provers 47 . The 

meaning for this is not to miss any information, like modalities and observations and to make 

symptoms as complete as possible. So the loss of information is most probable in the 

trituration proving, since there was no supervisor assigned to each prover. Provers were 

basically writing down the symptoms their own and sharing them afterwards in the group 

meetings. Often, if people are not reminded of something unusual remains ignored or is just 

forgotten, this is the disadvantage of such trituration provings but it could be avoided by 

assigning supervisor/s to a small group of provers, this of course takes more time and effort to 

be put into the whole process and sometimes that is not possible due to people’s everyday 

responsibilities. 

In Schadde’s proving though there is a lack of C4 level awareness, the possible real cause 

behind the symptoms remains unfolded. There is no mention of cruelty possibly being behind 

the anger, nor lack of warmth and nurture from the mother. Prover 8 does mention the feeling 

of other dimensions that he can not reach because of the “not wanting to see” attitude. In the 

trituration proving this is expressed as superficial way to dealing with things, ignoring or 

suppressing them. 

There is also no C5 level or archetypical information in which the archetype of the mother is 

mentioned, only the physical aspect of the mother is expressed in the form of “Delusion being 

pregnant”, which peculiar enough is absent in the trituration provings, since no prover 

expressed that particular feeling or association. 

Most of symptoms are otherwise the same or similar, just expressed in other words by the 

provers and there are other symptoms that are completely absent in either one of the provings, 

this can have to do with the provers susceptibility 48 or the fact that there has been some 

information lost. It can also be due to the provers groups, Schadde used 12 provers for the 

proving, in the trituration proving there were 20 provers 49 . In this case it does not seem to have 

anything to do with the method the remedy is prepared by, as it is almost the same. The 

grinded stone is in the remedy either way. 

46 Samuel Hahnemann “Organon der Geneeskunst” 6 th edition p. 145-146 

47 ECCH Recommended Guidelines for Good Provings (www.homeopathy-ecch.org/provings.html) 

48 Samuel Hahnemann “Organon der Geneeskunst” 6 th edition p. 76, p. 79 

49 Samuel Hahnemann “Organon der Geneeskunst, 6 th edition p. 83 

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Very important is to recognize that the symptoms mentioned from the trituration of Lapis 

Lazuli for Schadde’s proving were basically the same as the ones experienced by the provers 

in The Hague. Some examples of these symptoms are 50 : 

- Sensation of awareness and clarity. 

- Sensation of meditative calm and relaxation. 

- Gazing into empty space. 

- Slow oncoming sadness, melancholy with the sensation of constriction in the chest, as 

if something was weighting on the chest. She has to take deep breaths; it feels 

burdensome, which makes her sad. 

- Cardiac irregularity. 

- Burning of the eyes. 

- Pressure on ears. 

- Stabbing in left ear. 

- Pleasantly cool sensation on the body’s surface. 

The conclusion to this would be that the substances give away the same kind of information if 

prepared the same or similar way and that the slight alteration or differences in symptoms can 

be mostly due to susceptibility of the provers and loss of information. It seems to be true 

though that as claimed by the C4-practicing homeopaths 51 , triturating the substance up to C4 

and C5 level does add extra information that mostly remains unveiled in a regular proving. It 

may be possible to gain this kind of information by other methods, like meditation. Peter 

Tumminello is known for adding meditation provings to his Hahnemannian provings. 

5c. Tumminello – Timmerman: Prominent differences & similarities. 

Tumminello Timmerman 

KEY MENTAL ASPECTS KEY MENTAL ASPECTS 

The amusement park: the world of 

Suppressing, ignoring the reality, detaching 

materialism and the senses, a superficial 

existence. 

from feelings. 

Communication with others: ineffective, Quarrelling with family members, 

mundane, and focused on the trivial. 

Persistent arguments. 

introspection because it is all in vain. 

Grieving over death of the mother. 

Grieving in general, heavy pain, also related 

Focussing on trivial things, their life is dead. to death but not only mother, but dear ones. 

Association with death & terminal patients. 

Animals: African Savannah Animals Wolves, lions, snakes, fish 

Colours: deep aqua, jade, deep blue, purple, Colours: blue, dark blue, orange, yellow, 

yellow, red, gold and black. 

gold and black. 

Intellect: stimulates mental clarity. Clear senses, awareness & mental clarity. 

Character & dress: women in black, in 

permanent mourning. Refugees coming 

home. 

Absent or not mentioned. 


50 Anne Schadde “ Listening to Stone, Wood and Shell” p. 26 

51 For instance the ones who introduced this method: Gerhard Lang and Jürgen Becker. (http://www.hahnemanninstituut.nl/introc4.html) 

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SPIRITUAL THEMES SPIRITUAL THEMES 

Embracing the Earth: from small picture to 

bigger picture. 

Hanuman: the monkey God. Represents 

selfless nurturing & protecting. 

C3 & C4 levels give information about 

letting go of ego (small things) to focus on 

the bigger picture (wider view) and freedom 

from mundane things. 

The Mother: Symbolized by Mother Mary. 

Represents selfless love & nurturing. 


PHYSICAL SYMPTOMS PHYSICAL SYMPTOMS 

Head symptoms, pressure in head Head symptoms, pressure & headache. 

Flushes of heat 

Face: pain in jaws; crawling in cheek Face: cramp in jaws. Absent 

Ear: trouble and deafness Ear: heat, noises and pain 

Eyes: Pulsation when closed Eyes: Burning pains, tired sensation, 

Lachrymation, swelling and eruptions 

Nose: Epistaxis from blowing the nose Nose: imaginary odours, epistaxis, irritation, 

dryness, discharges 

Mouth: Stones in salivary glands. Gum pains Mouth: Dryness, bitter & sweetish taste 

Teeth: Toothache, full heavy feeling, as from No symptoms, only dreams of broken teeth 

anaesthetics 

(3, 13) 

Throat: Clearing the throat, no voice or Throat: choking during the day. Constriction 

irregular. Constriction in throat 

Gastro-intestinal: sharp pain in region 

appendix (removed years before) 

Stomach/abdomen: swelling, cramping 

pains, nausea, belching, flatulence & 

rumbling 

Male: Sharp pains in groins Male: absent (just one male prover 6) 

Female: Menses subsides and comes back. 

Throbbing in uterus. SE pressure in uterus 

like a big head (birth giving). Menopausal 

flushing 

Respiratory: aware of breath, noisy Slow & deep, sighing 

Chest: cramping in chest, similar to let down 

of breast milk 

Menses: copious with swelling of mammae. 

Increased sexual desire. Flushes of heat in 

face also associated with menopause. 

Constriction, eruptions, swelling, 

oppression, palpitations & stitching pains 

(with grief & anger) 

Sore & stitching pains, heat & itching 

Back: SE weight on the back of neck, hard & 

heavy as if pushing down. 

Extremities: heaviness Coldness, cramps, heaviness, numbness & 

cramping, drawing pains 

Sleep: sound and refreshing. Insomnia Sleep: interrupted, unrefreshed, 

overpowering sleepiness 

Skin: sensitive to clothing, boils, carbuncles Skin: dry, wrinkled, shrivelled (like 

and abscesses 

mummies) 


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GENERALS GENERALS 

Tingling with sensation of warmth Warmth & perspiration of extremities 

Surges of energy, buzzing & vibrating. 

Floating sensation. Trembling 

Lack of energy. Floating sensation (1) 

Sides of body: Left Left, left to right 

Lymphatic system Swelling of glands (16) 

Food desires, exactly like Nat-m52 Food: desires chocolate, sweets 

. 

Aversion: bitter vegetables (artichokes & 

Salty things (3)Beer, bitter drinks/food, 

farinaceous, fish, milk, oysters (2) 

chicory) (3) 

Chocolate, coffee, cold drinks & food, pasta 

(1) 

5d. Conclusion from comparing Tumminello – Timmerman. 

At first sight it seems quite obvious that the differences between Tumminello’s proving (from 

Immersion) and the one in The Hague are a lot more prominent than between Schadde’s 

proving and Timmerman’s. In this case we need to take into consideration that the method of 

preparation of the remedy is different. Tumminello did not choose to grind or triturate the 

stone but made a “Bach- remedy” out of it (see beginning page 83). This might be the reason 

why most of the symptoms seem to be different. There are some similarities as you can see in 

the tables above but the differences (in Italic) are much more prominent. 

The peculiarity about the Australian proving is that besides taking the remedy, there were 

meditation sessions upon the substance, which in this case, delivered the spiritual or aetiology 

of the pathology in this remedy that we can not find in Schadde’s proving. In Tumminello’s 

proving the essence of the remedy is given as: 

“It is about someone that focuses on small, trivial, superficial things and therefore can not 

see the big picture, the purpose of his life and the abundance of natural love & nurturing 

available around him. It seems then easier to avoid the pain by not wanting to see and 

focussing on a superficial existence that ultimately will lead to melancholy and isolation, and 

not being able to find the way to the bigger picture, the light or spirituality”. According to 

Tumminello’s proving the cause of this is a lack of love and or nurturing by the own mother 

in childhood. 

Tumminello’s conclusion about the essence of the remedy comes closer to the C4-C5 

information of Timmerman’s trituration in which the archetypical figure of the Mother 

appears in the form of mother Mary, the one who brings light in time of darkness. 

Throughout the trituration proving we see indeed some sort of superficial way of 

communicating with others, blaming others, not wanting to see yourself and therefore 

suppressing emotions. In the trituration proving there seems to be an unbearable grief and 

darkness that is brought on by life’s cruelty, in which eventually the love and nurturing of the 

mother (Mary) will bring on the solution and relief. But it does not directly link this grief to 

the death of the mother and it does not literally tell that is due to a lack of love and nurturing 

although we could conclude that the pain and grief, the death and darkness are there when the 

mother is not, and they disappear when she comes back. 

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So the conclusion to this comparison would be that in this case the way in which the remedy 

is prepared does alter the outcome of the symptoms, at least partially, there are different and 

new symptoms added to the remedy’s picture. It seems to be so that this method is more 

effective in revealing spiritual information than a regular Hahnemannian proving, even 

though this could be due to the meditation techniques added to this proving and not only due 

to the susceptibility of the provers. 

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Differential Diagnoses 53 

Going back to my comments on 2e (page 24) about the issues to be expected in Lapis Lazuli 

according to its components proved out to be pretty close. In the provings we have indeed 

seen problems with relating to others; grief & introspection, need for attention and forsaken 

feeling, ego problems, religion, spirituality, difficulty with sharing things (deep emotions). 

The feelings of being used or abused and the battling and struggling seem to be a bit less 

prominent; these are more Ferrum issues which are also found in Lapis Lazuli in small 

amounts. What we do see is the fighting (quarrelsome), battling, concentration problems and 

haemorrhages from nose and anus (Schadde 4b page 72). 

On the physical level we see among other symptoms and sensations coldness and heat, 

dryness, gland affections, headaches, thirst, and haemorrhages, most of these themes were 

already expected (2e page 24). 

Therefore we could conclude that the components in a substance bring out similar or the same 

symptoms as they would by themselves. Example: substances containing alumina would bring 

out dryness, which is a prominent feature in the remedy Alumina. 

Since Lapis has a lot of symptoms in common with Alumina, Silica, Calcium Carbonicum, 

Sulphur, Natrium Muriatricum, etc I am just going to list the differences that are worth 

mentioned for being completely different or opposite, I also mention a general list of 

similarities. All the information about detailed similarities can be found in any good Materia 

Medica book. 

6a. Themes of remedy groups (Aid for making DD’s) 

Minerals Structure & organisation/break in structure & organisation. Breaking of relationships or failure in performance. 

Systematic personalities and highly organised. 

Cations: need for a relationship. 

Sodium & Potassium: forming relationships. 

Magnesium, calcium, Strontium, Barium: need for support. 

Boron, Aluminium: confusion & sensation of a cobweb in the face. 

Anions: effort to keep or maintain a relationship. 

Phosphorus, Arsenic, Antimony, Bismuth. Feeling of being unloved & alone. Fear of being alone, desire for 

company & clinging. 

Sulphur & Selenium. Aversion to company & incapacity to work. Making an enormous effort which is expected 

from them. 

Halogens: Fluorine, Chlorine, Bromine, Iodine. Feeling of being let down & betrayed. 

53 Boericke & Phatak “De complete Materia Medica” by Frans Vermeulen. 

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Non-metallic elements: Carbon & Silica: Both non-reactive. 

Acids: Struggle followed by collapse in the situation of that element. (Phosphorus, etc) 

Gems Rare, special, beautiful, magic. 

Transformation & opposite forces. 

Darkness/Death – Light/Rebirth. 

Family & relationships. 

Order & perfection. 

Instinct VS what you are expected to do. 

Passion & Obsession. 

Metals Performance & defence. 

Manganese, Iron, Cobalt, Nickel, Copper & Zinc are more concerned with defence than with performance. 

Rhodium, Palladium, Silver, Cadmium & Indium are more concerned with performance than defence. 

Osmium, Iridium, Platinum, Gold, Mercury and Thallium (heaviest metals) have strong issues about 

performance & defence. 

Plants 

Trees 

Sensitivity. Sensitive to environment. Adjusting & adapting to environment. Irregular patterns rounded & 

disorganised. Present complaints in this way too. Many modalities (related to sensitivity). Causative factor is 

strain or hurt, emotional or physical. “I am affected, I am sensitive, This hurts me, I can not bear it.. 

Anacardiaceae: Caught, stiff, tension, stuck, cramps, pressing. RHUS-T, ANAC. 

Berberidaceae: Sudden, intense, rapid, changeability (mental & physical). BERB, CAUL. 

Cactaceae: Constricted, made smaller, shrunk, contracted, bound, trapped, and pressed. Oppressed, weighted 

down. ANH. 

Compositae: Injured, hurt or insulted, shocked, burnt or scalded, fear to be touched, hurt, approached. ARN, 

CALEN, CHAM, CHINA, ABROT, BELL-P. 

Conifers: fragile, broken, brittle, connected/disconnected, empty/fullness. Cut off/fragmented. THUJ, SAB. 

Euphorbiaceae: tied and untied, bound/unbound. MANC, HURA. 

Hamamelidae: Compressed, heavy, pressing, load, limited, dragging, fixed, confined. Opposite: lightness & 

flying. CANN-S CANN-I. 

Labiatae: Excitement: vivid, pleasant, tremulous with perspiration, trembling, overwhelmed, passionate. 

AGN, ORIG. 

Leguminosae: Splitting apart, coming apart, scattered, bound together, fragmented. BAPT, LATH. 

Liliflorae: forced out, squeezed, excluded, oppressed, constrained. Left out, there is no interest in me. I am 

neglected. VERAT, SARS, ALONE, SABAD, LIL-T. 

Loganiaceae: shocked, shock so sudden that paralyses, shattered, torn to pieces, disappointment, ruined. NUX- 

V, SPIG, GELS, IGN, CUR. 

Magnolia: Confusion, bewildered, strange, feels isolated cause of this, reaction is withdrawal into a familiar 

shell. CAMPH, NUX-M. 

Malvales: attached/detached, joined and separated, together and then separated. CHOC, ABEL KOLA. 

Papaveraceae: pain, intense pain, hurt with great intensity, torture, intense suffering. Punished, murdered, 

executed, violence, fright & shock. Agony & hell. SANG, OP. 

Primulaceae: unable to move because of paralytic pressure and lame sensation. CYCL 

Ranunculaceae: vexed, excited easily, raw nerves, morbidly sensitive, electric shock, irritability, excessive 

anger with grief, guilt, shock and annoyed, distress, harassed. Insulted dreams, vexatious. Sharp, stitching 

stabbing & stinging pain. ACON, HELL, RAN-B, PULS, CIMIC, STAPH, HYDR, CLEM. 

Rubiaceae: over stimulation, which agg. Many desire, fantasies, fancies, tobacco, alcohol, sex and other 

stimulants agg. Joy agg. COFF, IP. 

Scrophulariaceae: bonds and connection are not strong, so they want to hold to very tightly and the connection 

breaks then fear, fright and delusion start. EUPH, GRAT, VERB. 

Solanaceae: violence, sudden, splitting, bursting, exposure, spasmodic, jerking, shooting, apoplexy, violent 

terror, pursued, murder, life and death, killed, snakes. Theme of black and white, light and dark. BELL, STRAM, 

HYOS, CAPS, DULC. 

Umbelliferae: sudden unexpected violence or attack, accident, blows, riots, stab, topped with numbness, 

stupefaction, dullness & sleep. OEN, AETH, SUMB, ASAF, PHEL, CON, CIC. 

Violales: physical level: cutting, stabbing, lancinating, sharp. Mental: vexation, does not want to be disturbed. 

BRY, VIOL-T, VIOL-O. 

Tradition, growth, old, wise, death, life after death. Stability, steadiness, found, center, unchangeable, reserved, 

conservative, stiff, rheumatism, rooted, strong, heavy. Function: shelter, nourishment, parenthood, shadow, 

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caring for others, strong responsibility, oppressive protectiveness, communication, danger/insecurity, judgment. 

Dominance, control, wanting to reach the sky (religious), dignity, serene. Rough/rude, frail/brittle, 

transcendence, floating sensation. Ailments from anticipation. Lack of creativity, inspiration. Isolation, 

resignation, introvert, emptiness. Connection, communication, opposite, duality, loss of identity. 

Animals Conflict, basis split within the self. Animal side & human side. Animal side is concerned with competition, need 

to attract attention, attractive in behaviour and appearance. Deceitful, malicious & aggressive. Expressions: by 

human beings, human beings are cruel, I feel split up, I jump at them. Disappointment in love and performance, 

from being looked down upon, from being attacked. 

Survival, competition, use/abuse, forced, attraction, sexuality, ego, attack/defend. 

Insects: Industrious, hyperactive, hurry, excited, anger, fear of water, death, of being attacked, injured, jealousy, 

crushed, stamped, insulted, destructive, mean, adulterous, vivacious, lewd, shrieking, sensitive to vibrations, 

pains stitching & burning, big appetite, meat eaters. Small, hopeless, alone, dirty, wants attention, loquacious, 

dancing and revenge. 

Parasites: Selfish, rude, cursing, ambitious in a cold manner: want to be the best, avarice, want to eat the most, 

photophobia, alternating states. 

Snakes: Forsaken feeling, SE constriction, fear of being choked, violent, desire to hide, manipulative, suspicious, 

antagonism with the self, loquacity, lack of morals, show and appearance, one sided-symptoms, sensitive to 

temperature, congestion, swollen sensation, sense of persecution, strong fear & dreams of snakes, demand 

attention, clairvoyance, guilt feelings, I am bad, religious affections, marked PMS, < Sleeping. 

Sea animals: heavy/light, tired/energetic, tied up/freedom, suffocation/open space, conflicts with: protection, 

financial dependence, domination (male/female), criticize, rape, cheat, external marital affairs, pressure. 

Detached/disconnected, I am not myself, Hard, cold, reduced sexual desire. Different world, Calm, fun loving, 

elation/excitement. Fear of snakes & reptiles. Milk < 

Birds: flying and freedom, overview, light and flight, feathers and touch, singing, voice, family group orientated, 

speed and metabolism, light, dark, spirituality. Trapped, need for freedom, bound. Negativity, sexuality. 

Vulnerable, indifferent, caring, ravenous appetite. 

Mammals: Belonging to group, herd and paying the price for that, connection with family (father, mother, 

siblings). Safety within the group. Fight for the supremacy within the group. Conflict with self over control of 

sexuality. Dirty feeling, self critical. History of abuse. Fear of snakes. Problems with breasts before menses, 

problems with breast-feeding. Caring for young ones. 

Nosodes Desperation, this desperation is expressed in every sphere of the life of a person. Always a desperate way to look 

at things. Activity. 

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6b. Minerals/Metals – remarkable differences & common traits. 

Alumina – Lapis Lazuli: 

- Alumina has dryness of mucus membranes & skin plus a tendency to faulty motoric 

paralysis with coordination problems. In Lapis Lazuli we see motion problems that 

have to do with rheumatic or arthritic processes. (Unable to stretch out legs & pain- 

Prover 16/C3). No coordination problems. 

- Confusion of identity is absent in Lapis Lazuli: Lapis wonders more about the goals 

and purpose of life (Provers 10, 12, 13 C3). 

- Alumina – no heat or violent sensations and symptoms, has only lack of heat. 

- Eyes – Alumina dryness, Lapis lachrymation (Prover 2 C1) 

- Menses – scanty, in Lapis profuse (Prover 7 C4). 

Alumina: dryness, lack of concentration, confusion, being hurried, gastrointestinal problems. 

Silica – Lapis Lazuli: 

- Silica has a prominent lack of confidence and is very sensitive and yielding. In Lapis 

we see more of an indifference to others, communication problems and not yielding, 

rigid attitudes and quarrelling (3, 7, 17 C1). 

- Menses too early and scanty. Lapis profuse with swelling of breasts (Prover 7 C4). 

- Slow, chronic processes, no violent symptoms. 

Silica: Neurasthenic symptoms and increased irritability of the nervous system & strengthen 

reflexes. Abscesses (see also Tumminello’s proving of Lapis under Skin & Generals page 87) 

& lymphatic symptoms (throat, tonsils). 

Calcium Carbonicum – Lapis Lazuli: 

- Calcium does not want to be seen by others, Lapis does not want to see himself. 

- Again, slow processes in Calcium, especially lymphatic, rather violent symptoms in 

Lapis (Prover 1, 7, 11, 17, C1/C3). 

- Profuse perspiration of Calcium, Lapis a lot more dryness (of skin, mucus membranes, 

stool). 

- Calcium can not bear cruelty and it affects him a lot. Lapis experiences more of 

soberness and indifference (1, 3, 9, 10, 11, 12, 17 C1-C4) 

Calcium Carbonicum: Gland affections, skin and bones. Issues with food & eating. Ice 

coldness, to the bones. 

Sulphur – Lapis Lazuli: 

- Sulphur seems to be untidy; Lapis wants order & cleanness around him. 

- Sulphur is < Bathing, Lapis wants to wash off (Prover 1/C1 16/C1). 

- < Warmth, Lapis > warmth of sun. 

Sulphur: heat, congestion, burning & redness. Lack of reality. Do not listen to anybody, want 

to be the centre of attention. Desires sweets. 

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Natrium Muriatricum – Lapis Lazuli: 

- This remedy is the most similar to Lapis. It is hard to find any remarkable differences. 

- Periodicity of Nat-m is not (yet) seen in Lapis. 

- Nat-m is worse 9-11 am. Lapis seems to be worse at night (cold, sleeplessness & pain 

– Schadde) 

Natrium Muriatricum: Depression, forsaken feeling, withdrawal & suppressed grief, easily 

hurt, headaches, dryness. Bitterness about what has been done to him. 

Muriatricums – Lapis Lazuli: 

- Feeling of pity & unfairness 

- Self pity from a need to be nurtured and cared for. 

- Problems with the mother, mother figure. 

- Want of attention & lost hope of getting it. 

- Themes of water & the sea (Schadde). 

Arsenic – Lapis Lazuli: 

- Fear of death of Arsenic is not present in Lapis. Death seems like a rather appealing 

option (Aurum) (4, 3, 6, 7, 17 C1-C3). 

- Arsenic’s drinks often but small sips. Lapis drinks a couple of glasses of water after 

each other (1, 17/C1) 

- Arsenic > company. Lapis aversion to company. 

Arsenic: Restlessness, anxiety, fear, obsession for tidiness & weariness, lack of heat. Burning 

pains. Quarrelsome, materialistic and cruel. Terminal patients. 

Aurum – Lapis Lazuli: 

- Aurum, also suicidal from pains, Lapis more sadness. 

- Aurum, workaholic, industrious but with ambition and strong sense of responsibility. 

Lapis does not seem to have that kind of ambition, does not need to be at the top. 

Lapis indifference to work, can not concentrate there (1, 16) 

- Aurum > Cold bathing. 

- Putrid taste in mouth, Lapis, bitter (3), sweetish (5) & metallic (Schadde) 

Aurum: Depressed, melancholic mood (everything black inside, life has no value). Suicidal. 

Mental exertion. Reserved & alone; no friends, just a few superficial contacts. Heaviness. 

Congestion in various organs. 

Mercury – Lapis Lazuli: 

- Mercury is sensitive to temperatures, to cold. Lapis ice coldness to the bones. 

- Mercury skin, almost constantly moist, (persistent dryness of skin contraindicates 

Mercury), Lapis dry skin, shrivelled, like a mummy (17). 

- Mercury, profuse salivation during sleep. Lapis dryness of mucus membranes & also 

mouth (11, 20). 

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Mercury: Memory weakened and loss of will power. Weary of life. Time passes slowly. 

Extremely closed. Quarrelsome complaining of relations and surroundings. Indifference to 

everything. Cruelty, mischief. Dreams of water & floods, trembling in limbs (Schadde). 

Ferrum – Lapis Lazuli: 

- A lot more similarities than differences. Anger in Lapis seems to be more prominent & 

violent. 

- Ferrum does not seem to be suicidal, loathing of life or any of these symptoms. Lapis 

does (1, 3, 4, 6, 7, 8, 15, 17). 

Ferrum: Irritability. Desire solitude. Alternation of moods. Circulation problems. Headaches. 

Argentum Nitricum – Lapis Lazuli: 

- Arg-n: can not hide his feelings. Lapis can not hide his anger, though he tries. 

- Arg-n: desires sweets & < sweets. Lapis does not < from sweets. 

- Arg-n: one of the hottest remedies. Lapis ice cold. 

- Arg-n: desires company to express feelings, Lapis avoids company, does not want to 

share feelings, only when it seems too much (7). 

- Arg-n: loud eructations. Lapis, not in the proving. 

Argentum Nitricum: Anticipation, hurry, anxiety when time is set. Brain fag, weakness of 

memory. Distension, flatulence in abdomen. 

Causticum – Lapis Lazuli: 

- Caust has a lot more sympathy and issues with the group. Lapis has more tendency to 

isolation. 

- Caust paralysis due to damage in nervous system & then muscles. Lapis’s pathology 

seems to focus more on rheumatic like complaints (Schadde/16) 

- Caust > wet weather, > sips of cold water. Aversion to sweets. Lapis does not seem to 

have these modalities, has a strong desire for sweets. (7, 8) 

Causticum: Anxious forebodings, can not stand injustice & sensitive to authority. Chronic 

grief. Fanatism & rigidity. Quarrelsome & excitable. 

Phosphor Acid – Lapis Lazuli: 

- Ph-ac: mild & yielding disposition. Lapis seems to be more of a rigid or quarrelsome 

type (page 38/39). 

- Ph-ac: craves fruit & juicy refreshing things mainly. 

- Ph-ac: strong debility from loss of fluids. Lapis does not. 

Ph-ac: ailments from prolonged grief, disappointed love, homesickness. Apathetic, burn-out 

state. Weakness & indolence. Indifference. Poor memory, can not collect his ideas, hunts for 

words. 

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6c. Plants/Trees 

Ranunculaceae: vexed, excited easily, raw nerves, morbidly sensitive, electric shock, irritability, excessive anger with grief, 

guilt, shock and annoyed, distress, harassed. Insulted dreams, vexatious. Sharp, stitching stabbing & stinging pain. ACON, 

HELL, RAN-B, PULS, CIMIC, STAPH, HYDR, CLEM. In Lapis Lazuli we also see the nervousness, excessive anger and 

grief & some stitching pains. The difference would be though that Lapis does have other minerals traits & themes of the 

mineral and gem kingdom. 

Aconite – Lapis Lazuli: 

- Aconite: fear of death, Lapis indifference to death (4, 6) 

- Aconite: Loquacity, Lapis more prominent taciturnity (1, 16) 

- Aconite: acute states, Lapis more chronic (contains minerals) 

- Aconite: no suppression possible, too violent & fast. Panicky. Acute. 

Aconite: fear, restlessness, & presentiment of death. Violent symptoms. Panic states. 

Rheumatism, numbness & tingling in extremities. Restless, nervous. Clairvoyance. 

Palpitation with anxiety or fear of death. 

Violales: physical level: cutting, stabbing, lancinating, sharp. Mental: vexation, does not want to be disturbed. BRY, VIOL- 

T, VIOL-O. 

Bryonia – Lapis Lazuli: 

- Bryonia: desire to go home, Lapis feeling needs to say good-bye to home, family (16). 

- Bryonia: fear of poverty. Lapis Delusion starving (Schadde). 

- Bryonia: not hindered by emotions, business orientated. Lapis is hindered by 

emotions. 

- Bryonia: < motion, Lapis moves about in anger (1) 

Bryonia: dryness of mucus membranes. Irritability, indisposition to talk, desire to be alone. 

Materialistic. Thirst for large quantities. 

Trees: Tradition, growth, old, wise, death, life after death. Stability, steadiness, found, center, unchangeable, reserved, 

conservative, stiff, rheumatism, rooted, strong, heavy. Function: shelter, nourishment, parenthood, shadow, caring for others, 

strong responsibility, oppressive protectiveness, communication, danger/insecurity, judgment. Dominance, control, wanting 

to reach the sky (religious), dignity, serene. Rough/rude, frail/brittle, transcendence, floating sensation. Ailments from 

anticipation. Lack of creativity, inspiration. Isolation, resignation, introvert, emptiness. Connection, communication, 

opposite, duality, loss of identity. Again we see some common themes here but also big differences between the mineral/gem 

world and the plant/trees world. The common theme here would be death, life after death, rheumatism & communication 

troubles. 

Lycopodium – Lapis Lazuli: 

- Lycopodium: fear of responsibility, aversion to marriage, etc. Lapis is family 

orientated (Tumminello, Schadde). 

- Anticipation, fear of speaking in public. Lapis does not fear this (17) 

Lycopodium: bloated abdomen, flatulence, desires sweets. Egotism. Ravenous hunger stops 

after a mouth full. Skin dry & wrinkled. Unrefreshed sleep. Ego problems. 

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APPENDIX A 

Lapis Lazuli POEM 54 

I have heard that hysterical women say 

they are sick of the palette and fiddle-bow. 

Of poets that are always gay, 

For everybody knows or else should know 

That if nothing drastic is done 

Aeroplane and Zeppelin will come out. 

Pitch like King Billy bomb-balls in 

until the town laid beaten flat. 

All perform their tragic play, 

There struts Hamlet, there is Lear, 

That's Ophelia, that Cordelia; 

Yet they, should the last scene be there, 

The great stage curtain about to drop, 

If worthy their prominent part in the play, 

Do not break up their lines to weep. 

They know that Hamlet and Lear are gay; 

Gaiety transfiguring all that dread. 

All men have aimed at, found and lost; 

Black out; Heaven blazing into the head: 

Tragedy wrought to its uttermost. 

Though Hamlet rambles and Lear rages, 

And all the drop-scenes drop at once 

Upon a hundred thousand stages, 

It cannot grow by an inch or an ounce. 

On their own feet they came, or On shipboard,' 

Camel-back; horse-back, ass-back, mule-back, 

Old civilisations put to the sword. 

Then they and their wisdom went to rack: 

No handiwork of Callimachus, 

Who handled marble as if it were bronze, 

Made draperies that seemed to rise 

When sea-wind swept the corner, stands; 

His long lamp-chimney shaped like the stem 

Of a slender palm, stood but a day; 

All things fall and are built again, 

And those that build them again are gay. 

Two Chinamen, behind them a third, 

Are carved in lapis lazuli, 

Over them flies a long-legged bird, 

A symbol of longevity; 

The third, doubtless a serving-man, 

Carries a musical instrument. 

Every discoloration of the stone, 

Every accidental crack or dent, 

Seems a water-course or an avalanche, 

Or lofty slope where it still snows 

Though doubtless plum or cherry-branch 

Sweetens the little half-way house 

Those Chinamen climb towards, and I 

Delight to imagine them seated there; 

There, on the mountain and the sky, 

On all the tragic scene they stare. 

One asks for mournful melodies; 

Accomplished fingers begin to play. 

Their eyes mid many wrinkles, their eyes, 

Their ancient, glittering eyes, are gay. 

54 William Butler Yeats (1865-1939) 

Irish poet, dramatist and prose writer, one of the greatest English-language poets of the 20th century. Yeats received the Nobel Prize for 

Literature in 1923. 

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APPENDIX B 

Sir Arthur Quiller-Couch (1863–1944). The Sleeping Beauty and other Fairy Tales 55 

“The Sleeping Beauty” 

ONCE upon a time there lived a King and a Queen, who lacked but one thing on earth to make them entirely happy. The King was 1 

young, handsome, and wealthy; the Queen had a nature as good and gentle as her face was beautiful; and they adored one another, 

having married for love—which among kings and queens is not always the rule. Moreover, they reigned over a kingdom at peace, and 

their people were devoted to them. What more, then, could they possibly want? 

Well, they wanted one thing very badly, and the lack of it grieved them more than words can tell. They had no child. Vows, 

2 

pilgrimages, all ways were tried; yet for a long while nothing came of it all, and the poor Queen especially was in despair. 

At last, however, to her own and her husband’s inexpressible joy, she give birth to a daughter. As soon as the palace guns announced 3 

this event, the whole nation went wild with delight. Flags waved everywhere, bells were set pealing until the steeples rocked, crowds 

tossed up their hats and cheered, while the soldiers presented arms, and even strangers meeting in the street fell upon each other’s neck, 

exclaiming: “Our Queen has a daughter! Yes, yes—Our Queen has a daughter! Long live the little Princess!” 

A name had now to be found for the royal babe; and the King and Queen, after talking over some scores of names, at length decided 4 

to call her Aurora, which means The Dawn. The Dawn itself (thought they) was never more beautiful than this darling of theirs. The 

next business, of course, was to hold a christening. They agreed that it must be a magnificent one; and as a first step they invited all the 

Fairies they could find in the land to be godmothers to the Princess Aurora; that each one of them might bring her a gift, as was the 

custom with Fairies in those days, and so she might have all the perfections imaginable. After making long inquiries—for I should tell 

you that all this happened not so many hundred years ago, when Fairies were already growing somewhat scarce—they found seven. 

But this again pleased them, because seven is a lucky number. 

After the ceremonies of the christening, while the trumpeters sounded their fanfares and the guns boomed out again from the great 5 

tower, all the company returned to the Royal Palace to find a great feast arrayed. Seats of honour had been set for the seven fairy 

godmothers, and before each was laid a dish of honour, with a dish-cover of solid gold, and beside the dish a spoon, a knife, and a fork, 

all of pure gold and all set with diamonds and rubies. But just as they were seating themselves at the table, to the dismay of every one 

there appeared in the door-way an old crone, dressed in black and leaning on a crutched stick. Her chin and her hooked nose almost 

met together, like a pair of nut-crackers, for she had very few teeth remaining; but between them she growled to the guests in a terrible 

voice: 

“I am the Fairy Uglyane! Pray where are your King’s manners, that I have not been invited?” 6 

She had in fact been overlooked; and this was not surprising, because she lived at the far end of the country, in a lonely tower set 7 

around by the forest. For fifty years she had never come out of this tower and every one believed her to be dead or enchanted. That, 

you must know, is the commonest way the Fairies have of ending: they lock themselves up in a tower or within a hollow oak, and are 

never seen again. 

The King, though she chose to accuse his manners, was in fact the politest of men. He hurried to express his regrets, led her to table 8 

with his own hand, and ordered a dish to be set for her; but with the best will in the world he could not give her a dish-cover such as the 

others had, because seven only had been made for the seven invited Fairies. The old crone received his excuses very ungraciously, 

while accepting a seat. It was plain that she had taken deep offence. One of the younger Fairies, Hippolyta by name, who sat by, 

overheard her mumbling threats between her teeth; and fearing she might bestow some unlucky gift upon the little Princess, went as 

soon as she rose from table and hid herself close by the cradle, behind the tapestry, that she might have the last word and undo, so far 

as she could, what evil the Fairy Uglyane might have in her mind. 

She had scarcely concealed herself before the other Fairies began to advance, one by one, to bestow their gifts on the Princess. The 9 

youngest promised her that she should be the most beautiful creature in the world; the next, that she should have the wit of an angel; 

the third, a marvellous grace in all her ways; the fourth, that she should dance to perfection; the fifth, that she should sing like a 

nightingale; the sixth, that she should play exquisitely on all instruments of music. 

Now came the turn of the old Fairy Uglyane. Her head nodded with spite and old age together, as she bent over the cradle and shook 10 

her crutched staff above the head of the pretty babe, who slept on sweetly, too young and too innocent as yet to dream of any such 

thing as mischief in this world. 

“This is my gift to you, Princess Aurora,” announced the hag, still in her creaking voice that shook as spitefully as her body. “I 11 

promise that one day you shall pierce your hand with a spindle, and on that day you shall surely die!” 

At these terrible words the poor Queen fell back fainting into her husband’s arms. A trembling seized the whole Court; the ladies 12 

were in tears, and the younger lords and knights were calling out to seize and burn the wicked witch, when the young Fairy stepped 

forth from behind the tapestry, and passing by Uglyane, who stood scornful in the midst of this outcry, she thus addressed their 

Majesties:— 

“Take comfort, O King and Queen: your daughter shall not die thus. It is true, I have not the power wholly to undo what this elder 13 

sister of mine has done. The Princess must indeed pierce her hand with a spindle; but, instead of dying, she shall only fall into a deep 

slumber that shall last for many, many years, at the end of which a King’s son shall come and awake her. Whenever this misfortune 

happens to your little Aurora, do not doubt that I, the Fairy Hippolyta, her godmother, shall get news of it and come at once to render 

what help I may.” 

The King, while declaring himself infinitely obliged to the good Fairy Hippolyta, could not help feeling that hers was but cold 14 

comfort at the best. He gave orders to close the christening festivities at once, although the Fairy Uglyane, their spoil-joy, had already 

taken her departure; passing unharmed through the crowd of folk, every one of whom wished her ill, and riding away—it was generally 

agreed—upon a broomstick. 

To satisfy the King’s faithful subjects, however,—who were unaware of any misadventure—the palace fireworks were duly let off, 15 

with a grand set-piece wishing Long Life to the Princess Aurora! in all the colours of the rainbow. But His Majesty, after bowing from 

the balcony amid the banging of rockets and hissing of Catherine wheels, retired to a private room with his Chamberlain, and there, 

still amid the noise of explosions and cheering, drew up the first harsh proclamation of his reign. It forbade every one, on pain of death, 

to use a spindle in spinning or even to have a spindle in his house. Heralds took copies of this proclamation and marched through the 

land reading it, to the sound of trumpets from every market-place: and it gravely puzzled and distressed all who listened, for their 

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women folk prided themselves on their linen. Its fineness was a byword throughout the neighbouring kingdoms, and they knew 

themselves to be famous for it. “But what sort of linen,” said they, “would His Majesty have us spin without spindles?” 

They had a great affection, however (as we have seen), for their monarch; and for fifteen or sixteen years all the spinning-wheels 16 

were silent throughout the land. The little Princess Aurora grew up without ever having seen one. But one day—the King and Queen 

being absent at one of their country houses—she gave her governess the slip, and running at will through the palace and upstairs from 

one chamber to another, she came at length to a turret with a winding staircase, from the top of which a strange whirring sound 

attracted her and seemed to invite her to climb. As she mounted after the sound, on a sudden it ceased; but still she followed the stairs 

and came, at the very top, to an open door through which she looked in upon a small garret where sat an honest old woman alone, 

winding her distaff. The good soul had never, in sixteen years, heard of the King’s prohibition against spindles; and this is just the sort 

of thing that happens in palaces. 

“What are you doing, goody?” asked the Princess. 17 

“I am spinning, pretty one,” answered the old woman, who did not know who she was. 18 

“Spinning? What is that?” 19 

“I wonder sometimes,” said the old woman, “what the world is coming to, in these days!” And that, of course, was natural enough, 20 

and might occur to anybody after living so long as she had lived in a garret on the top of a tower. “Spinning,” she said wisely, “is 

spinning, or was; and, gentle or simple, no one is fit to keep house until she has learnt to spin.” 

“But how pretty it is!” said the Princess. “How do you do it? Give it to me and let me see if I can do so well.” 21 

She had no sooner grasped the spindle—she was over-eager perhaps, or just a little bit clumsy, or maybe the fairy decree had so 22 

ordained it—than it pierced her hand and she dropped down in a swoon. 

The old trot in a flurry ran to the head of the stairs and called for help. There was no bell rope, and, her voice being weak with age 23 

and her turret in the remotest corner of the palace, it was long before any one heard her in the servants’ hall. The servants, too—in the 

absence of the King and Queen—were playing cards, and could not be interrupted by anybody until their game was finished. Then they 

sat down and discussed whose business it was to attend on a call from that particular turret; and this again proved to be a nice point, 

since nobody could remember having been summoned thither, and all were against setting up a precedent (as they called it). In the end 

they decided to send up the lowest of the junior page-boys. But he had a weakness which he somehow forgot to mention—that of 

fainting at the sight of blood. So when he reached the garret and fainted, the old woman had to begin screaming over again. 

This time they sent up a scullery maid; who, being good-natured and unused to the ways of the palace, made the best haste she could 24 

to the garret, whence presently she returned with the terrible news. The servants, who had gone back to their game, now dropped their 

cards and came running. All the household, in fact, came pouring up the turret stairs; the palace physicians themselves crowding in 

such numbers that the poor Princess Aurora would have been hard put to it for fresh air could fresh air have restored her. They dashed 

water on her face, unlaced her, slapped her hands, tickled the soles of her feet, burned feathers under her nose, rubbed her temples with 

Hungary-water. They held consultations over her, by twos and threes, and again in Grand Committee. But nothing would bring her to. 

Meanwhile, a messenger had ridden off posthaste with the tidings, and while the doctors were still consulting and shaking their heads 25 

the King himself came galloping home to the palace. In the midst of his grief he bethought him of what the Fairies had foretold; and 

being persuaded that, since they had said it, this was fated to happen, he blamed no one but gave orders to carry the Princess to the 

finest apartment in the palace, and there lay her on a bed embroidered with gold and silver. 

At sight of her, she was so lovely, you might well have supposed that some bright being of the skies had floated down to earth and 26 

there dropped asleep after her long journey. For her swoon had not taken away the warm tints of her complexion: her cheeks were like 

carnations, her lips like coral: and though her eyes were closed and the long lashes would not lift, her soft breathing told that she was 

not dead. The King commanded them all to leave her and let her sleep in peace until the hour of her awakening should arrive. 

Now when the accident befell our Princess the good Fairy Hippolyta, who had saved her life, happened to be in the Kingdom of 27 

Mataquin, twelve thousand leagues away; but news of it was brought to her in an incredibly short space of time by a little dwarf who 

owned a pair of seven-league boots. (These were boots in which you could walk seven leagues at a single stride.) She set off at once to 

the help of her beloved goddaughter, and behold in an hour this good Fairy arrived at the palace, in a fiery chariot drawn by dragons. 

Our King met her and handed her down from the chariot. She approved of all that he had done; but, greatly foreseeing as she was, she 28 

bethought her that, as all mortals perish within a hundred years or so, when the time came for the Princess to awake she would be 

distressed at finding herself orphaned and alone in this old castle. 

So this is what she did. She touched with her wand everything and everybody in the palace: the King, the Queen; the ministers and 29 

privy councillors; the archbishop (who was the Grand Almoner), the bishops and the minor clergy; the maids-of-honour, ladies of the 

bedchamber, governesses, gentlemen-in-waiting, equerries, heralds, physicians, officers, masters of the household, cooks, scullions, 

lackeys, guards, Switzers, pages, footmen. She touched the Princess’s tutors and the Court professors in the midst of their deep studies. 

She touched likewise all the horses in the stables, with the grooms; the huge mastiffs in the yard; even Tiny, the Princess’s little pet 

dog, and Fluff, her black-and-white cat, that lay coiled on a cushion by her bedside. 

The instant the Fairy Hippolyta touched them they all fell asleep, not to awake until the same moment as their mistress, that all might 30 

be ready to wait on her when she needed them. The very spits at the fire went to sleep, loaded as they were with partridges and 

pheasants; and the fire went to sleep too. All this was done in a moment: the Fairies were never long about their business in those days. 

But it so happened that one of the King’s councillors, the Minister of Marine (his office dated from a previous reign when the 31 

kingdom had hoped to conquer and acquire a seaboard) had overslept himself that morning and came late to the palace without any 

knowledge of what had befallen. He felt no great fear that his unpunctuality would be remarked, the King (as he supposed) being 

absent in the country; nevertheless he took the precaution of letting himself in by a small postern door and so missed being observed by 

the Fairy and touched by her wand. Entering his office, and perceiving that his under-secretary (usually so brisk) and all his clerks 

rested their heads on their desks in attitudes of sleep, he drew the conclusion that something had happened, for he was an excellent 

judge of natural slumber. The farther he penetrated into the palace, the stronger his suspicions became. He withdrew on tiptoe. Though 

by nature and habit a lazy man, he was capable of sudden decision, and returning to his home he caused notices to be posted up, 

forbidding any one to approach the castle, the inmates of which were suffering from an Eastern but temporary affliction known as the 

Sleeping Sickness. 

These notices were unnecessary, for within a few hours there grew up, all around the park, such a number of trees of all sizes, and 32 

such a tangle of briars and undergrowth, that neither beast nor man could find a passage. They grew until nothing but the tops of the 

castle towers could be seen, and these only from a good way off. There was no mistake about it: the Fairy had done her work well, and 

the Princess might sleep with no fear of visits from the inquisitive. 

One day, many, many years afterwards, the incomparable young Prince Florimond happened to ride a-hunting on that side of the 33 

country which lay next to the tangled forest, and asked: “What were those towers he saw pushing up above the midst of a great thick 

wood?” 

They all answered him as they heard tell. Some said it was an old castle haunted by ghosts. 34 

Others, that all the wizards and witches of the country met there to keep Sabbath. 35 

The most general opinion was that an Ogre dwelt there, and that he carried off thither all the children he could catch, to eat them at 36 

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his ease. No one could follow him, for he alone knew how to find a passage through the briars and brambles. The Prince could not tell 

which to believe of all these informants, for all gave their versions with equal confidence, as commonly happens with those who talk 

on matters of which they can know nothing for certain. He was turning from one to another in perplexity, when a peasant spoke up and 

said:— 

“Your Highness, long ago I heard my father tell that there was in yonder castle a Princess, the most beautiful that ever man saw; that 

she must lie asleep there for many, many years; and that one day she will be awakened by a King’s son, for whom she was destined.” 

At these words Prince Florimond felt himself a-fire. He believed, without weighing it, that he could accomplish this fine adventure; 

and spurred on by love and ambition, he resolved to explore then and there and discover the truth for himself. 

Leaping down from his horse he started to run towards the wood, and had almost reached the edge of it before the attendant courtiers 

guessed his design. They called to him to come back, but he ran on, and was about to fling himself boldly into the undergrowth, when 

as by magic all the great trees, the shrubs, the creepers, the ivies, briars and brambles, unlaced themselves of their own accord and 

drew aside to let him pass. He found himself within a long glade or avenue, at the end of which glimmered the walls of an old castle; 

and towards this he strode. It surprised him somewhat that none of his attendants were following him; the reason being that as soon as 

he had passed through it, the undergrowth drew close as ever again. He heard their voices, fainter and fainter behind him, beyond the 

barrier, calling, beseeching him, to desist. But he held on his way without one backward look. He was a Prince, and young, and 

therefore valiant. 

He came to the castle, and pushing aside the ivies that hung like a curtain over the gateway, entered a wide outer court and stood still 40 

for a moment, holding his breath, while his eyes travelled over a scene that might well have frozen them with terror. The court was 

silent, dreadfully silent; yet it was by no means empty. On all hands lay straight, stiff bodies of men and beasts, seemingly all dead. 

Nevertheless, as he continued to gaze, his courage returned; for the pimpled noses and ruddy faces of the Switzers told him that they 

were no worse than asleep; and their cups, which yet held a few heeltaps of wine, proved that they had fallen asleep over a drinkingbout. 

He stepped by them and passed across a second great court paved with marble; he mounted a broad flight of marble steps leading to 41 

the main doorway; he entered a guardroom, just within the doorway, where the guards stood in rank with shouldered muskets, every 

man of them asleep and snoring his best. He made his way through a number of rooms filled with ladies and gentlemen, some standing, 

others sitting, but all asleep. He drew aside a heavy purple curtain, and once more held his breath; for he was looking into the great 

Hall of State where, at a long table, sat and slumbered the King with his Council. The Lord Chancellor slept in the act of dipping pen 

into inkpot; the Archbishop in the act of taking snuff; and between the spectacles on the Archbishop’s nose and the spectacles on the 

Lord Chancellor’s a spider had spun a beautiful web. 

Prince Florimond tiptoed very carefully past these august sleepers and, leaving the hall by another door, came to the foot of the grand 42 

staircase. Up this, too, he went; wandered along a corridor to his right, and, stopping by hazard at one of the many doors, opened it and 

looked into a bath-room lined with mirrors and having in its midst, sunk in the floor, a huge round basin of whitest porcelain wherein a 

spring of water bubbled deliciously. Three steps led down to the bath, and at the head of them stood a couch, with towels, and courtsuit 

laid ready, exquisitely embroidered and complete to the daintiest of lace ruffles and the most delicate of body linen. 

Then the Prince bethought him that he had ridden far before ever coming to the wood; and the mirrors told him that he was also 43 

somewhat travel-stained from his passage through it. So, having by this time learnt to accept any new wonder without question, he 

undressed himself and took a bath, which he thoroughly enjoyed. Nor was he altogether astonished, when he tried on the clothes, to 

find that they fitted him perfectly. Even the rosetted shoes of satin might have been made to his measure. 

Having arrayed himself thus hardily, he resumed his quest along the corridor. The very next door he tried opened on a chamber all 44 

panelled with white and gold; and there, on a bed the curtains of which were drawn wide, he beheld the loveliest vision he had ever 

seen: a Princess, seemingly about seventeen or eighteen years old, and of a beauty so brilliant that he could not have believed this 

world held the like. 

But she lay still, so still … Prince Florimond drew near, trembling and wondering, and sank on his knees beside her. Still she lay, 45 

scarcely seeming to breathe, and he bent and touched with his lips the little hand that rested, light as a roseleaf, on the coverlet. … 

With that, as the long spell of her enchantment came to an end, the Princess awaked; and looking at him with eyes more tender than a 46 

first sight of him might seem to excuse:— 

“Is it you, my Prince?” she said. “You have been a long while coming!” 47 

The Prince, charmed by these words, and still more by the manner in which they were spoken, knew not how to find words for the 48 

bliss in his heart. He assured her that he loved her better than his own self. Their speech after this was not very coherent; they gazed at 

one another for longer stretches than they talked; but if eloquence lacked, there was plenty of love. He, to be sure, showed the more 

embarrassment; and no need to wonder at this—she had had time to think over what to say to him; for I hold it hot unlikely (though the 

story does not say anything of this) that the good Fairy Hippolyta had taken care to amuse her, during her long sleep, with some 

pleasurable dreams. In short, the Princess Aurora and the Prince Florimond conversed for four hours, and still without saying the half 

they had to say. 

Meanwhile all the palace had awaked with the Princess. In the Council Chamber the King opened his eyes and requested the Lord 49 

Chancellor to read that last sentence of his over again a little more distinctly. The Lord Chancellor, dipping his quill into the dry 

inkpot, asked the Archbishop in a whisper how many t’s there were in “regrettable.” The Archbishop, taking a pinch of snuff that had 

long ago turned to dust, answered with a terrific sneeze, which again was drowned by the striking of all the clocks in the palace, as they 

started frantically to make up for lost time. Dogs barked, doors banged; the Princess’s parrot screamed in his cage and was answered 

by the peacocks squawking from the terrace; amid which hubbub the Minister for Agriculture, forgetting his manners, made a trumpet 

of his hands and bawled across the table, begging His Majesty to adjourn for dinner. In short, every one’s first thought was of his own 

business; and, as they were not all in love, they were ready to die with hunger. 

Even the Queen, who had dropped asleep while discussing with her maids-of-honour the shade of mourning which most properly 50 

expressed regret for royal personages in a trance, lost her patience at length, and sent one of her attendants with word that she, for her 

part, was keen-set for something to eat, and that in her young days it had been customary for young ladies released from enchantment 

to accept the congratulations of their parents without loss of time. The Prince Florimond, by this message recalled to his devoirs, 

helped the Princess to rise. She was completely dressed, and very magnificently too. 

Taking his beloved Princess Aurora by the hand, he led her to her parents, who embraced her passionately and—their first transports 51 

over—turned to welcome him as a son, being charmed (quite apart from their gratitude) by the modest gallantry of his address. They 

passed into a great dining-room lined with mirrors, where they supped and were served by the royal attendants. Violins and hautboys 

discoursed music that was ancient indeed, but excellent, and the meal was scarcely concluded before the company enjoyed a very 

pleasant surprise. 

Prince Florimond, having no eyes but for his love, might be excused if he forgot that his attendants must, long before now, have 52 

carried home their report, and that his parents would be in deep distress, wondering what had become of him. But the King, the 

Princess’s father, had a truly royal habit of remembering details, especially when it concerned setting folks at their ease. Before dinner 

he had dispatched a messenger to carry word to Prince Florimond’s father, that his son was safe, and to acquaint him briefly with what 

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had befallen. The messenger, riding through the undergrowth—which now obligingly parted before him as it had, a while ago, to admit 

the Prince—and arriving at the out-skirts of the wood, found there a search-party vainly endeavouring to break through the barrier, 

with the Prince’s aged father standing by and exhorting them in person, to whom he delivered his message. Trembling with relief—for 

he truly supposed his son to be lost beyond recall—the old man entreated the messenger to turn back and escort him. So he arrived, and 

was ushered into the hall. 

The situation, to be sure, was delicate. But when these two kings, both so well meaning, had met and exchanged courtesies, and the 53 

one had raised the other by the hand to a place on the dais beside him, already and without speech they had almost accorded. 

“I am an old man,” said the Prince’s father; “I have reigned long enough for my satisfaction, and now care for little in life but to see 54 

my son happy.” 

“I think I can promise you that,” said the Princess’s father, smiling, with a glance at the two lovers. 55 

“I am old enough, at any rate, to have done with ambitions,” said the one. 56 

“And I,” said the other, “have dreamed long enough, at any rate, to despise them. What matters ruling to either of us two, while we 57 

see your son and my daughter reigning together?” 

So it was agreed, then and there; and after supper, without loss of time, the Archbishop married the Prince Florimond and the 

Princess Aurora in the chapel of the Castle. The two Kings and the Princess’s mother saw them to their chamber, and the first maid-ofhonour 

drew the curtain. They slept little—the Princesshad no occasion; but the Prince next morning led his bride back to the city, 

where they were acclaimed by the populace and lived happy ever after, reigning in prosperity and honour. 

Ye Maids, to await some while a lover fond, 

Rich, titled, debonair as Florimond, 

Is reason; and who learns on fate to attend 

Goes seldom unrewarded in the end— 

“What! No one kiss us for a hundred years!” 

There, la-la-la! I understood, my dears. 

Further, the story would suggest a doubt 

That marriage may be happiest when deferr’d— 

“Deferr’d?” you cry—“Deferr’d,” I see you pout, 

—We’ll skip this moral, and attempt a third. 

Thirdly, our fable then appears to prove 

Disparity of years no bar to love. 

Crabb’d Age and Youth—But that’s an ancient quarrel, 

And I’ll not interfere. There’s no third moral. 

MORAL 

ANOTHER 

ANOTHER 

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APPENDIX C 

INDIVIDUELE TRITURATIE SYMPTOMEN C1 

Prover 1 

C1: 

Mooie blauwe kleur, tijdens beginnen gevoel dat er glas in zit 

Heel snel al tintelingen oren, gloeien 

Pijn rechterarm, doof gevoel 

Ga steeds sneller wrijven 

Nu al deze symptomen, oh jee, wat heftig! 

Druk op mijn hoofd, heftig, help!! 

Mijn God, hou ik dit vol? 

Gevoel van bedreiging, alsof poeder me kan aanvallen 

Stekende pijn rechteroor 

Angst, heen en weer lopen, voel me een dier wat opgesloten zit 

Hoofdpijn, voorhoofd, pijn neuswortel 

Pijn rechter knie 

Misselijk, boeren 

Pijn kaken 

Opgejaagd gevoel van binnen 

Drukkend gevoel in hartstreek 

Ga steeds sneller schrapen, agressief gevoel (ik zit boven, Dennis kan het beneden horen) 

Snelle gedachten, gaan kriskras 

Jeuk kin 

Druk achter mijn oren 

Steken in oren 

Zie spoken (?) in zwarte gewaden 

Gevoel van een “donkere” energie 

Wil het poeder vermorzelen, krijg gevoel van onmacht 

Jeuk in gezicht 

Gevoel alsof ik in een horrorfilm zit: sodemieter op! 

Tijdens schrapen zie ik een begraafplaats, gevoel dat ik een graf aan het graven ben 

Rug warm 

Jeuk hoofd 

Na afloop ga ik uitgebreid mijn handen wassen, wil het van me af wassen, ga douchen, wil het van me afspoelen! 

Prover 2 

Misselijk 

Zwaar gevoel op de maag 

Oprispingen 

Prikkelende neus als van vrieskou 

Verdrietig 

Rommelende buik 

Voel me alleen en verdrietig, alleen op de wereld 

Wil eigenlijk stoppen 

In de steek gelaten 

Misselijke gevoel neemt de overhand 

Heet gevoel in keel 

Re oog traant een beetje 

Vijzel ziet er uit als schaatsbaan, poeder van alle schaatsen die erover heen zijn gegaan het draaien klinkt als van schaatsen op ijs. 

Denk aan vroeger op de ijsbaan 

Koud, winterkoud, lekker 

Li-oog traant ook, re niet meer 

Koud - moet aan voorfilm denken van de "Sneeuwkoningin" . Woont in een kasteel van ijs. 

Voel me rustig 

Koude neus 

Mijn jas ligt in de buurt, die doe ik aan - lekker 

Koude handen en gezicht. Behaaglijk, ik voel me loom 

Laatste 5 minuten ben ik in slaap gevallen. 

Prover 3 

Situatie voor de trituratie. Ik ben heel moe, de afgelopen weken heel druk met werk en school. Ik had niet door dat we les hadden, per 

ongeluk ontdekt. 

Ik krijg een bergje blauw spul in mijn vijzel. Het ziet er heel mooi uit. Heel mooi. 

Gelijk gevoel van opwinding, prachtig spul! Zin om te beginnen nieuwsgierigheid naar de uitkomst van de trituratie. 

1e deel lactose 

Opwinding gevoelt in de maag 

Gelijk gevolgd door gevoel van volle blaas en dat ik mijn broek ga plassen van opwinding 

Ik zie een jongentje van 4-6 jaar die iets doet wat niet mag van moeder en lacht erom hahaha! Ik heb het je geflikt en je hebt het niet eens 

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door! 

Kinderen in een soort park die spelen met een bal 

Gooien de bal in de lucht (helder blauwe lucht) 

Jeuk linker oor (inside) 

Jeuk rechter schouder 

Jeuk rechter pols 

Jeuk in de neus 

Jeuk in het rechter oor 

Onrust van de jeuk 

Jeuk rechter been onder knie 

Haar moet weg van gezicht 

Irritatie door haar en jeuk 

Jeuk rug/onrust gaat door 

Jeuk rechter wang 

Jeuk hoofd links 

Jeuk achter in het verhemelte 

Jeuk, jeuk, jeuk wat irritant!! Alles draait om de jeuk! 

Bittere smaak in de mond na slok water < 

Het smaak naar gal 

Slok water voor 2 e keer < weer 

Denk aan artisjokken/witlof, eerst denk ik lekker! Daarna afschuwelijk! Getver! 

Bittere smaak in de mond gaat door, ik voel het vooral op de tong 

Jeuk achterkant van het hoofd, onder schedelbasis 

Ik kan niet genieten van de trituratie door de jeuk 

Jeuk linker schouder 

Jeuk in de rug 

Tijdens trituratie ook de volgende dingen die ik over het hoofd heb gezien: 

Heel kort brandende ogen 

Van uitgezakt op mijn stoel zitten met de vijzel op mijn schoot naar rechtop zitten met vijzel op tafel 

Gevoel van een soort spinnenweb of iets op mijn gezicht toen ik mijn haar irritant vond. 

‘Savonds 8-12-04 

Ik kom thuis met enorme honger gevoel, na 1 boterham vol 

Ik kan niet direct in slaap vallen, raar meestal doe ik dat wel 

Honger snachts 

Koud- vooral de benen 

Droom: 

Ik heb een soort condylomata op mijn knieën, paarsig en gezwollen, ik zie vaten die erin lopen. Daarna vallen ze op de grond en laten ze 

gaten (zweren) achter. Op de grond gaan ze groeien en een enorme bij komt en gaat erin om te eten. 

Mijn zus en vader staan op straat, ik kom ze tegen. Mijn zus vertelt me dat mijn moeder kanker heeft en dat ze ergens in November dood zal 

gaan. Zij weet precies de datum. Mijn moeder staat op eens achter mijn zus en kijkt alsof ze van niets weet. Ik heb het gevoel dat ze van niets 

weet. Ik vind dat heel erg. 

‘sochtends 9-12-04 

Ik ga de deur uit en laat ik de verwarming aan staan. Doe ik nooit. Ik doe altijd alles uit. Van mijn vader overgenomen die gewoonte. Het kan 

me niet schelen dat de verwarming aan blijft. 

Irritatie omdat het heel druk is op straat. (meestal ook wel maar nu was ik heel snel geïrriteerd) 

‘snachts 9-12-04 

Wakker van de pijn (ongesteld geworden) dit heb ik altijd. Opvallend is dat bij het leggen van mijn linker hand op de buik, mijn inwendige 

organen heel gedetailleerd kan voelen, alsof ik met mijn hand door de huid heen kan. Ik voelde mijn uterus heel goed. 

‘sochtends 10-12-04 

Ik weet dat ik gedroomd heb maar ik weet niet wat. 

Ik voel me koud. Gedoucht met heel warm water, heet. Het brandt mijn huid maar ik vind het lekker. Dit is voor mij heel raar. Nooit eerder 

gehad. Ik ben meestal heel warm. 

Ik kijk in de spiegel en ik zie er ontzettend rond en gezwollen uit, mijn buik, heupen en benen. Ik vind dat lelijk, vreselijk. Het ziet er uit 

alsof de verhouding met de rest van het lichaam niet klopt. Ook nog nooit eerder gehad. 

Nog steeds koud. Verwarming aan (20 C) meestal staat ie op (15 C) en ik vind het warm zat. 

Ik heb een T-shirt aan, fluwelen vest aan en een fleece trui erop. Alles blauw. Ook mijn ondergoed is vandaag blauw. 

11-12-04 

Brandende pijn in maag na appel, anders nooit 

Raak veel sneller verzadigd 

12-12-04 

16:59 uur raak veel sneller verzadigd met eten 

13-12-04 

Zit er tegen op om naar buiten te gaan wegens de kou. 

S’avonds 20 uur eten, weer heel snel verzadigd 

S’nachts heel kou, kan niet in slaap vallen wegens kou. Moet extra deken halen, dubbel gevouwen, vooral mijn bovenbenen en knieen zijn 

koud. Ook mijn voeten, ijskoud. Dit is zeer ongewoon voor mij. Ik slaap meestal met een deken en de verwarming bijna uit. Nu 2 dekens een 

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dubbel gevouwen en de verwarming hoger. 

14-12-04 

Pukkeltjes met jeuk op borst en voorhoofd. Heel erg klein, bijna niet te zien. In de nacht van 13 tot 14 december de jeuk op voorhoofd al 

gevoeld. 

2 keer gedroomd dat mijn tanden eraf vielen. Gezonde tanden zonder gaatjes maar wel dun. Alsof ik schelpen in mijn mond had. In de 

tweede droom was er iets over het uiterlijk. Ik had geen tanden en dacht “ nu zie ik er niet uit” wat erg!! 

16-12-04 

Wakker geworden met keelpijn, stekend links, voelt dik van binnen. 

Warm drinken is verschrikkelijk, het steekt enorm. Eten gaat wel. 

Woede onderdrukken als ik me niet gezien of gehoord voel. Zin om te schreeuwen voor aandacht en om dingen tegen de muur te smijten. 

Verdriet gevoeld in mijn borst, zo voel ik het altijd. 

17-12-04 

Vieze gal smaak in de mond weer 

Kriebelhoest, had ik al sinds september of zo. Tijdje niet gevoeld, nu terug. 

18-19-20 december 2004 

Een aantal keer kriebelhoest, vooral links. Dit had ik al, sinds september of zo. 

21-12-04 

Brandende ogen tijdens het lezen. 

4 januari 2005 2 

e deel lactose: 

Steeds bezig met de tijd, wat gaat het langzaam 

Misschien is het nu niet de tijd om dit te doen 

Pijn in rechter pols, moeheid van tritureren 

Mis de groep 

Niet leuk in mijn eentje 

Gevoel van zenuwen in maag, gerelateerd aan de tijd 

Haast om het af te maken 

Volle blaas 

Haast 

Snel verwrijven 

Steeds aan mijn haar zitten 

Tijd gaat langzaam 

Ik wou dat de groep er was, ik zou me dan beter voelen en de trituratie meer betekenis hebben 

Bitter smaak in de mond 

Jeuk op sternum 

Super sterke bittere smaak in mijn mond. Geconcentreerd op de tong. 

Gevoel van moeheid in de ogen 

3 e deel lactose: 

Droge neus binnenkant 

Droge keel 

Kramp in pols, snel verwrijven omdat ik het snel wil afmaken 

Tijd gaat langzaam 

Jeuk in hoofd, linker kant boven 

Irritatie omdat de verschijnselen zich herhalen 

Haar is irritant 

Moeheid in ogen 

Drukkende pijn in voorhoofd druk < 

Brandende linker oog 

Jeuk boven rechter knie 

Jeuk voorhoofd rechts 

Tijd gaat langzaam, ik ben het zitten zat. Ik ga even wandelen met vijzel. Een beetje rondkijken, naar buiten kijken, praatje maken met mijn 

vriend (zit in de huiskamer). 

Raar gevoel in de cardia, alsof er iets vasts in zit. Daarbij voel ik een soort misselijkheid 

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Prover 5 

1 e trituratie in 

kliniek 

uitgevoerd. 

- Vredig, rustig gevoel. Tot me zelf beginnen te komen. 

-Linker slaap drukkende hoofdpijn, heb nooit hoofdpijn 

-wegtrekken hoofdpijn/druk onder achter laten van koude plek, als of 

het nat geweest is en de wind er nu langs gaat, met gevoel zoals je 

dat bij vrieskoude hoog in de ijle lucht in de bergen hebt. 

Na trit. -gevoel of ik stevigheid krijg in gebied tussen uiteinde borstbeen t/m 

bekken: BASIS hebben. 

Maakt mij stabiel en niet meer zo bang voor alles, wat ik de laatste 

tijd erg had. 

Mezelf terug gekregen. Al anderhalve week dit gevoel. 

Kijk uit naar tritt. 2 en 3 van C1. 

-vergeten van dingen die ik normaal als automatisme doe 

b.v. boodschappenkrat meenemenl. 

-kramp links, voetzool 

-kramp links, grote teen 

-kramp in voetzool of grote teen > gaan staan. 

Gen/side/left 

Head/pain/pressure/left 

Head/feeling/cold after wet, sensation. 

Mind/confidence self 

M/forgetfull/normal things 

M/weaknes/normal things 

Extr/cramps/lower limbs/left 

Extr/cramps/foot/sole/left 

Extr/cramps/foot/sole/in bed 

Extr/cramps/foot/sole/standing amel. 

Extr/cramps/toes/first/in bed 

Prover 7 

C1 trituatie op 9 december 2004 

Hoofdpijn direct na begin. 

Voel mij heel open en blij. Raak in een intensief gesprek met Gert en Alize. Heb het gevoel precies te begrijpen hoe alles in elkaar zit. Doet 

mij erg denken aan mijn puberteit. Ik weet wel hoe het zit. 

De eerste 2 weken elke dag misselijk, de hele dag door. Daarna regelmatig als ik wakker wordt. 

Slaap erg onrustig. Droom over alles en nog wat, heel banale dromen ( b.v. over huishouden, boodschappen doen). Wordt elke !!!! nacht 

wakker. Minimaal 1 keer meestal 2 of 3 keer. 

Ben ’s morgens doodmoe. 

Zweet ’s nachts regelmatig (doe ik normaal nooit) 

Heb ijskoude voeten en handen. 

Enkele keren een heel erg opgeblazen buik. 

Voel mij als een Jojo. Het ene moment blij het volgende moment erg droevig, verdrietig, zonder aanleiding. Wil wel dood. 

Maak via de telefoon ruzie met mijn moeder. Wordt enorm boos op haar, schreeuw. Ze is niet redelijk, erg onrechtvaardig. Ze begrijpt het 

echt niet! 

Ook dat doet mij denken aan mijn puberteitsjaren! 

Heb veel en stevige aanvaringen met mijn twee puberzonen. 

Koop voor het eerst in mijn leven een lichtblauw kledingstuk. 

Ben mij erg bewust van oude mensen. Zie ze overal. Ik denk, dat ze erg eenzaam zijn. Ben bang om oud te worden. 

Ik wilde niemand tot last zijn, moet dat alleen oplossen, maar uiteindelijk bel ik met Jacqueline en gooi het er allemaal uit. Ik kan het niet 

meer alleen aan, het wordt mij teveel. Dat luchtte al op. De dag daarna gaat het ook nog. Slaap daarna voor het eerst sinds begin december 

twee nachten door!! 

Val weer terug en tel de dagen, en op het laatst zelfs uren totdat het eindelijk lesdag is en ik hopelijk wordt bevrijd. 

Prover 8 

"Eenzaamheid is alles delen met jezelf" 

Dit is het gevoel wat ik heb na de trituraties. Kwam spontaan in me op toen ik in bed lag. 

C1 scherpe geur in mijn neus 

trekken aan mijn schouders 

tintelende koude benen 

kriebel onder mijn haar 

kippenvel rillingen 

de steen der wijzen 

Poolster 

IJstijd 

voel me leeg en verdrietig 

"lonely planet" 

verder eenzaam, eenzaam. eenzaam. 

Prover 10 

C1. 8-12-04 

1. a. ogen branden, druk achter ogen 

b.ik kan mijn longen bijna voelen, gapen, neus prikkelt, ik kan de middel bijna proeven, een beetje verdrietig 

2. 26-01-05 

Neem ik mijzelf slecht waar?, Polsen doen pijn, hoesten 

-intense, toegenomen gevoel, een soort druk op mij, alsof ik een race doe, hoest 

3. ik baal van de blauwe kleur, prikkelende ogen, vooral rechts, 

-plotseling honger 

Prover 16 

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Fysiek begon vanaf zaterdag 11-12-2004: 

enorm eczeem in gezicht, buik, billen, achterbovenbenen ( sinds baby heb ik constitutioneel eczeem, wat de eerste 22 jaar is onderdrukt met 

zware middelen o.a. prednison) rood pijnlijk, jeukende pukkeltjes 

jeukende oogleden, brandende ogen, m.n. rechter ooglid met schilfers 

tranenvloed met brandende uitscheiding 

gezwollen ogen bij opstaan dit heeft ruim twee weken aangehouden 

ogen vermoeid en pijnlijk, slecht kunnen zien 

ontstoken ogen 

doorlopend hoofdpijn, ook langere tijd aangehouden 

kaak verkrampt links heeft week geduurd 

's nachts extreem koud hebben 

Zaterdagavond d.d.11-12-2004 enorm gehuild, kwam ineens opzetten, ik had al heel lang niet meer zo gehuild, verlaten eenzaam gevoel, 

Siberisch gevoel. 

Zondag 12-12-2004, ik heb geen zin in werken. 

Veel dromen over mijn vader en het verleden. 

Dinsdag 14-12-2004 een dag flink opgeruimd, dit voelde goed daarna enorme ruzie met partner terwijl het heel lief voelde, dus de enorme 

omslag. 

Die nacht niet kunnen slapen, heel naar wakker worden vervreemd, zo moe, totale energie is weg. 

Mis mijn kinderen. 

Woensdag 15-12-2004 gevoel niet erbij te horen vanaf dat moment het terugtrekken begonnen en de extreme zwijgzaamheid, 

het heeft geen zin meer om te praten als ik niet begrepen wordt, zo voelde het diep van binnen. 

na ovulatie rond 23-12-2004 net boven de rechter borst pijnlijke klierzwelling van zo een 10 cm, dit heeft twee weken geduurd, 

na menses was het weg. 

slaap: veel slapeloosheid met dromen en wakker liggen 

niet kunnen opstaan vanuit niet meer willen 

energie volledig verdwenen 

gevoelens van: alleen zijn, er niet bij horen, apathisch, koppig, extreem zwijgzaam, wantrouwen, totaal terugtrekken, vervreemding, dingen 

dringen niet door, ontzettend traag, geen zin in werken en er niet toe kunnen komen. 

Het overheersende gevoel het zonder familie te moeten doen, het gevoel afscheid te moeten nemen hierin, 

dit gevoel klopt met de werkelijkheid, het is een tijd voor mij van afscheid nemen. 

Prover 17 

na de trituratie een enorme woede uitbarsting gehad 9-12-2004 19.30 

een explosie. 

VRESELIJK 

mijn familie is zich rot geschrokken 

mijn zoon riep dit ben je niet! 

vraag me af of ik door wil gaan? 

Ruik de hele avond zeeplucht. 

Als de stof in mijn vijzel komt verbaasd het mij hoe mooi de kleur blauw is. 

Ik ruik eraan om te controleren of de zeeplucht van de stof komt. Dat is niet zo. 

Het voelt heel spannend. Een soort opwinding maakt zich van mij meester. We gaan beginnen! 

Dan luidt Sjaq de bel en direct komt het gevoel alsof de bel luidt voor de sacristie. 

Er komt een soort heilig gevoel over me een gewijd gevoel. Dit ervaar ik als spiritueel en komt openheid vanaf boven, in mij. (begint bij 

kruin chakra) (gebeurd soms als ik mediteer, maar niet zo intens zo opeens zo allesomvattend) 

Alize begint te praten en het irriteert me. Houd je mond denk ik. Dan sluit ik me ervoor af. 

Zie in mijn kom mooie patronen lagen, opgebouwd van beneden naar boven als richels. 

De stof blijft hangen. 

Dan opent zich mijn linker neusgat. Als of er zuivere zuurstof doorheen komt. Later mijn re ook maar niet zo open als de li. 

Ik adem diep en rustig en er komt een diepe rust over me. Mijn borstkas opent zich en vult zicht met zuurstof, lucht. 

S 1 Ik zie mooie, blauwgrijze substantie met glans. 

W2 Ruik opnieuw de zeeplucht. Het valt me op dat Evelien een roze rood glittertje op d´r wang heeft. Mijn ogen staan wijdt open, neem heel 

helder waar. Ik ben me bewust van de omgeving en als ik rondkijk zie ik diep triest, treurig en lijden op een aantal gezichten. Wat mij niet 

raakt, ik neem alleen waar. 

Ik krijg opeens jeuk ik de kleine ruimte tussen neus en bovenlip. Dan overvalt me ineens een slaperigheid. 

S2 Krijg de stof niet los. De inhoud in de kom lijkt veeel kleiner. Dan in een impuls wil ik een hapje nemen, doe het niet. Mijn haren irriteren 

en ik denk dat ik snel naar de kapper moet om het af te knippen. Ik krijg dorst en ga naar de keuken. Het water in mijn kopje is vrij warm, 

maar als ik mijn vinger in steek is het lauw tot koud. 

Ik voel me heel goed, prettig. 

Opvallend. Bij het vertellen van mijn verhaal was ik alleen daar mee bezig. Dit is bijzonder meestal ben ik me bewust dat iedereen kijkt ook 

dat de camera draait. Na het vertellen was ik me wel bewust dat iedereen keek en voelde ik me heel verlegen. 

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Volgende dag 

In de avond na sporten om 19.30 thuis. Spoedje aan telefoon! 

Zoon riep van boven. Maak je het eten klaar. Papa komt zo thuis. 

Ik vroeg of hij wilde helpen maar hij liep weer naar zijn kamer. Man kwam thuis. Wat eten we? 

Ik explodeerde, extreem!!!! 

Ik ging tekeer als een viswijf. Ik kan boos zijn maar zo, nog nooit! Zo explosief! Zo onredelijk. Tijdens schreeuwen herkende ik mijn eigen 

stem niet en ik dacht: stop stop. Maar kon niet stoppen. 

Later na mijn excuus zei mijn zoon: mam dit ben je niet. 

Man zei: je bent je nog nooit zo boos geweest zo hysterisch. 

Ik ben erg geschrokken. Was daarna zo mak als een lammetje. Erg in mezelf gekeerd 

Wel bewust dat deze heftige reactie van de testing komt. 

14-12 

Voel me goed en relaxed ondanks veel activiteiten in het weekend. Ik voel me open en toegankelijk. 

Patiënten komen niet opdagen vanaf donderdag zonder afbellen . Iedere dag eentje. 

Is heel opvallend. Gebeurt zelden. Heel relaxed. 

Bewust dat ik de C1 niet af wil maken ivm explosie gevaar. 

7-1 

conflict met mijn dochter. 

Nee, gezegd wat een enorme ruzie veroorzaakte. 

Daarna intens verdrietig en uren gehuild. Het verdriet van de afgelopen jaren kwam eruit, (Ik huil zelden) 

Afmaken C1 27-1-2005 

Tijdens de verwrijving komen beelden naar boven over situaties waar ik in het verleden boos over ben geweest. Hebben allemaal te maken 

met het overschrijden van mijn grenzen. De woede borrelt in me op vanuit mijn lenden. 

Heftig maar ik ben me bewust van de kern van de woede. Ik ben niet duidelijk, ik laat het gebeuren. 

Gevoel van dorst. 

Ga water drinken 2 glazen vol. Mijn geur is versterkt. 

Prover 19 

Lang uitgesteld voor ik er aan begin. 

> Kan me niet meer herinneren hoe ik C1 moet maken. 

> 

> Zwaar, vast, langzaam. 

> Hoe kom ik bij C1 - C4? 

> 

> Langzaam ademen. 

> Vettig. 

> Lamme bovenarmen. 

> Hoofd --> pressure. 

> 

> Vettige klei. 

> Hoe heet die keramist ook alweer? 

> Hoogerdam, Hoogendam. 

> 

> Zwaar in maag / boven middenrif / longen. 

> Heel diep en langzaam ademen. 

> 

> Loopneus, neus ophalen. 

> Dun transparant vocht. 

> 

> Niet goed concentreren. 

> Gedachten steeds ergens anders. 

> 

> Geeuwen. 

> Onbeweeglijk. 

INDIVIDUELE TRITURATIE SYMPTOMEN C2 

Prover 1 

C2 

Wat ik bemerk is dat ik geen horloge om heb, dat is niets voor mij! 

Pijn, druk op oren 

Verkramping schouders, rug wat mij zeer irriteert, grrrr…. 

Ben snel aan het verwrijven 

Explosief “BOEM”! 

Schilderen? Ik heb liever een boksbal! 

Branderig gevoel mond en puntje tong, gevoel alsof er een blaar/aften zit 

Ondeugend gevoel 

Hoofdpijn 

Warm hoofd 

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Gloeiende warmte vanuit nek, hoofd, schouderbladen 

Jeuk rechteroog 

Jeuk in algemeen 

Hierna word ik rustiger, lieflijker, alsof in een soort trance 

Gloeiende wangen, gloeiende oren 

Vrolijk en gelukkig gevoel, voel me dankbaar dat ik dit allemaal mag meemaken 

Hartkloppingen 

Zware benen 

Moe 

Gloeien, brandend gevoel borststreek 

Transpirerende handen (dit heb ik normaal nooit, altijd koude handen) 

Als Vanessa over de vlinder vertelt, komt het woord transformatie in mij op. 

Ik moet heel sterk denken aan een patiënt uit de stagekliniek die we de vorige dag hebben gezien, die had ook iets met “tijd”, haar naam 

komt steeds naar boven. 

Thuis heb ik hevige dorst en reageer ik ondeugend, plagen. 

Als ik in bed lig blijft er een liedje in mijn hoofd hangen, de tekst die zich herhaalt in mijn hoofd is : “let it be love”. 

Ik slaap lekker, voel me “wollig”, warm 

De volgende dag 27 januari op weg naar mijn werk zie ik diverse auto’s om mij heen, die allemaal een cijfer 8 (?) in hun kenteken hebben. 

Zelf hebben wij ook een auto met het cijfer 8 in het kenteken. 

Op het werk is het ontzettend druk, er gaat van alles mis, maar ik voel me er totaal niet verbonden mee. De dagen erna heb ik moeite met 

concentreren, voel me afwezig, duf, duurt ongeveer een week. 

Prover 3 

C2 26 januari 2005 

1 e deel lactose 

Irritatie 

Dan lachen 

Irritatie linker oog – knipperen 

Stuwing in het hoofd – hete wangen 

Gevoel dat ik ben afgeleid – ik zit er niet in 

Vrijheid – los breken 

Blauwe lucht – blauwe vogels – elektrisch blauw –donker dus 

Vrijheid tov Materie 

Verbinding tov ziel – spirit 

Schrappen 

Eerder het zat zijn – wil nu door met trituratie 

Obs Jacqueline zegt schrappen ipv tritureren –doet ze vaker 

Neutrale toestand, voel niets specifieks 

Blauw is mooi 

Blauwe golven – water- zee 

Glimlachen 

SE van geluk 

Soort trance – neutraal gevoel (trance ken ik wel van mijzelf) 

Omgeving is vaag. 

Ik wil gaan schilderen maar wil vijzel en gevoel niet loslaten 


Blauwe vlinders 

Vrijheid 

Getekend op de muur 

Klaar met tekenen = lekker gevoel van vrijheid- ik ben klaar! 

Blij gevoel door naar de tekening te kijken 

Een samen gevoel 

Ik voel de resonantie en de herkenning 

Neutraal en lekker 

Ik denk ik ga zo stoppen met tritureren 

Ik voel dat ik ‘privilege” heb 

Ik heb met Hahnemann geknuffeld in de lucht – het voelde warm –lachen daardoor. 

Hier ga ik mijn levenstaak van maken. Homeopathie- provings- trituraties. 

Het voelen geeft je vrijheid. 

3 e deel lactose - 31-01-05 

Blij gevoel 

Zorgen over tijd – voel dat in de maag, alsof ie krimpt 

Gevoel dat de tijd langzaam gaat – tegenstrijdig net gestresst alsof tijd te kort 

Maak plannen in mijn hoofd mbt proving & trituratie van dit middel 

Irritant gevoel over de tijd – tijd moet weg 

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Dood – ben ik er bang voor? Weet ik niet 

Neutraal gevoel over de dood 

Kramp in rechter arm van het tritureren, ik ga verder met linker arm 

Jeukend bultje in rechter hand, ziet er uit als een Flea bite. Misschien van insect. In ieder geval bewust ervan geworden tijdens de trituratie. 

IJskoud!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

26 januari 2005 avond na de les 

Ik ga naar huis. Ik ben angstig, alsof er iets gaat gebeuren. Iemand gaat dood. Ik geef heel veel om die persoon. Dit had ik al 4/5 dagen. 

Gedroomd: Alize heeft een van mijn patiënten overgenomen van Marije. Heeft een andere middel voorgeschreven. Vertelt mij het verhaal 

over dit andere middel. Waarvan het wordt gemaakt en hoe. Het gaat om een beest, lijkt op een Armadillo. Een stuk van het beest wordt 

gekrust en gepotentieerd. Alize beweert dat dit middel beter is voor het kind. Zij vertelt het serieus maar mensen om haar heen lachen, alsof 

ze weten dat wat zij vertelt niet klopt. 

Ik ben boos en gefrustreerd, een soort onmacht en ongeloof. Hoe kan dit nou. Ik kan er niet bij met mijn hoofd. Ik denk: Alize: ik heb diep 

respect voor jou. Ik vraag je altijd om dingen. Ik overleg graag maar dit kan niet. Dit kind is mijn patiënt en ik had graag overleg met jou 

gehad. 

Anxiety tijd, een soort angst. Ik haal het niet. Gevoel even snel dit afmaken want ik moet nog dat en dat doen en ik heb te weinig tijd. 

27-januari-2005 

Ochtend: Koud en heel moe. 

Avond: 

Enorme woede uitbarsting omdat hij mij vraagt mijn post op te ruimen als ik binnen kom. Wij krijgen ruzie. Hij snapt er niets van, vertelt hij 

achteraf. 

Ik loop naar mijn kamer. Ik huil en huil.. Ik heb het ijskoud van binnen en buiten. Ik denk en voel : Ik doe zoveel uit de bodem van mijn hart 

en jij ziet dat niet. Jij ziet alleen dat scherp ben in mijn woorden, jij ziet de rest niet. 

Om geen verdere ruzie te maken loopt hij fluitend weg. Dit voelt voor mij als bevestiging dat hij mij waardeert. In een klap ben ik terug naar 

een soort hysterisch nerveus breakdown. Ik kan niet stoppen met huilen, snikken als een gek. Ik voel dat ik mijn relaties kapot maak. Ik snap 

niet hoe het kan. Ik ben zo veranderd. Ik doe zo mijn best. Maar hij doet en zegt hetzelfde als mijn huidige vriend. Ik ben wanhopig. Ik doe 

iets fouts maar ik zie niet wat. Ik zie het niet, ik zie het niet, ik zie het niet. 

Achteraf begrijp ik dat dit een soort schuldgevoel is. Ik denk dan aan de familie van mijn moeder. Het schuldgevoel van mijn opa die zijn 

vrouw en 3 dochter in de steek heeft gelaten. De jongste was mijn moeder en was nog geen 3 jaar oud. Ondanks ik niet meer hysterisch ben. 

Huil ik gemakkelijk. Mijn vriend het ik praten erover en maken het goed. 

Ik snap niets van deze reactie. Ik ben in een klap teruggegaan naar het moment die mij aan de therapie heeft gezet. Jaren lang heb ik eraan 

gewerkt en was weg, dealt with. 

Volgende dag om niets huilen. Nog steeds het gevoel van Ik maak alles kapot wat mijn dierbaar is omdat ik een negatief deel van mijzelf niet 

kan veranderen omdat ik niet zie wat er nou fout aan is! 

Dan pijn in de borst, links, alsof ik een klap heb gehad. Blauw plekje. Tepel gezwollen aan een kant. De volgende dagen nog meer pijn. Voelt 

als een ballon, gevuld met vocht. Rechter borst gaat ook pijn doen, maar links is erger. Ik hoor binnen 5 dagen (rond 2-2) ongesteld te 

worden. 

29/01/05 

Angst is weg. Borsten nog pijnlijk. Ik voel me goed. Rustig. Best vrolijk en vrij. 

Prover 5 

C2 trit.Thuis. 

di.14-12-04 

3 e week van 

advent 

2 e x tritt. 

Prover 7 

-loopneus bij toevoegen lac.sac 

-gevoel van rust, in mijn bekken rusten na 5 min tritt. 

-opdrogen loopneus na c.a. 5 min. 

bij 1e 

x schrapen: 

voel me thuis bij dit middel. 

-de stof is meegaand en eigenzinnig (voelt plezierig) 

-gevoel of ik vlak boven de enkels vastgehouden wordt op de aarde. 

Ik zit stevig rechtop. 

-na 4 min. lichte druk op overgang vertex/voorhoofd 

-de tijd gaat langzaam 

schrapen: 

stof laat makkelijk los van de rand, lijkt bij het schrapen overvloedig 

te worden, is gul. Plezierig voor mij 

-hartslag minder snel 

-gevoel van Rust. 

Nose/discharge/watery/sudden 

M/content/feeling 

M/time/passing too slow 

M/confidence self 

Extr/constriction/ankle/sensation 

Head/pressure/forehead to vertex 

M/rest/sensation 

C2 trituatie 26 januari 2005 

Na binnenkomst zie ik het grote vel papier en de potten verf. Ik voel mij er meteen erg toe aangetrokken. Ik wil eigenlijk niet praten maar zo 

gauw mogelijk beginnen aan de C2 om eindelijk verlost te worden. Nog voordat wij beginnen mag/moet ik verven. De kleuren staan vast: 

blauw, geel en rood. Ik wil ze het liefst niet door elkaar op het papier brengen. Wil de verf heel dik opdragen. Jammer dat ik niet over meer 

technieken beschik. Ben mij niet bewust wat ik doe, maar weet tegelijk dat het zo moet en niet anders. Voel mij daarna heel opgelucht en blij 

alsof er iets van mij afgevallen is. 

Tijdens de trituratie kijk ik naar de vijzel en heb de indruk dat de stof bijna oplost. Ik kijk naar mijn tekening, er moet meer blauw bij!. Ik ben 

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euforisch als ik aan verven denk. Opgewonden, wil de tekening verfijnen. Ben trots op mijn schilderij. Nu is het opgelost. Tijdens het verven 

denk ik aan een vuurbal en aan een meteoriet. 

Nu komt er schot in. Ik kan vliegen!!! Zou graag meer verfijning aan willen brengen in het schilderij. 

Moet gapen, maar dat past niet bij mijn opgewonden zijn. 

Roer haastig, snel. 

Wil dat vasthouden. Zie anderen voor zich uit staren, dat wil ik niet. Wil niet remmen / geremd worden. 

Ik ben in de tijd. 

Alize en Jacqueline gaan door mijn tekening. Voel bijna lichamelijke pijn. Observeer nauwkeurig wat zij doen. Ze willen mij pesten. Ik 

probeer rustig te blijven. Bepaal voor mijzelf een grens op het schilderij tot waar zij mogen komen. Hoop intensief dat zij niet over die grens 

gaan. Ik weet niet wat ik dan ga doen. Als ik merk dat Alize er niet overheen komt wordt ik innerlijk rustiger. Neem wat meer afstand en 

wordt benieuwd naar wat het wordt. Alize weet volgens mij niet, dat blauw en geel groen wordt anders zou zij dat nooit doen. Begin de 

humor van wat er gebeurt in te zien. Kan het loslaten. 

Tijdens de nabespreking houd ik mij eerst bewust stil. Wat er gebeurde heeft mij erg diep geraakt. Als ik uiteindelijk uitleg, dat zij bijna over 

een grens gingen en Alize daarop zegt dat het haar daar helemaal niet om gaat, zij voelt geen grenzen, geen tijd, het is een universum, voel ik 

mij erg gekwetst. Ik ervaar het alsof zij haar ervaring- gewaarwording boven de mijne stelt. De hare is beter. Mijn emotionele ervaring is 

minder. Sowieso is mijn emotionele reactie niet goed. De interventies van enkele te hulp schietende aanwezigen voelen maar even goed. Ik 

moet hier alleen doorheen. Ik herken dit. Het is mijn projectie. Ik breng de normen en waarden erin en de waardering van mijn emotionaliteit 

is erg laag. 

De volgende dag ontmoet ik kort Alize. Wij praten over wat er is gebeurd. Dat doet erg goed. Nu kan ik vanuit overzichtsniveau ernaar 

kijken. Voel mij daarna rustig en blij. 

Slaap nu weer normaal. 

Prover 8 

droge koude neus 

koude en wit 

ben doodmoe 

krijg steeds meer rillingen 

beeld van een hele verre planeet die explodeert/tijdloos 

voel me wezenloos 

ijsbergen 

Heel slecht geslapen. Voel veel boosheid en kan dat niet echt kwijt. Droom over een zwerm bijen in mijn slaapkamer. Ik word gestoken. Er 

zit een nest in het gordijn. Ze komen er allemaal uitvliegen.Een voor mij onbekende pakt het gordijn en klopt het uit. 

Prover 10 

C2 

Een hele reeks van gedachten, alles wat gezegd was, verteld was, hoe ik met mijn innerlijk kind moet verbinden, ben ik 

onderdrukt? 

-Het is lekker om alleen te zijn, bij mijzelf te zijn, met mijn gedachten te zijn. Ik vind het jammer dat de trituratie afgelopen is. 

Het was een beetje als een droom – een stroom van gedachte die voorbij ging, gedachten die ik beleefd heb, ik voelde me 

afgezonderd -van de groep, van mijzelf. 

2-2-05 

Ik weet niet hoe ik me voel, een beetje eenzaam, Ik doe dingen om tijd te vullen? Tijd vullers,? Dag vullers? Ik zou graag naar een 

diepte willen gaan van totaal verveeld te zijn & hopelijk terugkomen. Iets slaapt in mij en ik kan het niet wakker maken dus ik blijf 

proberen en diegene wat slaapt trekt tegelijk mij, vooral zwaar op mijn rug, het trekt mijn naar voren & beneden. 

Prover 16 

Deze verwrijving heb ik niet gedaan. 

Er gebeurt zoveel dat ik het niet goed kan bijhouden, 

vooral op gebied van afscheid nemen. 

Prover 19 

Leegte die heel prettig is. 

> Ritmisch, rustig draaien. 

> 

> Gelukkig dat ik alles nog heb (ledematen). 

> Alsof aan de binnenkant van ei, de schaal, de schil, binnenin. 

> 

> Verlaagd bewustzijn. 

> Dikke foetale ogen. 

> Gedempt. 

> 

> Eigenlijk niets-voelen. 

> Onraakbaar. 

> 

> Mijn rechterarm doet het niet meer. 

> Schrapen vanuit de pols. 

> 

> Denken aan sterven van de kou, bewustzijn verlaat dan het lichaam. 

> Heel veel keer geeuwen. 

INDIVIDUELE SYMPTOMEN TRITURATIE C3 

Prover 1 

Ik ruik gelijk al een sterke lucht, kan het niet thuis brengen, benzine? 

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Steken in mijn rechterzij, gebied lever 

Hoofdpijn 

Voel me weemoedig 

Vervlogen tijden, zit in een ouderwets straatbeeld, zwartwit, mensen in ouderwetse kledij, lijkt op een oude ansichtkaart. Er is iets wat me 

benauwd. 

Gevoel alsof er iets in mijn keel zit 

Daarna is er stilte, sereniteit. 

Slaperig 

(sonar) trillingen in mijn lichaam 

Verdriet, oud zeer: oorlog, joden, zie rijen magere, trieste mensen staan die afgevoerd worden naar de concentratiekampen, voel stekende 

pijn in mijn hart 

Moet diep zuchten 

Steken linkeroor 

Brandend gevoel bovenlip 

Opgezette buik 

Hoesten 

AFSLUITING (wil me het liefst omdraaien, met mijn rug naar de groep toe gaan zitten, maar denk: dat kan ik niet maken en doe het niet) 

Gedachten aan vroeger komen naar boven: mijn oma’s en opa en aan wat zij gevoeld moeten hebben in de oorlog 

Verdriet van familie 

Moe, zwaar gevoel 

Marije begint erg te hoesten en ik denk: zie je wel: gaskamer! 

VERDRIET IS TE ERG, TE ZWAAR 

Later tijdens bespreken in de groep heb ik het enorm koud en last van hartkloppingen. 

Prover 3 


Ik zie geel/goud om me heen 

Ik zit op top van de berg 

Rust gevoel – zware ogen, alsof ik ga slapen 

Ik zou zo eeuwen kunnen zitten! 

Tijd bestaat niet 

Er is heel veel ruimte om me heen 

Heel moe- slaperig 

Medelijden maar zonder gericht object – naar wat of wie gericht niet bekend. 

Ik zit op de top van de berg waar de engelen niet durven 

Alles daarboven is compleet en geheel 


Oranje om me heen 

Ik ruik een zoetig/fruitig geur. (Als de thuja) Ik ruik bomen 

Toestand van “purity” = zuiverheid, Nederlands woord komt later in me op 

Verbergen – ik ga zitten boven op een plek waar niemand mij kan zien toch weet ik dat alles er is. 

Neutrale meditatieve toestand 

Heel moe – slaperig 

Denk aan mijn oma, tante, oom en nog een oom. Allemaal overleden, ik heb ze ook gekend 

3 e deel 

Ik zie een stiervecht van boven 

Ik ben de stier en ook de stiervechter en tegelijkertijd neem ik het van boven waar. 

Steken in linker borst, van tepel recht naar binnen dwars door de borst heen 

Ik zie grote, gigantische bomen, ik denk aan de dood, moeder aarde. Dit volgt na de beuk. 

Opeens helder, helemaal terug, gevoel van herboren zijn. Honger gevoel, lege maag. 

Ik wil graag naar de C4! 

Ik weet even niet zo goed wat ik op aarde doe. 

Rustig doorgaan, misschien komt het nog (weten wat ik hier doe) 

Neutraal gevoel. 

Nacht van 2-2-05 

Dezelfde nacht gedroomd dat ik zo boos was op iemand dat ik niet kon stoppen met schreeuwen tot dat ik overging in slaan. Ik heb die 

persoon met geweld een kamer ingeduwd en ik ging erop los. De reden: zij was ver over mijn grenzen heen gegaan. Een vrouwelijke 

familielid die verliefd is op mijn vriend en daar op af ging. Mijn gedachten: “ jij komt niet aan het meest heilig in mijn leven” Daarna enorm 

verdriet en huilen omdat mijn vriend boos was over mijn actie. Hij zegt in de droom: You have made a scene at a family party and that is not 

the place to do it! You have no respect for anybody!! 

Donderdag 3-2-05 

Volgende ochtend droge hoest met een ruw gevoel in mijn sternum. Herken dit gevoel van de tijd dat ik bronchitis heb gehad op mijn 18 e . Ik 

hoest steeds een keer. Doe ik al een tijdje zo, als ik moet hoesten, bedoel ik. 

Ongelofelijke trek in yoghurt. Na vorige trituraties ook maar was me niet van bewust dat het misschien hierdoor kwam. Ik ben gewend 

periodes door te maken waarin ik steeds trek heb in iets concreets. 

Ik ben geschrokken van het feit dat ik me bewust ben dat ik liever aan de andere kant wil zitten. Ik voel me niet depressief en in feite wens ik 

ook niet dood te gaan maar ik voelde me daar zo goed. Als ik in contact ben met de andere kant doe ik het vanuit de aarde, vanuit mijn 

wezen, met als het ware een klein lijntje dat omhoog gaat. Dit doe ik meestal met Reiki-oefeningen of behandelingen. Tijdens de trituratie 

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zat ik niet beneden maar boven. Het lijntje was geen lijntje, het was alles, ik was alles. Het geeft mij een raar gevoel om hier te zijn en een 

aardse bestaan te lijden. Ik ben echter als ik daar boven op de berg zit, want dan ben ik wat ik ben in mijn kern. 

Ik heb 4 cases uit te werken en ik kom er niet aan toe om er aan te beginnen. Ik heb geen kracht vrijmaken hiervoor. De kracht moet binnen 

mijzelf blijven. Morgen college, weet niet of ik het kan opbrengen om daarheen te gaan. Ik voel me neutraal. Het enige wat ik wil is mijn 

kracht voelen en ervaren wat ik werkelijk ben, en dat is, wat ik boven op die berg was. 

Ik weet niet zo goed wat ik hier mee aan moet. Mijn neiging is nu, rustig wachten en de aandacht op mijzelf richten. Ik voel trouwens ook 

enorme, overweldigende liefde naar de mensheid, in het bijzonder mijn vriend (niets nieuws). Gevoel van eenheid. 

Prover 5 

3ex tritt. 1 e x: 

-denk aan het boek Psalmen uit de Bijbel 

-prik oog, begint rechteroog bovenlid. Doorgaans ooghoek bij de 

neus links gaande naar rechts. 

-tijd gaat zo langzaam 

-stof voelt lekker en maakt lekker geluid, als rustig door goede 

sneeuw zoeven. Fijn, gelukkig gevoel in bovendeel romp. 

--stof voegt zich makkelijk naar mijn hand, lijkt bij schrapen meer te 

worden. Oogst makkelijk, i.t.t. het schrapen ban lac.h. 

2 e x: 

-fijn geluid, maakt me gelukkig 

-triest om dood kindje van 6 maanden in baarmoeder 

-ruik de geur van droogkokende koffie (was niet echt zo) 

-tijd gaat zo langzaam 

-neusgat links helemaal vrij, alsof koude vrieslucht tot diep in je 

longen kan gaan. Fris koud gevoel als in ijle lucht hoog in de bergen, 

wat me ook altijd blij maakt. 

-natuurrijken werken nu in deze tijd mee om de aarde voor te 

bereiden op Kerstmis. 

2ex schrapen: 

-Gulle stof. 

- gevoel van Rust tussen borstbeen en bekken. 

Na de C2 en 

C3 trit. 

-Veel meer op buik gaan slapen met knie, aan dezelfde zijde als 

waarheen het hoofd gekeerd is, opgetrokken. 

Wil dit eigenlijk niet om knieen niet zo te belasten, maar is wel de 

prettigste houding als ik al iets van bewustzijn heb ’s morgens bij het 

wakker worden (soms al om 4 uur) 

dromen zijn helder, geen emotievolle situties, kan ze meer helder 

maar gedeeltelijk vasthouden. 

- dr: 23-01-05: dochter bleek ineens 3 kinderen te hebben terwijl ik 

alleen de 1 e goed ken 

-schoonvader van 91 jaar stapte op een balustrade om iets te pakken 

en viel, kwam rechtstandig op zijn voeten terecht 1 verdieping lager 

en liep gewoon weer weg. 

Dat hij op de balustrade stapte gaf me wat zorg en ik was verbaasd 

dat hij geen letsel had. Geen emoties, alleen constateren. 

Bij beide dromen was ik logisch aan het waarnemen. 

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M/thoughts/religious 

Eye/pain/stitching/side/right/outer corner 

M/time/passes too slow 

M/content/feeling of happiness 

M/sadness/death foetus 

Nose/odor/coffee, burning 

Nose/open/nostrils/left 

Nose/smell/air/open, cold 

M/content/open air 

M’thoughts/religious 

Sleep/position/abdomen/knee lifted 

Dreams/waking 4 a.m. 

Dreams/noticing just 

Dreams/ family/strange situations.

Prover 7 

C3 trituatie, 2 februari 2005 

Vanaf ’s ochtends op mijn linker oor een vreemd vegend geluid op het ritme van mijn hartslag. Ik heb al een constant ruisen in mijn oren 

maar wordt hier toch niet paniekerig van. Het is heel rustig. 

Thuis heb ik even getwijfeld over mijn kleding. Heb besloten zonder BH, met grote trui, stretchbroek en gemakkelijke schoenen te gaan. Dat 

voelt heerlijk. Het maakt mij niet echt uit wat anderen vinden. Bij binnenkomst wordt ik blij als ik het schilderij van laatste keer zie. Ik vind 

het nog steeds heel mooi. 

Aan het begin van de trituatie lichte hoofdpijn rechts. 

Vijzel en stamper voelen koud. 

Voor het eerst komen Duitse woorden, waarvan ik niet naar de vertaling zoek. 

Roerend in de vijzel wijkt de substantie van het midden: Mittelpunktfliehend. 

Ik ruik Kampfer (ik zou niet weten hoe dat ruikt en hoe het in het Nederlands heet). 

S1 Wil alles energiek naar het midden toe schrapen. 

Roer met gesloten ogen. Dat voelt goed. 

S2 Ben hel rustig. Prettig. 

Ben moe, gaap vaak. 

Kijk om mij heen, zie anderen zwaar kijken en denk: wij zijn niet blij. 

Ruik 4711 (weer in het Duits, Eau de cologne, werd vroeger vooral door oudere dames gebruikt). 

S3 Ik wil niet schrapen! 

Er gebeurt niets. 

Denk in het Duits: Bin nicht bei der Sache. (Ben er niet bij). 

Iets staat mij tegen. Ik wil niet met de stroom mee! Sta op en haal thee. 

Ik wil mij niet verzetten – maar meedoen is moeilijk. 

Heb pijn in mijn hart. 

Denk na over het woord verzetten – verzet – oorlog. (Ik lees op dit moment een boek waar over een aantal Concentratiekampen wordt 

geschreven). 

Kijk naar het schilderij en zou iets soortgelijks willen schilderen. In de linker hoek beneden. Het zou anders worden, rustiger, wel met 

dezelfde kleuren. Maar de energie om het daadwerkelijk te doen ontbreekt. 

Discipline. 

Nog een keer roeren! (Nee toch!) 

Der Gang nach Kanossa! 

Ik wil dit niet – is dit weer verzet? 

Ik ben hier waarschijnlijk niet goed in – SORRY! 

Er zit iets creatiefs in. Ik wil bij het schrapen van de substantie een windroos maken. 

Wil de C4 tritureren! 

Wacht met vertellen. Ik heb niet direct de behoefte het kwijt te moeten. 

Geluid in mijn linker oor is er nog steeds. 

IJskoude voeten en onderbenen. 

3 februari 2005 

Heb goed geslapen. Opgeblazen buik. Buikkrampen. Voel mij heel rustig. 

Zoek in het woordenboek naar de precieze betekenis van : Gang nach Kanossa. 

In het Duits: jemandem schwer fallende, aber von der Situation geforderte tiefe Selbsterniedrigung. 

De eerste uitleg in de Van Dale bevalt mij niet, pas in de aanhang vind ik een uitleg die aansluit bij mijn gevoel. 

Naar Canossa gaan: zich op deemoedige wijze onderwerpen, en boete doen. 

‘s middags erg moe. Val tijdens lezen in slaap. Het is goed zo. 

Krijg een enorm (vanaf het middenrif) opgezette buik, heel hard. Het voelt vreselijk. Winderig. Laat een boer (dat doe ik echt nooit). 

Ik denk erover morgen niet naar de opstelling te gaan. Ik wil liever de kamer schilderen. 

4 februari 2005 

Ben niet naar de opstelling. Voel mij een beetje schuldig maar begin blij aan het schilderen van de woonkamer. Dit was een goede beslissing. 

Heb in de hele periode een koude rechter arm. Mijn rechter schouder doet zeer. De ene dag is het erger dan de andere. 

Mijn stemming is wisselvallig. Soms heel eenzaam en onbegrepen, dan heb ik weer het gevoel het allemaal te weten. Voel mij net als in mijn 

puberteit. Heb de indruk mijn puberzonen beter te begrijpen. Sta er dichter bij. Wat is het toch een moeilijke fase. Aan de ene kant alles 

weten aan de andere kant zo onzeker. Klein en groot willen zijn, maar wat ben ik nu? 

Prover 8 

Bij aanvang van de trituratie voelde ik erg me moe, verdrietig en boos. 

Voor mij voelde alles tegengesteld bij het tritureren. 

Verdraagzaamheid/onverdraagzaamheid 

Dan toch maar het weer laten gebeuren 

Kippenvel; echt koude rillingen 

Geremdheid/ongeremdheid 

Voel me draaierig en slaperig 

linksom draaien/rechtsom draaien 

dan alles weer terugdraaien; dan is het goed 

ophouden/weer beginnen 

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streken uithalen/betrouwbaarheid 

wil niet schrapen, maar hakken 

Kijk om me heen; Gert is lief en komisch zo hard als hij zit te schrapen. 

krijg het beeld van een stier te zien bij een boom 

voel de trilling van diepblauw en geel 

verre planeet/steen/ 

grote leegte/alles willen zien en weten 

Prover 10 

C3 2-2-05 

1. a.Iets hards, taais, zwaars als stroop, trekt aan mij van binnen 

b. eindeloos geduld 

2. a. moe, zwaar werk, moe, bijna in slaap gevallen 

b. gapen 

3. iets wil naar buiten (uit mij) maar kan niet, zelfde gedachten als van middag voor de trituratie, het trekt mij steeds naar binnen, bijna 

ademloos, zwaar gevoel, bijna verdrietig maar kalme, niet bang, gevoel alsof ik naar een grote, donker innerlijk gebied, ruimte wordt gedrukt 

Prover 15 

Dag Allemaal, 

Na deze trituratie een immens verdriet en eenzaamheid, en onbegrip dat wij (ik) als mens in staat is om tot planmatige wreedheid in staat te 

zijn. 

Door het weglaten van gevoelservaringen is dit mogelijk=rationele verklaring 

Maar wat mbv de trituratie terugkomt is het kinderlijke element, 

en dat is het niet begrijpen ervan. het niet begrijpen met het gevoel, de onmogelijkheid op gevoels nivo jezelf te begrijpen en te ervaren, en 

de behoefte te oefenen en fantaseren tot je dat misschien wel kan begrijpen, . 

De kinderlijke opluchting dat het lichaam een stof produceert die je beschermd voor het lijden wat de mens aan zichzelf kan ervaren en 

zichzelf aan kan doen. Het ondraaglijke te verhelpen met een drug, die je lichaam zelf produceert. Maar toch te voelen dat de oplossing niet 

is, maar de illusie. De weerstand om in de illusie te gaan..die is heel sterk. 

niet naar het grotere geheel te vertrekken, de illusie op te geven, dat is de pijn. 

Als we niet in de emotie / pijn teveel hoeven te gaan, wordt de weg opengebroken naar een groter geheel. maar is dat een escape, 

onderdrukking, en laten we de pijn, en de aangedane pijn dan maar niet gemakshalve achter!???? 

Dat is de pijn die ik nu beleef. 

Prover 16 (zit erbij, tritureert niet) 

Hele angstige voorgevoelens als ik opsta, dit blijft de hele dag hangen. 

Last van m'n buik hierdoor 

Ik zie een begrafenisauto 

Afscheid, dood, transformatie 

Heb enorme hartkloppingen 

Alize geeft haar mortier en dit voelt als delen een fijn gevoel, ik schraap. 

Gevoel te willen uitbreken. 

Arm links boven doet pijn 

Stroomt in linkerbeen en tintelt 

Bovenbenen voelen aan de binnenkant schraal 

Boven op hoofd aan binnenkant tintelingen 

Ik voel me intens moe 

Ik zie een enorme ijsberg en die gaat smelten, alsof het zachter wordt. 

Een onherbergzaam gebied zo een eenzaam gebeuren. 

Schouders en bovenarmen zo zwaar en pijnlijk. 

Nek pijnlijk 

Achter rechter oog pijn 

Ik zie een skelet, het doet van achter naar voren pijn aan de binnenkant. 

Ik voel medelijden en liefde. 

Ik hoor donderdag d.d. 03-02-2005 dat heel slecht gaat met een lieve vriend, hij heeft die dag een operatie en zal het waarschijnlijk niet 

redden. 

Het lijden voor hem is afschuwelijk. 

Dit grijpt me zo aan. 

De week ervoor heb ik een afscheidsgesprek met hem gehad. 

Het voelt als veel. 

Ik ga in meditatie en kom als nog met hem in een geestelijk contact, 

daarna wordt het rustiger in mijn gevoel. 

Ik heb het besef dat dit weer een afscheid betekent. 

Prover 19 

Ben er mee begonnen en alweer gestopt voor de bel rinkelde. Toen ik 

> thuis de C1 moest maken wilde het ook al niet lukken. Ik ben ook erg beïnvloed door 

> alles wat ik in de groep heb gehoord, kan niet onbevangen draaien. Het 

> lucht me op dat ik stop want ik moest nog C3 en C4 en het lag als een last op 

> mijn schouders. Ik ga vrijdag gewoon C5 doen, sla de rest over. 

> Mijn reis naar Nieuw-Zeeland heeft hier zeker mee te maken. Er is veel 

> veranderd maar ik kan niet beschrijven wat het is. Het is iets dat 

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zich "innerlijk in mij heeft voltrokken", zo probeer ik het uit te 

> leggen en zie dan verbaasde blikken. Maar jullie snappen dat denk ik 

> wel. Het beïnvloed op dit moment al mijn persoonlijke relaties en daar schrik ik soms van. 

> 

> Toen ik thuis kwam heb ik een dag later mijn studiekamer afgebroken en 

> naar de zolder verhuisd, alle studiespullen opgeruimd die nog steeds op de 

> tafel of in de kast lagen. De dossiers van de kliniek weg gedaan, alle anamneses 

> versnipperd. Een helder moment. En zo voelt het nu ook (wat betreft die C3 

> en C4), een helder moment, een goed besluit. 

> 

> De reis heeft me dus ook losgeweekt van mijn homeopathie-trauma. 

> Zonder dat ik er iets voor heb gedaan. Of juist omdat ik er niets mee heb gedaan? De 

> natuur werkt vaak ook helend. Daar heb ik een overdosis van gehad. Het 

> lijkt wel een afscheidsbrief he? Dat is het niet hoor. Ik zal altijd een groot 

> aanhanger van de homeopathie blijven. Ik weet niet eens waarom ik jullie 

> dit laat weten, het welde gewoon in me op. 

INDIVIDUELE SYMPTOMEN C4 TRITURATIE 

Prover 1 

C4 trituratie d.d. 16 maart 2005 

Voel al snel pijn, druk op mijn borst, rechterkant 

Koud 

Pijn voorhoofd 

Wil heel erg in mezelf zitten, laat me met rust! 

Loslaten, wil hier niet op aarde zijn, wil naar andere dimensies 

Ik wil doorwrijven, nu al schrapen 

Ik wil me niet bewijzen, ben goed zoals ik ben, al die verschrikkelijke Ego’s waarvoor ik mij moet bewijzen 

Wil weg, weg van deze aardbol, heb het wel gezien hier! 

Voelt als bevrijding. 

Misselijk, zuchten, geeuwen. 

Gert is hard aan het schrapen en dat irriteert enorm: hou op: je verstoort mijn gevoel! 

Schrapen duurt me te lang, wrijven duurt te kort 

Verlang naar muziek om lekker bij weg te zweven 

Zit in een draaikolk, heel veel kleuren, word daarin meegezogen 

Daarna is er LEEGTE 

Jullie mogen het allemaal hebben, het hele Ego-bestaan, ik vind het prima, ik ga weg!! 

Voel me verdrietig, maar ook trots 

Pijn in rechteroor 

Ruik een licht frisse geur, doet me denken aan de lente. 

Dan weer: Ik wil weg!! Voel het in het diepst van mijn ziel: ik wil hier niet zijn! 

Daarna gevoel alsof ik echt “weg” ben: ik word steeds lichter, dunner, alsof ik oplos 

Dan kom ik terug: waar ben ik? En meteen voel ik: Dit is mijn lot…. 

Voelt heel zwaar…. 

Daarna ben ik uit mijn concentratie en heb ik heel veel trek in zoet. 

Tijdens de bespreking heb ik wel het gevoel dat ik er “ben”, maar moet daar erg mijn best voor doen, steeds de neiging om weg te willen 

“glippen”. 

Eenmaal thuis duik ik de koelkast in en werk een Magnum naar binnen, heb behoefte aan zoet en kou om zo te proberen weer meer “hier” te 

komen. Daarna word ik overmand door een immens verdriet en moet heel hard huilen. Ik slaap goed, maar word wakker met hoofdpijn. De 

volgende dag krijg ik ’s avonds last van kriebelhoest wat zich ’s nachts doorzet met pijn in spieren en koorts, kortom: ik heb de griep. Blijf 

thuis (18/3), moet veel hoesten, overal pijntjes in hele lijf en voel me heel erg sloom, alles wat ik doe, doe ik in slow motion. 

Prover 3 


Egypte – oase in de woestijn 

Oranje kleur 

Hoofd van Nefertiti 

Neutraal Gevoel 

Overgang naar de andere wereld 

Lopen in een Gouden gang ergens naar toe maar geen eind 

Rustig/Neutrale sensatie 

LEREN – heb ik wel genoeg geleerd? 

Schrappen: nog nooit zo weinig gevoeld tijdens een trituratie 

Het doet me niets! 

Wat is dan het tegenovergestelde? 

Dat alles door jou heen gaat, alles komt binnen 

GEVEN EN NEMEN 

Egoïsme kan schadelijk zijn maar ook gezond 

Ego is noodzakelijk maar niet onmisbaar 

Je hoeft niets te missen, er komt wat nodig is 

FARAO-Slaaf-Nefertiti beeld in mijn hoofd 

Wie is eigenlijk bevoorrecht? 

Degene die zijn ego kan missen. 

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In wezen hetzelfde maar je moet je gouden gang alleen doorlopen 

“ Alice in Wonderland” 

Ik zie de ogen van Monique als een kat 


Overzicht – ego vast 

Om de gouden gang te mogen doorlopen moet je groeien en groei komt door overzicht 

Bij gevoel – dat dit even duidelijk is voor mij 

Blij! Ik ben blij! 

Wat er uit moest komen is er uit gekomen 

Middel is voor mensen die door EGO geen overzicht krijgen 

Kunnen niet vanuit een andere perspectief uit hun ego zien 

Tegenpool te weinig Ego daardoor onbegrepen = verdriet 

Oplossing van alle perspectieven leren zien. Ego wanneer nodig? 

Grenzen 

Grenzen bestaan niet maar dat kan je pas begrijpen als je ook zonder ego kan. 

Als ik hierover denk, raak ik verward. SE het gaat even boven mijn pet. 

Stem in mijn hoofd – schrijf gewoon op – je bent een boodschapper en nu is je denken- je ego niet nodig. Als je thuis bent, ga eens goed 

nadenken wat ego is, inhoud, nu niet. 

Ik ben vrienden met de stof. 


SE praat met een meester. Ik ga wat leren. Stilzitten en luisteren. 

SE dat ik de stof begrijp 

Dat ik de essentie begrijp 

Mijn leven is nu voorgoed veranderd 

OBS: mensen heel geconcentreerd. Ik zie een dilemma in de gezichten. Slaap of pijn? 

SE dat ik te snel gaat (3 keer) 

OBS: zeer aangename sfeer, ontspannen, mensen praten met ironie 

Dankbaarheid naar Hahnemann voel ik. 

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Prover 5 

C4 trituratie Wo 16-03-05 Rubriek 

1ex 7 min. Eeuwige gelijkmatigheid, eeuwigheid. 

Boven het gewriemel van mensen verkeren. 

Alsof ik vanuit de eeuwige bergwereld met sneeuw op de wereld neerkijk/overzien 

Glad en zacht, zalfachtig. 

Wil mortier tegen me aan houden, en het omarmen 

Schrapen 3 

min 

Gulheid van de substantie 

Rust, ervaar omgeving als doelloze ONRUST 

2 e x 7 min Frisse zeepgeur 

Omarm mortier 

Hitteflush 

Vanuit eeuwige bergwereld beschouwend naar de wereld kijken, geïnteresseerd maar er 

geen deel van uitmaken. 

Geluiden gedempt alsof er een dikke sneeuw deken overheen ligt 

Schrapen 3 

min 

Melksuiker 

toevoegen 

3ex 7 min 

Schrapen 3 

min 

Wat doet Gert Arsenerig, heeft hij koorts of zo? 

Denk aan onlangs overleden mensen en hun levenssferen 

Het is alsof er een dik pak goede sneeuw ligt 

Geeft me vertrouwen 

Frisse zeepgeur 

Veel onrust in het schrapen bij anderen 

Substantie is gul om niet, maakt me dankbaar en blij 

Pepermuntgeur die wat van kamfer heeft 

4ex 7 min Wat is dit ‘ont-spinnings-proces? 

Alice in de Echter Wereld te gast 

Wie ben ik dat ik deel mag hebben aan het ontrafelen, ontrollen van de wijsheid in deze 

substantie. 

Als of we het AARDSE EEUWIGE door ons tritureren naar de mensenmaat halen, vol 

bewondering en verwondering en deemoed. 

Kruidige zeepgeur. 

Tijd gaat vlugger dan ik denk. 

3 e portie 

lac.sac 5ex 7 

min 

Schrapen 3 

min 

Alleen maar die hogere eeuwige bergwereld 

Ineens weer helemaal in het hier en nu. 

Niets, veel gelach, concentratie weg, gehakketak van stemmen 

6ex Onrust, geen concentratie meer 

Geur zoals in Aziatische meubelwinkels 

Tijd gaat snel. 

Substantie gul, als losse sneeuw komt het zonder moeite van de wand los. 

Einde C4 trituratie 

1 e nacht -droom: zag kerktoren van het dorp waar mijn ouders wonen ineens in elkaar zakken. 

Ouders wonen dicht bij die kerk, alles was verwoest. 

Zag het huis van mijn ouders vanuit de plaats aan de andere kant van de straat tegenover 

de buren. Was verder niets aan de hand, alleen alles kapot. Dit had geen verdere 

consequenties. 

- ik was met een trituratie groep in een voor mij gewijde ruimte, ik had een zwart boek in 

mijn hand. Iedereen sprak over zijn ‘spirituele ervaringen’, alsmaar, en ieder had wel wat, 

de een al mooier dan de ander. 

Ik voelde dat de ruimte wat ontwijd werd of zo, waarop een iemand uit de groep 

laatdunkend zei: jij verkoopt toch ook alleen maar loten! 

Het boek bleek het homeopathische woordenboek te zijn. 

- was me bij het wakker worden in eens bewust dat iemand mij incorrect benaderd had, 

waarvoor ik een verklaring gegeven had vanuit mijzelf, terwijl me nu duidelijk was, dat 

die ander zich had moeten verontschuldigen voor zijn gedrag. 

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M/del/eternity 

M/del/mountain, het is on the 

top of the 

M/del/looking/downwards 

from the top of the mountains. 

M/emotions, lack of 

Nose/odor/soap, fraish 

Head/heat/flush 

M/disconnected to the world 

M/covered, sensation the 

world is 

M/thoughts/dead people 

M/ confident, sensation of 

Nose/odor/soap 

M/delusion/restlessness in 

others. 

M/thankful; M/graceful 

M/ Philosophical 

M/theorising 

M/ graceful to the universe 

M/ time/too fast (quick) 

M/ admiration 

M/ religious feelings 

M/del/ mountain, being on top 

of the 

Dreams/accidents/tower is 

crashing 

Dreams/humiliated, being

Prover 7 

C4 trituatie, 16 maart 2005 

Blij gevoel. 

Alize en Jacqueline kletsen veel, ik zeg er wat van en schrik daarvan: hoe haal ik het in mijn hoofd. Voel schaamte – sorry! 

Substantie voelt lekker rond in de vijzel, soepel. 

Moet aan Irene denken, ik zou iets voor haar willen doen, het lichter willen maken. 

Lisanne studeert af op het onderwerp Duitsland en moet de film: “Der Untergang” zien. Wat moet zij inhalen. Iets wat in de familie nog een 

plek moet krijgen? 

Vanuit onzekerheid belangrijk willen zijn. Dat hoeft nu niet meer. Ben nog onzeker wanneer ik dan wel iets moet zeggen. 

Ben blij en dankbaar, dat ik tritueer, dat er geen PC’s op tafel staan, dat wij hier zitten en dit doen. Het voelt verbonden, ook al kan ik niet 

iedereen helpen, omdat ik ook weet dat ieder zijn stuk heeft waar hij zelf doorheen moet. 

Geert schraapt heel fanatiek, ik maak mij zorgen om hem: “komt het wel goed?” 

Voel mij heel heel, wil eigenlijk in deze toestand blijven, hoef niet meer verder. 

Es kann doch nur noch besser werden. Oud liedje komt in mij op: Das kann doch einen Seemann nicht erschüttern, keine Angst, keine Angst 

Rosmarie! 

Voel mij blij. Hauptsache das Ganze zerplatzt nicht wie eine große Seifenblase! 

Moet aan het verhaal van Marije denken. Wat erg al die experimenten in de oorlog, dat mensen moeten ervaren dat zij tot iets in staat zijn 

waarvan zij dachten dat zij het nooit zouden doen. Die Erkenntnis muß schrecklich sein. Er was geen overzichtsniveau. Ze zaten er te diep in. 

“Der Untergang” zien – men kan dingen weten zonder ze meegemaakt te hebben. Als het al in je ziel zit. 

Waarom komen wij soms niet aan ons weten? Zit ons Ego ons in de weg? Alles is er toch. Wat zijn wij mensen toch prachtig in ons streven 

naar waarheid , het zijn te bereiken! 

Zouden wij nog veel moeten wrijven? Geeft niet, wij komen er wel uit met z’n allen. 

Volgens mij ziet iedereen alles aan mij, maar dat geeft niet, het is goed zo. Voel mij erboven staan. Dat maakt dat ik mij schaam. Ik hoef dus 

niet meer te schrapen. 

Ik ben moe, ik wil slapen. 

Fanatieke Geert! 

Heb het gevoel, dat ik een spel speel. Kan mijzelf geen houding geven. Zou het liefst willen slapen maar weet niet hoe en waar. Kijk naar mij 

en schaam mij daarvoor. Durf niet echt ergens te…. 

Ben een stuk kwijt……. 

Weet niet wat er allemaal in mij zit. Ben bang. Existentiële angst. 

Nu weet ik het weer: het ging te snel! 

Als wij nog doorgaan blijven wij in die toestand. 

Is dat de angst voor wat erna komt? 

Jacqueline waar zijn de zakjes? 

Eintüten – und jetzt weiter! 

Heb enorm behoefte aan zoet, gelukkig is er chocola bij Alize. Wanneer gaan wij de C5 doen? 

De volgende ochtend kom ik nauwelijks mijn bed uit. Intens moe! Sleep mij de dag door, doe dingen en ben toch niet echt aangesloten. 

Functioneer op de automatische piloot. Erg moe. Krijg heftige menstruatie, het lijkt alsof mijn borsten groter zijn. Ben zo moe. Eet een hele 

blok chocola. Behoefte aan zoet. Veel geluid in mijn hoofd. De gedachten gieren door mijn hoofd. 

In het weekeind voel ik mij erg onzeker over alles. Wandelen en praten helpt. Eet veel zoet. Kan moeilijk bij een onderwerp blijven. 

Prover 20 

16 maart 2005 

C4 

Honger en droge mond 

soort gelatenheid / geduld 

stekende pijn in mijn rug 

allemaal zo grof om me heen 

afgeleid 

aan patiënt in Kenia gedacht, zat in "rolstoel" gaf hem Plumbum 

gelatenheid 

erge slaap 

zou ik ziek zijn? 

iets met oordeel 

dementie/versterven, dood van mijn eigen vader 

kou, moe, honger 

geld 

loopneus 

voel me ineens de oudste in deze groep 

Gevoel alsof ik in m'n buik zit te roeren 

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INDIVIDUELE SYMPTOMEN C5 TRITURATIE 

Prover 8 

1 april 2005 / C 5 

Begin de trituratie met een lamme rechterarm. 

Ga links draaien. 

Mag ik zijn wie ik ben? 

Tijd en plicht altijd aanwezig 

Verlang naar tijdloosheid en vrijheid 

Ruik sterke chloorlucht 

Rechterneusgat verstopt. 

Ik zit vrijwel in het donker en voel me geïsoleerd. 

1 streep licht. 

Het voel heel onrustig om mij heen. 

Lijkt wel of iedereen in de lesruimte "op springen" staat 

Alsof de bom gaat barsten 

Poolster/schraapwand lijkt op ijspegels 

ijsberen. 

"geloof in jezelf overstijgen = vertrouwen hebben. 

Ik droom kort na de trituratie over de oorlog. Mijn kinderen en ik 

zitten in een soort zolderhuis. Er wordt op de deur gebonkt. Wij doen niet open. 

Dan wordt het weer stil. Een van mijn zoons klimt op het dak om te kijken wat er aan de hand is. Hij wordt direct met een pistool bedreigd 

door een soldaat die kennelijk al op het dak aanwezig was. Er wordt ons verteld dat wij over 2 dagen opgehaald worden. Ik neem 

afscheid van onze zolder. Ik kijk door een van de ronde zolderramen; zie een hele lange brede goot die helemaal begroeid is met groene 

planten zo ver ik maar kan kijken. Ik word met een loodzwaar gevoel wakker. 

Prover 15 

heb ik je verteld dat bij de laatste bijeenkomst ik weer over Hitler en de wreedheden begon. 

het gevoel was: ik wilde het niet ik had weerstand: nee niet weer, dat hebben wij nu gehad. 

ik heb er over gehad. ik heb het toch verwerkt? nee toch niet. 

de vraag kwam op. waarom heeft dit moeten gebeuren, waarom hebben we dit zo gedaan, waar is het goed voor. wat is de bedoeling ervan. 

en dan wel vooral de geplande wrede organisatie van dit al, het wrede en koude. 

WAAROM WAAROM WAAROM. WAT IS DE MENING ERVAN. 

Prover 20 

april 2005 

C5 

Zou de paus al dood zijn? 

Niet leuk dat er mensen uit de groep naar buiten gaan 

raak ongeïnteresseerd in het middel 

pijn in m'n kiezen door schrapen Gert 

beetje misselijk 

iets met seksualiteit, spanning 

man in Kenia die me wilde schaken 

buikpijn, rugpijn en misselijk 

hoor om me heen de verwarring over de tijd, heb er niets mee 

ziekte, prostaatkanker? 

seks, gewone seks, lust 

stel dat ze me moeten komen halen omdat er thuis iets erg gebeurd is.. 

hoe moet ik naar huis rijden.. 

ervaring na 1 april. 

Ik weet niet of het effect was van de trituratie of de casus van de Nat-m vrouw. 

Was zeer onder de indruk van de vrouw. Ik wist meteen dat ze hoorde bij de Ananda Marga groep. Ik vond haar schitterend. 

Maar vooral haar hele uitstraling pakte me. 

Veel herkenbare dingen. 

De dagen erna heb ik veel hoofdpijn en buikpijn gehad. Vooral de hoofdpijn was heel erg. Verdween na 4 dagen maar blijft op de achtergrond 

sluimeren. 

Alles leek zwaar. Ik was erg gedeprimeerd. Erg labiel. Eigenlijk nog. Ook het beeld van de vrouw blijft bij me.. 

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INDIVIDUELE ERVARINGEN NA INNAME LAPIS LAZULI C40/4 

Prover 1 

Ondanks dat ik vorige week het middel niet heb ingenomen, heb ook ik last van mijn onderrug. 

Afgelopen vrijdagochtend "schoot" het er ineens in, het was pijnlijk, maar nog wel uit te houden. Totdat het afgelopen zondag het er 

nogmaals in "schoot", en ditmaal 3x zo hard in mijn beleving, met als gevolg hevige pijn die uitstraalt naar mijn buik, opgezet en een gevoel 

alsof de boel "op slot" zit. 

Zitten is bijna onmogelijk, lopen en staan gaan wel maar met moeite, alleen als ik lig heb ik nergens last van. Heb inmiddels via mijn eigen 

homeopaat een middel ingenomen, maar helaas tot nu toe nog niet zoveel resultaat. 

Klachten met mijn onderrug heb ik vroeger ook wel gehad, echter niet zo heftig als deze keer en het is ook alweer een tijdje geleden. 

Toeval?? 

Ook het gevoel van dat "ik niet meer ben, jezelf kwijt zijn" is herkenbaar, dit heb ik alleen niet deze keer, maar dit had ik al na de C4 

trituratie. 

Ben benieuwd naar jullie ervaringen/reactie. 

Prover 3 

11 mei 2005 

Vanochtend allemaal plannen. Ik heb veel af te handelen. Beslis eerst een homeopathisch middel langs een patiënt brengen. Normaal 

gesproken neemt dit 45 minuten in beslag. 

Ik begin dat ik in de verkeerde tram stap, waardoor ik terecht kom in een buurt in Den Haag die ik meestal vermijd, als het kan, omdat die 

buurt veel herinneringen naar boven brengt waar ik meestal geen zin in heb. Ik beslis langs de (verkeerde) boekenwinkel te gaan. Ik zeg 

verkeerde omdat ik graag naar Verwijs in de stad wilde omdat ik daar een boekje over Differentiaal Diagnose moet gaan ophalen. 

Ik loop op straat met een enorme boosheid: Waarom zit ik hier? Waarom moet ik dingen zo doen? Waarom moet het zo? 

Eenmaal in de boekenwinkel, zoek ik een cadeau. Wat ik oorspronkelijk wilde is er niet meer dus ik kan dat niet kopen. Uiteindelijk kom ik 

de boekenwinkel uit met een boek over xxxxxx (als kado) en een boek van Kubler Ross “Lessen voor levenden”. Ik koop dit boek met een 

soort spanning in mijn buik. Ik vermijd al een hele tijd boeken over dit onderwerp omdat ik vind dat ik er niet aan toe ben. 

Bij deze twee boeken krijg ik een boekje cadeau over Duitsland and then it hits me...! 

De lapis natuurlijk! 

Mijn relatie met dit middel is een van love-hate. Het doet me goed en het trekt me aan maar het maakt me ook bang voor de duistere kant 

ervan. Ik voel me moedig of juist het tegenovergestelde. Ik besef dat ik dingen vermijd, uitstel, de dingen die ik niet leuk vind en dan blijven 

ze terug komen. Op een gegeven moment denk ik: het is nu klaar! Ik ga de confrontatie aan! Tegelijkertijd voel ik de adrenaline in mijn lijf. 

Ik voel me net een warrior even voor the battle. 

Het valt me op dat ik vaak, als ik dingen schrijf over de Lapis veel woorden in het engels komen. Ik vergeet de Nederlandse woorden. 

Lieve allemaal, 

Ik heb veel opgeschreven ivm proving, dit komt later wel. Iets opmerkwaardigs voor mij is het afgelopen nacht gebeurd toen ik aan het 

dromen was. Droom wist ik niet meer toen ik wakker werd. Het enige wat ik weet is dat ik in de droom Let it be (The Beatles) aan het zingen 

was en zo ben ik ook wakker geworden, met dat nummer in mijn hoofd. Ik heb pas rustig kunnen worden nadat ik het nummer een aantal 

keer heb beluisterd. Hierbij dus ook de tekst van Let it be, merkwaardige ervaring, vind ik dit. Het gaat om darkness/unity/answers/Mother 

Mary. 

Ik hoor graag wat jullie ervan vinden. 

De keelklachten, met heesheid herkende ik heel goed van vroeger, dus voor mij was dat wel duidelijk. Dit keer heb ik echter ook oogklachten 

gehad, een soort ontsteking < links. Dit ken ik niet zo maar goed het kan toeval zijn. Ik dacht aan de Lapis omdat ik sinds de proving 

probleempjes heb gehad met mijn ogen. Ik kan de zonlicht niet meer uitstaan zonder zonnebril. Voorheen kon dat prima. 

Nu gaat het wel beter. Ik heb mijn stem terug, ontsteking in larynx is weg, ook bloed en mucus. 

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Prover 5 

11 mei Sinds ik de datum voor het examen gehoord heb, heb ik lumbago. 

De buikomtrek in onderhevig aan constrictie, nu niet rond mijn borst maar in het bekken. 

Het middel dat ik van Alize kreeg ingenomen en hief de constrictie niet op. 

De avond van de dag daarop volgend, bijna 2 dagen na inname van het middel vond de inname van C4/C30 Lapis 

Lazuli plaats. 

De lumbago met constrictie op buikwand in het bekkengebied, waardoor ik me in de loop van de dag afvraag of er 

soms sprake was van een latente optrekkende cystitis, nam na c.a. 1 uur na inname van C4/C30 af om ook weg te 

blijven. 

De plek in de rug is nog wel week/zwak 

Abdomen/constriction/hypogastrium; Abdomen/lower abdomen; Abdomen/band around 

Abdomen/pain/constricting/band or belt; Abdomen/pain/constricting/umbellicus, below. 

Back/constriction/lumbar region; Back/pain/constricting/lumbar. 

Back/pain/motion/amel.; Back/pain/move/beginning; Dreams/anxious/quarrels between friends, 

- Droom: 

Terwijl ik op een oud kerkplein loop wordt er iemand achtervolgd. De achtervolger grijpt al hollend in zijn zak om 

er een klein pistool uit te halen en schiet de wegloper dood. 

Ik ben bang en ga achter een klein gebouwtje met een zuilengang er in staan en denk dat ik zo niet gezien wordt, 

want de schutter kon het eens in zijn hoofd halen nog meer mensen te beschieten. 

Ik denk dat ik veilig ben en niet gezien wordt. Dan komt er een bekende langs, die tegen me zegt: ga je mee? 

Ik vraag hem hoe hij weet dat ik daar sta en dan blijkt: ‘dat hij van een afstand me gewoon kon zien staan’. Ik had 

dus een verkeerde inschatting gemaakt, foutje. 

Dreams/shooting, Dreams/guns, Dreams/shot/wounded 

Dreams/invisible; Dreams/danger; Dreams/danger/murder; Dreams/impending danger; 

Dreams/mistake; Dreams/fights 

15 mei - droom: 

Iemand anders wil niet geloven wat ik zeg, sart me, ontkent wat ik gedaan heb en stelt het continu in een totaal 

verkeerd daglicht, waardoor ik me volledig onmachtig voel. 

Wanneer ze doorgaat met ontkennen en naar me wijst, bijt ik haar uit onmacht vreselijk hard in haar vinger, zelfs 

zo dat ik in mijn slaap bloed proef. Ook voel ik in mijn slaap in me zelf de neiging om haar te knijpen, wat niet 

gebeurt. 

Prover 8 

Dreams/biting; Dreams/mortification; Dreams/humiliation;Dreams/helpless feeling. 

Wil graag even mijn reactie op de inname van lapis lazuli op 11 mei jl. met jullie delen. 

De nacht na de avond van de inname voelde het alsof mijn onderrug "uit elkaar ging". 

Een branderig pijnlijk gevoel. Nu, bijna een week later zit er nog steeds een soort brok/ 

steen in mijn onderrug. Ik meen me te herinneren dat ik een jaar of 3 geleden een 

vergelijkbaar gevoel heb gehad in mijn onderrug. 

Verder heb ik veel hartkloppingen gehad. Die zijn nu veel minder. en koude uiteinden 

(voeten en handen) Voorts veel "instralingen" bij mijn kruin. 

Ik heb steeds een heel onwezenlijk gevoel alsof "ik" "ik" niet meer ben. To be or not 

to be, zoiets. 

Ik droomde een paar nachten na de inname dat ik met 3 andere vrouwen aan het 

bevallen was. De contouren van het kindje waren helemaal voelbaar door de huid van 

mijn buik. Dan ga ik rechtop zitten en zie het hoofdje tussen mijn benen. Het kindje 

kijkt mij aan. Ik "weet" dat het een jongetje is. Daar eindigt de droom. 

Ook herinner ik me een droom in de afgelopen week, waarbij ik eerst een schoen en 

een rode laars draag. Ik ruil de schoen om voor de andere rode laars (met veters). 

Ze zitten heerlijk en ik heb er een blij gevoel over. 

Dat was het even voor nu. 

hallo allemaal, 

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Het verhaal van Prover 3 raakte me recht in mijn hart. In de tekst van het liedje gaat het o.a. over "Moeder Maria". 

In kleur zie ik haar mooie positieve donkerblauwe energie. 

Vorige week maakte ik voor iemand een "bijenwas" tekening. (encoustic art), waarbij ik "boodschappen doorkrijg". 

aan de hand van de beelden die verschijnen op de tekening. Intuïtief maak ik deze tekeningen. Het frappante nu is dat 

op deze tekening een donkerblauwe boog verscheen met daarnaast de contouren van de "Mariafiguur". 

Voor mij voelt het nu zo dat wij middels de trituratie van Lapis Lazuli in contact mogen komen met deze "hoge" en helende 

entiteit. Zie ook de tekst van het liedje van de Beatles. 

Prover 15 

Weinig gemerkt na inname veel minder als na trituratie, 

opnieuw erg koud geweest en boven en onderrug koud en stijf, bang dat ik last zou gaan krijgen, maar is niet echt gebeurt. 

Het woord omarming kwam in een meeting met collega homeopaten steeds terug. 

De onderrug pijnen hebben met onderdrukte boosheid en geen ruimte scheppen voor wat je werkelijk wilt "uiten" te maken. 

En de diepere gevoelens die er zijn, die toch maar liever te willen onderdrukken, Of er geen ruimte voor maken of kunnen maken. 

Ik zou zeggen spreek je uit.. 

Dat is wat er aan de hand is. 

Ik ben benieuwd, of dat gaat werken 

Prover 16 

Pijn in onder rug en buik, met steken in de blaas, 

vlijmscherp. 

Heel koud gevoel in onderste deel van de rug. 

Een aantal dagen ijs en ijskoud en dan een hele hete huid, 

met koorts, de koorts kwam meestal tegen einde van de dag. 

Ik kon ook niet warm worden, zelfs niet in mijn bed. 

Heel veel hartkloppingen en overslaand hart met schokken door lichaam. 

Hartkloppingen heb ik nu nog bij opwinding. 

GROEPSERVARINGEN TIJDENS TRITURATIES 

Supervisor – Alize Timmerman 

C1 Trituratie – 8 December 2004 

Observaties: 

Obs: er worden sommige dingen met veel humor verteld. 

Voor trituratie begint: rommel, mensen zoek, net na pauze normaal? 

A: waar is J, G? Moeten ze niet meedoen? Doet ze altijd 

C staat al te tekenen. Wil niet dat Alize aan haar tekening komt. Alize zegt dat: wil niet eens da t ik aan haar tekening kom. 

M: waarom moet je altijd bij iemand zijn gevoel? 

A tekent iets tussen mijntekening en die van C, gaat direct klagen. Zag ik al aankomen. 

C : dit is niet de bedoeling. Wat ben je nou aan het doen!!!! 

Kijkt zo van: jeetje.. wat erg, wat een zooi maak je ervan? 

G kijkt naar Alize en lacht. 

C: blijft naar Alize kijken met een soort afschuw. 

Blijft er naar kijken. Gefixeerd. Staart. 

De groep vindt Alize een puber omdat ze de tekening van C verpest. 

Er wordt gelachen om wat Alize zegt: je moet de mensen in de concentratie laten 

C: Wie doet dat dan? 

A klaar met tekening “ verpesten” kijkt tevreden 

C lacht en zegt zie je dat? Terwijl ze naar Gert kijkt. 

A: kijkt rond, wij kunnen overal gaan schilderen. 

V Lacht: ze heeft die van mij ook verpest... A kijkt boos. 

V Kijkt naar de tekening en probeert een betekenis te vinden voor de groene strepen die A heeft getekend op haar vlinder. Eerst hoort het 

niet, daarna denk ik het zou het bos kunnen zijn, of gras, of een bloem waar de vlinder beland maar Ik mis de kleuren van die bloem. 

Door de web cam van Gert ziet de tekening er prachtig uit! Ontroerd daardoor. 

J: zit de hele tijd te lachen over de Al-Co situatie en maakt sarcastische opmerkingen over. 

G kijkt naar mij terwijl ik mijn spullen opruim en ik zeg Mind your own business, soort irritatie maar niet echt serieus. 

Hij zegt: doe ik ook! En dan even samen slappen lach. 

G zucht een aantal keren tijdens de trituratie. 

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C niezen 2 keer 

M hoest 2 keer en dan stopt het 

Prover 1 

Heftigheid 

Donker 

Gloeiende oren 

Opgeblazen gevoel hoog 

Ik hou het niet vol omdat het heftig 

Heel snel reactie gekomen 

Ik wil het poeder vermorzelen wegens onmacht 

Begraafplaats, aan het afgraven 

Prover 2 

Alleen en verdrietig 

Periode tussen C1 en C2 huis opgeruimd. Dingen weggooien. Zolder, kamers van kinderen. SE een kamer klaar, gelijk naar de volgende. Ik 

had er tijd voor ook, raar, normaal gesproken niet. Tussen alles door gedaan. Het moest. 

Prover 3 

Iets niet mogen 

Moeder gaat dood kanker 

Graag samen met de groep 

Tijd ook Zie 4 en 5 ook 

Krampen in de arm 

Bittersmaak tong 

Prover 4 

Warme handen 

Kerkhof, donker blauw/zwart 

Heel rustig : ik kijk rustig de dood in de ogen 

Stuwing in hoofd, vooral hoofd en oren 

Ogen branden, bovenste oogleden 

Koude handen 

SE middel oude mensen, stervendenbegeleiding, vogeltrek naar de winter, overgang van de ene fase naar de andere. Om mensen de dood te 

laten accepteren. 

Vader wat zie je er wit uit, je lijkt wel dood. Wit koud en begraafplaats. 

Bij mij dood ook geestelijk. Niet negatief of beangstigend. 

Tijd is er nog geen tijd? 

Droom: 

Iets in stukken, gedaan met tanden erin, eruit spugen 

Zachte bloederige spul 

Prover 5 

Gevoel basis hebben 

Heerlijk materiaal om te doen 

Gulle stof 

SE, ja Basis! 

Krampen in voeten 

Ook vergeetachtig (Prover 12 ook) 

Boos, en gehaast 

Heel ongeconcentreerd 

Niet goed afmaken 

Veel sneller gedaan dan zou moeten 

Woedend in de stof te draaien 

Zin in koffie (echt nooit) 

Ik ergere me aan de koeien lucht, anders nooit 

Prover 6 

Woede 

Veel voorspellende dood, elke keer terug 

Echt niet last 

Humoristische kant in het middel, plezierige kant 

Heel sterk ene of andere kant in te schieten 

Prover 7 

Heel misselijk geweest (Prover 15 ook gevoeld) 

Enorm opgeblazen buik (dikke buik) man ook gezien 

Iets met eten te maken 

Heel veel gedroomd – elke nacht 2-3 keer wakker geweest 

Over dagelijkse dingen door het hoofd- kon niet stop zetten 

Uur om 2 wakker en dan 5 uur 

Heel veel te doen met oude mensen; heel erg begaan met die oude mensen. 

Blijheid Afwisselende met boosheid en droefheid. 

Gedacht aan eigen puberteit. 

Relatie met moeder niet goed meer , na Lac-H wel beter 

Flashback van vroeger – gevecht met moeder. 

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Over kleine dingentjes ruzie maken. (Prover 15 gezegd) 

Bijna iets magische gevoel – ik geef de poeder weg – heeft invloed op me 

Boos op iedereen 

Ontzettend vermoeiend 

Tijdens trituratie vrolijk (Prover 15 gezegd) Conny dit deed me ook aan puberteit denken. 

Heel intens 

Prover 8 

Krampen in buik 

Gedroomd – ijspegels uit neus kwamen –allemaal afgezaagd met schaar 

Voorheen repeterende dromen 

Heel koud 

IJzige gevoel – in de steek gelaten voelen- alleen in de kou (heel ongewoon voor mijzelf) 

Kramp kwam afgelopen zaterdag terug toen ik me bewust werd dat ik hierheen moest komen 

Boos – niet helemaal scheiden van mijn state nou (Conny ook dat gevoel) 

Reactie op Tsunami onder invloed van dit middel Prover 8 

Nuchter geworden in een klap – goed voort te kunnen leven, belangrijk dat ik nuchterheid ontwikkel anders trek ik het niet. 

Overleven vanuit mijzelf. 

Prover 9 

Meer afstand nemen 

Ervan af weg moest 

Ik wist het en dat was genoeg 

Afstand nemen van de realiteit 

Iets met de maan, daar heel erg mee bezig (Prover 15 ook) 

Discussie over onderwerp Nuchter: 

Nuchter: reageren zonder emotionele betrokkenheid. 

Prover 18: binnen de proporties, de grenzen. 

Prover 15: bepaalde stabiliteit in je emotie. Dat je niet zo verliest in je emoties. In nuchter hoort ook het woord rustig. 

Prover 4: verstandelijke toestand dan een emotionele toestand. 

Sobrio niet dronken: dat je niet laat gaan door emoties. 

Door nuchter zijn neem je afstand (Prover 7). 

Prover 10 

Sober – dat je niet meegenomen wordt in het gevoel of emotie. 

Nuchterheid: is het niet vertrouwen? Een soort basis? 

Emotionele basis is daarin redelijk stevig. 

Prover 11 

Tsunami: ik kon het doseren. 

Tv aan - kijken invoelen en huilen – tv uit kon ik door 

Eerste 3 weken ontzettend helder geweest 

Gevoel basis geweest (Prover 5) 

Laatste 2 weken ingestort. 

Constant over boerenland en bouwvakkers bleven terugkomen. 

Lopen in boeren land met voeten in grond zakken. 

Nuchterheid – ik voelde me heel mannelijk – boeren man 

Achter me een huis – basic gevoel 

Dood – mensen hele wereld in kring, hand in hand Alleluja woord kwam naar boven 

IJzer plaat omringt door gras pletten al die mensen, mensen kwamen er onder uit kruipen alsof er niets aan de hand was. Ok we gaan dood- 

onder plaat vandaan en weer verder. 

Leeuw- vorm van Ik voelde me meer dier als mens. Tijdens tritureren werd ik een leeuw. 

Ik kon niet denken als een mens. Ik kon ervaren van vocht, de zon op je huid. Proberen er een mentaal verhaal van te maken, lukte niet. Heel 

raar voor mij. 

Grijze energie massa en niet meer met vorm. Ik keek anders. Kaarsen branden, allerlei energieën ging erdoor heen, geen vorm. Menselijk 

zicht op dingen kwijt. 

Wel een paar keer in de spiegel naar kijken. (om te checken of ze een leeuw was). (zie ook Prover 4) 

Emoties kon ik anders doseren dan normaal. Mentale laag eronder die gedoseerd naar binnen kreeg. Intensiteit was niet minder, Niet 

overspoeld worden dat gevoel 

A: Een leeuw ziet een mens niet – zien alleen een grijze massa dat beweegt. 

Prover 12 

Helderheid in dingen die ik voel, reactie 

Vreselijk kwaad, wel met aanleiding 

Kramp in maag, ken ik niet van mijzelf 

Stoom kwam er uit 

Vaagheid. Ik vergeet heel snel, heel veel. 

Ontzettend naar woorden zoeken. Heel vreselijk voor mij. Herken ik niet. 

Dag van trituratie: heel angstig voor dat ik hier heen kwam. 

Angst gevoeld in buik. 

Niezen 

Gevoel alles eruit kwam tijdens trituratie 

1,5 week ziek geweest. Ook niet zoals normaal. Conclusie: komt niet van middel maar wel versneld door het middel. 

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Griepbeeld: Extreem koud, neusloop. 8 uur koud, 8 uur in bed, 1 uur opvlieger raam open.. 

Dingen in je hoofd hebben dat is goed – en dan binnen 3 seconden kwijt 

Veel gedroomd: over huishoudelijke dingen, elke dag taken. (stofzuigen, afwassen) 

Ochtend vergeten en dan Smiddads 3 uur stuk herinneren 

Nu iets positiefs: Een soort nuchterheid 

Tsunami: kon niet mee in vrolijkheid tijdens voorbereidingen kerst. Soort van ondertoontje niet helemaal vrolijk of gezellig. Beelden wilde ik 

niet zien. Nu al gezien. 

Heel boos met krampen in de maag door beelden telkens, raakte me. Geen zin dat even binnenkwam. 

Prover 13 

Dit na trituratie 

Heel heftig op tsunami, anders heel nuchter 

Heel boos, gevecht met verzekering. Boze brief geschreven, anders nooit. 

Ongelijk, dingen waar ik niet mee eens was. 

Niet nuchter, helemaal niet 

Heel emotioneel door t 

Tsunami – ik ken daar mensen – er naar gezocht via TV doorzoeken tot alle info had. Zo ben ik helemaal niet, nog nooit gedaan. 

Heel zenuwachtig en teleurgesteld. 

Tijdens trituratie 

Stijve nek daarna rustig gevoel 

Weken opgeblazen buik 

Prover 14 

Boosheid, slaan op tafel 

Schreeuwen, gewoon grof 

Oneerlijkheid aanleiding van boosheid Dat kan niet!!!!! zo oneerlijk! 

Wat voor soort oneerlijkheid? 

Conny: afspraak met moeder en familie, opeens moeder zei dingen die niet klopte. Oneerlijk wat ze deed. Ik ben er niet zacht mee omgegaan. 

Geschreeuwd! 

Prover 15 

Allemaal beelden Auschwitz in sneeuw en kou. IJskoud heel groot plan geweest. Welke hersenen bedenken zulke dingen? 

Prover 17 

C1 buiten mijzelf geraakt van woede en agressie. Zwaar, Heftig. Daardoor C2 niet durven doen. 

Kinkhoest waardoor beschadiging strotklep. Klep slaat om. Snachts stikken, flauwvallen. Sinds trituraties niet meer snachts. Denk dat het aan 

het genezen is. 

Gedacht nu moet ik stoppen, niet gestopt en dan hoesten. 

Kinkhoest – Lac-H is een van de belangrijkste middelen voor Kinkhoest. Iemand uit praktijk Vaak longenphyseem erachter aan omdat 

blaasjes opgetrokken worden. 

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Observaties: Met deze proving heeft men moeite met de website, dat is gebleken 

Supervisor vraagt of we door gaan. Ik (Prover 3) SE dat er echt geen animo voor is. Prover 12 en 3 zelf geen behoefte. 

Prover 1 

Gloeien, branden, oog 

Explosief 

Ondeugend, bleek ook uit de rest 

Rustig, lekker 

Prover 2 

Veel speeksel 

Veel aan vroeger denken, foto’s van mijzelf en familieleden van vroeger 

Aan kleurtijd denken 

Conclusie: gelukkige tijd 

Gedachten rondfladderen 

Stekende pijn boven linker oog, verloop erger, komt het gaan 

Poeder : glijbaan waar veel overheen is gegleden 

Frisse koud in mijn neus 

Beelden van vroegere winters, sneeuw en ijs 

Jammer dat zulke winters er niet zijn misschien volgende leven, geruststellend gevoel 

Rustige beweging, ook schrappen, normaal niet 

Misselijk 

Het leven is een cirkel, met begin en eind 

Laatste stap niet gemaakt 

Prover 4 

Hitte en branden 

Droge neus 

Droge slijmvliezen in het algemeen 

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Voor de rest is het gewoon lekker 

Pesten/verborgen agressie: zo ervaar ik het ook die acties over de tekeningen. 

Stel kinderen die elkaar aan het pesten zijn. 

Grenzen: boos omdat anderen je grenzen heen gaan. 

Conflict die op 2 verschillende niveaus wordt 

Niveau zit ver van elkaar af. 

Komt langs elkaar heen. 

Prover 7 

Er moet iets exploderen 

Meteoriet 

Vuurbal 

Gevoel dat we aan haar komen. Grenzen stellen. 

Speelse ervan te zien, eigenlijk is het wel komisch en toen begon het luchtiger te worden. 

En dan weer met dat groen, dacht ik uhhh! 

Daar is mijn grens en dat is alles. 

Voelde alsof ik iets los kon laten. 

Ruzie over kleuren in tekening: Dat voel ik als een strijd, al in het begin. Wat doe je nou? Je moet iemand laten! 

Prover 7 ik heb een lichtblauw jas gekocht; ik had dat nog nooit gedaan! 

Prover 8 

Verre planeet die explodeer 

Kou nog steeds, ijsbergen 

Wezenloos gevoel 

Onbegrensd erbij ook 

Kleur blauw ook. Lucht in wezen. 

Prover 9 

Alleen maar wolven zag lopen 

Boeiend conflict. Prover 15 zegt geen territorium. En dan tegelijkertijd kom je wel in het territorium, ruimte, grens. 

Jij zegt dat je daar niet in leeft. 

Bij territorium hoort altijd een grens. Ik voel dat er geen grenzen zijn. (Supervisor en prover 15) 

Prover 10 

Heerlijke tijd gehad 

Bezig met gesprekken uit begin avond 

Lekker gevoel 

Prover 11 

Van de week 2 conflicten van hetzelfde soort 

Verdrietig 

Daarna letterlijk spugen dat wat ik binnen had gekregen die niet bij me past 

Dit heeft te maken met oneerlijkheid. 

Alize: dacht kinderen vinden altijd alles oneerlijk. 

Wolven, leeuwen en slangen Iets gemeens met elkaar – dieren die enorm het instinct aanwakkeren in mensen. 

Prover 12 

Alleen voet vanaf enkel ijsblokken, voeten bloedsomloop voelt gaan. 

Linker continu kouder naar rechts 

Nu rechts kouder naar links 

Natte stenen geur. 

Genoten van de spel 

Conny ik geef je helemaal gelijk, dat groene 

Tijdens het schrappen heel ongeduldig – zijn we nog niet klaar? 

Over tekening 

Groene bevalt ons niet. (Provers 12, 7 en 3) 

Dieren: 2 kleuren blauw, kop van wolfachtig kanivoor 

Prover 3 walvis 

Prover 13 

de zon getekend, moest oorspronkelijk rond, spontaan kwamen de stralen erbij 

Ontzettende keelpijn – niet meer slikken (Alize tijdens C1) 

Ontspannen 

Warm lekker warm 

Heel ontspannen 

Anticipatie angst, gevoeld in maag voor de toekomst Ik weet niet hoe het moet in de toekomst en tot weet ik niet wat de toekomst brengt. 

Duizelig. Licht in hoofd. 

Prover 15 

Uitgeput en moe 

En als ik maar naar bed kon 

Kon ik ajb gaan slapen 

Ineens in hoofd ik wil van de tijd af 

Universum een tijdloos bestaan is. 

Verlangen tijd los te laten 

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(Prover 4 ook) overgaan anderen dimensie, tijdloos, licht, zon naar boven. Kleur donker blauw. 

Warm hoofd maar voelde koud van buitenaf. 

Grijs-blauw hoort hier niet bij. Donker blauw moet het. 

Prover 15: wil de licht blauw 

Prover 7: helemaal niet! 

Alles blauw turquoise, licht blauw 

Heel warm hoofd 

Stekende pijn aan beide kanten 

Mijn behoefte beeld uit te drukken 

Beeld was universele donkere, blauwe hemelschepper 

Bal kort klein en tijdelijk 

Zag geen evenwicht met de rest en daarom geheel ervan gemaakt 

Ik zou geen probleem hebben als iemand anders daar iets meedoet 

Niet mijn territorium of zo. 

Het universum is tijdloos en gaat in rondgaande golving. 

Het is pijnlijk dat je iets doet dat bij anderen als kwaad of anders wordt opgevat. 

Je doet iets en dat wordt zus of zo uitgelegd en klopt het niet. 

Mensen komen met projecties en het klopt niet. 

Pijn is omdat je niet veroordeeld wil worden omdat je iets in een andere dimensie zit. 

Andere dimensie en daarom niet mogelijk om je grenzen te overschrijden. Dat zou mij niet beperken. (discussie over grenzen). 

Voor mij is het allemaal niet af. Hele laatste maand bezig ben geweest met die kleuren. 

Blauw, licht blauw of turquoise bezig. 

Prover 7 ik heb een lichtblauw jas gekocht; ik had dat nog nooit gedaan! 

Prover 16 

Warm 

Beetje blij 

Opgelucht 

Behoefte iedereen te bekijken wat ze doen 

Of ze hetzelfde gevoel hebben 

Energie, meer energie 

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Prover 1 

Lucht rook, benzineachtig 

Rechter zij steken 

Vervlogen tijden denken 

Aanzichtkaart, begin jaren 20 mensen, straatbeeld 

Benauwd en aan oma denken 

Se iets in de keel zit 

Daarna stilte, sereniteit 

Trillende door lichaam gaan 

Oud verdriet te maken met de oorlog 

Joden gevoerd naar gaskamers 

Heel emotioneel 

Pijn in hart steken 

Oma en opa oorlog 

Familie verdriet 

VERDRIET IS TE ERG TE Zwaar en dan moet ik stoppen. 

Prover 2 

C3 (gedeeltelijk C2, niet afgemaakt) 

Regenboog, als je in het leven komt via regenboog en terug achter regenboog. 

Heel prettig gevoel. 

Ontzettend slaperig, veel gapen. Tevreden loom gevoel 

Ongeduldig van moeheid – boos irritatie, vijzel in hoek willen gooien 

Niet hoe moest zitten, niet weten wat ik me mijzelf aan moest. 

Schrappen mateloos irriteren 

Loom gevoel – van hyper naar loom gevoel- raar omslaan 

Gekriebel achterhoofd na C4 Lac H weg en nu weer 

Tinteling gevoel in tong 

Branderige ogen 

Te veel C2 en C3 achter elkaar. 

Prover 4 

De zee 

Branderige oogleden ook vorige keer 

Vorige keer warm nu koude handen, door naar koude arm 

Iets gemist 

Stuwing hoofd 

Boom reikt naar het licht. Boom past niet bij het schilderij. Niet gedurfd. 

Oude dikke hoge boom 

Leeftijd tijdloos 

Er is geen tijd 

Over eeuwen nog tijd, vorm van zijn 

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Koud!!!!!! Interne koud, zon nodig om op te warmen 

Zon centrale rol, spelen 

Tropisch regenwoud. 

Toestand van zijn, kou 

Alle grenzen weg zijn 

Oerbos beelden 

Prover 5 

Pepermunt LUCHT 

Spinnenweb 

Enigheid? 

Bewust van basis die hier zit 

Frisse LUCHT 

Zeer bevoorrecht 

Stof en ik maatjes 

Dit is zo gul, vertrouwt 

Hoge bergen van waaruit emotieloos kon zien 

SE evenwicht in de stof, heel rustig en heel fijn 

Lichte darm krampen –transversaal 

Steken linker oor 

Mortier dicht bij me hebben 

3 hoek, zwart, oranje en wit 

Het komt uit mij ziel, de stof 

Pijn links gaat naar rechts 

Ongeduld, het is mooi geweest en dan denk ik nog een keer 

Kijk naar mijzelf als baby op wieg 

Heel warm bovenkant 

Broek kribbelen, prikt wil het eruit. 

Sneeuw 

Te gast in de wereld van de stof 

Stof geeft zich over wordt bijna zalf 

Boeddhistische tempel met allemaal belletjes. Gevoel Van 

Schrappen anderen irriteert 

SE Zeer bevoorrecht 

Behoefte aan ruimte en vrijheid 

Beelden nachtelijke donker blauwe lucht – mediterrane LUCHT 

Het is er gewoon. Daar ben ik toeschouwer in. 

Prover 6 

Klopt ik haal eruit wat erin zit en het was ook zo veel... 

zit steeds met zakje zit te wriemelen (enige) mooi middel maar ook veel zwaarte in zich. 

Begint duurde zolang de trituratie. Duurt veel te lang. 

Laatste melklactose gaat het opeens heel snel,d e tijd. 

Heel zwaar, eerst voor mijn leven met beide handen zitten tritureren. Het is heavy. 

Mooie vlakte gezien met ontzettend veel reflectie licht in sneeuw veel kleuren, spatte op eens uit elkaar. Pubertjes kwamen dus aan. 

Geen droefheid 

Moe en zwaarte. 

Zwaar, zwaar, zwaar. 

Prover 7 

Niet eens behoefte om te vertellen 

Lichte HP 

Geen bh aan, grote trui aan ik wil helemaal niets vandaag (ook prover 17) 

Verschillende fases – Duitse woorden in me op – apart 

Kamphor LUCHT – kou nog veel extremer in camphora – alles bij kou, ijskoud.. 

Roeren midden geen substantie – middelpunt vliedend 

Schrappen energiek naar midden toe 

Gesloten ogen voelt goed 

Rustig en moe en gaap 

Kijk en zei mensen M, C, AM en toen dacht ik wij zijn niet blij. En dan ruik ik (Eau de Cologne) Oude mensen geur. 

(7 is wel Duits) 

Ik wil niet schrappen (17, 3 en 15) 

Opmerkelijk dat er niets gebeurde, was niet lamlendig 

Ik ben er niet bij, ik ben niet aangesloten 

Het staat me heel erg tegen, niet met stroom mee 

Ik wil niet roeren, moeilijk 

Ik wil me nu niet verzetten, ik moet dat nu niet doen 

Meedoen moeilijk 

Pijn in hart, verzetten = oorlog 

Boek aan het lezen over concentratiekampen 

Schilderij gelijk willen schilderen in die hoek maar geen energie ervoor. Rustig heel anders als de vorige keer. 

Discipline. Nog een keer roeren, ik vond het zo erg! 

Op z’n knieën 

Ik wil niet meer. Is dit meer verzet. 

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Ik ben hier niet geschikt voor, heel erg jammer vind ik dat! 

Aan het einde toch iets creatiefs in zit. Wil iets moois van maken. 

Wil naar de C4. Nu is het klaar. (3 en 6 ook) 

Prover 8 

Boosheid erken ik heel erg, laatste week nav C2 heel erg gevoeld 

Heel erg naar mijzelf toe woede 

Tegenstellingen gevoel, ook nu 

Van boven naar beneden, links naar rechts 

Stilte-lawaai.. allemaal tegenstelling 

Koud, rillingen 

Beeld Hele verre planeet, (bij C2 ook) 

Beeld van een stier 

En van een boom 

5 e straal gevoel van) 

fysiek – Sensatie te maken heeft met gebied rond de keel 

Associatie met dood = misselijk gevoel tijdens het tritureren en ook van verhalen die ik heb gehoord. Werkt in mij door. Beroerd van. Kan 

niet weergeven in woorden. 

Heel veel plezier om G. Zat heel erg, haal eruit wat er in zit... 

Stimulerend voor mij (gedrag van G) 

Prover 6 keek anders dan normaal (Prover 4) 

Prover 6 is lief en komisch (Prover 8) 

Prover 9 

Het enige wat ik graag wil zeggen 

Ik zie van vorige keer dat jij een vissen kop gemaakt hebt en ik dacht ja de dimensies vloeien uit elkaar voort, het is onvermijdelijk. Kennis 

van aarde in zicht. Het moest dus zo, de tekening. 

Prover 10 

Beeld van de zee, voelde een soort getrokken of gedrukt naar een donker plek binnen. 

Misschien was het de zee. Diep, diep in iets. 

Rustiger maar heel zwaar. Dat is wat ik herken wat van jullie hebben gezegd. 

Moe, gapen. 

Gevoel in donkere? Zwaar alsof ik vastgehouden werd maar niet angstig maar ook niet rustig of prettigs. Iets nieuws. 

Enorme angst om te beginnen. 

Prover 11 

Heel veel 

C1 -2 -3 door elkaar heen 

Niet vervelend 

Het is zo veel 

Het stopt niet, het blijft doorgaan, dadelijk explodeert mijn hoofd.. dat allemaal moet gaan vertellen. 

Prover 12 

SE sereniteit 

Heel veel verdriet 

Tegenstellingen 

Vragen in mijzelf – deze verwrijving is gesprek met mijzelf. 

Botsende dingen in mijn leven of ik links of rechts moet daarin 

Koude voeten als vorige keer 

SE gezicht rood, dat het straalt 

In gesprek met mijzelf punt gekomen ene helft begreep, kreeg ik middenvoorhoofd pijn tussen wenkbrauwen. 

Heel zwaar. 

Prover 13 

Hele week last gehad van rechter arm 

Sterke pepermunt LUCHT 

Arm kou alsof ingesmeerd met pepermunt olie 

Afgeschermd geheel, essentie of doel kon komen, SE puntje van tong en 

Mensen horen niet thuis in steden maar in de natuur in de groen, net als dieren. 

Tv vreemd futuristisch voorwerp 

Dierlijke behoefte 

Losrukken van banden, kettingen 

Helemaal niet aan regels gebonden, asociaal 

Zwerver, lekker vrij. 

Vrij zijn heel sterk. 

Prover 15 

Angst voor verwrijving. 

Hele diepe zwarte zee. 

Heel blij van verhaal regenboog Clara, alsof het samen hoort. 

Zee zwart met rimpels. 

Vorige keer maar blauwe lucht. 

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Ik nam Prover 7 waar, gezicht veranderd gezicht was opeens vrouw 35 jaar. 

Prover 7 gaat helemaal in haar kracht staan. Als een vrouw uitzien. Zo zag ik het eigenlijk. 

Marije begint trituratie. Omgekeerd werd en soort jong meisje van 13-14 jaar. Zag er heel anders uit dan nu, bijna ander persoon. Hoe zijn 

geplaagd is. Hoe geplaagd ze is moet zijn geweest in die tijd. Vandaag andere kleding aangedaan dan anders om dit te laten zien. 

Dat klopt: ik zat in de auto en ik ben terug gegaan. Ik kon niet gaan. 

Geen BH, geen make up opgedaan, uitzonderlijk! 

Vluchtige gedachten over egoïsme. Wat egoïsme echt is. 

Toeeigenen van gevoelens en ineens. 

Daarvoor beeld gehad. Aantal jaren geleden vrouw overleden in de praktijk. Tegenover mij vertelde hoe goed het met haar ging. Kwam op 

consult voor haar kinderen. ¾ woorden opgeschreven. Weten welk middel 9 maanden is geweest, dat is mijn middel. Ging doorschrijven naar 

andere homeopaten. Vervuld gevoel. In deze trituratie, mijn gevoel was Nanny kwam als volgende patiënt bij me binnen. Gewoon binnen 

komen, Het verdriet wat je nu hebt moeten we bespreken. Kijk dat is nou wat mensen doen. Ik was boos op mijzelf in die tijd dat ik niet... 

Geschokt geen verdriet toen de tijd. Veel verdriet voor haar kinderen en man. 

Later begreep ik ook waarom ik dat niet gehad heb. Logisch moment voor haar. Aversie voor wij mensen die toestand van iemand anders. 

Zelf een probleem, verdriet hebben over overledene vrouw, alleen verdriet van eigen probleem maar dan projecteren op dood van die vrouw. 

Gevoelens die je weer gebruikt via de andere. Woorden door me heen: dit stabiliseert onze extreme gevoelens. Pijn in linker schouder. 

Jonge jongens woedige zee tegen golven in bewegen. Dwarsliggende golven veroorzaken. Stout doen en bijna hard, weinig gevoelens zijn. 

Ivm patiënt, verdriet was goedkoop geweest. 

Stout of rebelse in verborgen ligt. Jonge jongens in de zee hebben kracht om dit zo te doen. 

Zee zwart en donker en diep. 

Vloer veel prachtige kleuren, stenen prachtige kleuren in zich dragen. 

Meer energie. 

Droge hoest. 

Zuivert gevoelens die de ruimte innemen van anderen. 

Ik hoor niet wat er gezegd wordt. Steken linker borst. 

Gaperig en zo. (melksuiker) 

Over ruzie omtrent tekening 

Eind van de avond even gaan staan, aan de andere kant en toen begreep ik waar jullie het over hadden. Paar meter verandering van betekenen 

zien vanuit andere dimensie. 

Dit middel prikkel gegeven dat het zo is. Werkelijkheden heel snel kunnen veranderen. Mensen kunnen tegelijkertijd verschillende 

waarheden zien en ervaren waardoor scheiding, ruzie. Mensen relateren aan waarheid en onrecht. 

Kinderen hebben dat gevoel – het is niet eerlijk. 

Prover 16 

Allemaal angsten 

Lichaam in buikgebied 

Opstaan met enorme angst en niet kunnen herkennen omdat er is niets. 

Na C1 veel gebeurd daarom nu erbij zijn 

Dood en afscheid 

Vandaag werd ik wakker, zo een angst de hele dag 

Gevoel voorgevoelens had 

Begrafenisauto tegenkomt en daarna gebeurd iets heel heftigs.. al jaren zo dat als ik ze tegen 

Gespannen, hartkloppingen 

Gelukkig ik kan nu iets delen, toen Alize vijzel meegaf 

Gevoel van losbreken 

Linker benen en arm, binnenkant benen schraal 

Enorme ijsberg, heel indrukwekkend van boven begon te smelten 

Bergen, eenzaam en verlaten 

Nek zat vast 

.... 

Skelet beweging van achteren naar binnen 

Achter rechter ook pijn 

Medelijden, liefde gevoel 

Heel koud en zo ontzettend moe 

Daarna dagelijkse dingen af te dwalen 

IJsberg voor staan? Smelten alsof verharding van het middel, iets zachter kan worden. Vanuit al die dood, afscheid en verdriet. Uitbreken, 

doorbreken daaruit, dat gevoel. 

Dat lot zo zwaar is om te kunnen dragen (Prover 17 zegt dat ook) 

Gevoel hoe moet je dit doen? Periode hiervoor. 

Prover 17 

Ook boom schilderen, mist de bladeren, doe maar niet. 

Verkleed van Praktijkkleren, zat in de auto en ik ben teruggegaan. Ik kon niet gaan. 

Enorme rust en sereniteit 

Dorst 

Alwetend oog, oog van orka wordt oog van havik (weet het ook maar kleiner en meer gefocust, verfijnde blik) 

Orka moeder aarde oog 

Scherpe zeelucht 

Ik mis de bomen en de kracht van de boom 

Tijdloosheid 

Diepe trance 

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Geen gedachten 

Prettig om te zijn leegte en stilte 

Wil niet schrappen, dan kom ik uit stilte en rust 

Stampen niet door kom heen 

Heel emotioneel 

Materie is te zwaar, je kan er niet doorheen 

Ik wil daar omhoog in de spiritualiteit 

Wereld zonder gedachten 

Dit leven is me veel te veel 

Stoppen met trituratie fysiek te zijn op deze wereld 

Ik wil daarboven zijn 

Omhoog uit mijn lijf getrokken 

Ik wil bewust niet meer hier zijn 

Afscheid neem van deze wereld, gevoel 

Schrappen, veel herrie maken 

Scheten te laten 

Herrie maken 

Kinderlijke neiging 

12-13 jaar gevoel 

Bewust vergeten middel te leggen voor patiënt, mag een keer 

Verplicht om door te gaan en dan hoesten en stoppen ermee 

Bijna dood ervaring, al een keer gehad op andere middel, zo voelde dit ook. 

Nu ok 

Beeld terminale patiënt. (Prover 4 ook) 

Het leven is zwaar. Niet fysiek zwaar is.. emotioneel zwaar vooral. 

Prover 18 

Terug te kijken naar vorige 

Beelden zijn essentieel bij dit middel 

Geen woorden kunnen vinden 

Dromen heel belangrijk 

Constant wakker geweest gevoel van onderdrukking, allemaal Carc innemen in LM1. gaat het weg. 

Wrede dromen – vraten kaken vis eruit. Shock dat ik het zag. 

Oude schildpadden aten kop van de vis. Associatie over onderdrukte wreedheid. 

Tijdens verwrijving stil gevoel harmonieus 

What is the name of the game? Iets met spel, soort verleiding en dat slaat het toe 

Gevaar komt uit onverwachte hoek 

Tijdbeeld is bepalend, tijdgeest bepaald normen en waarden, nee cultuur. Diep geworteld is. 

De aard van het beest verander je niet. 

Ik zit in een andere werkelijkheid, dimensie. Ik sluit niet aan bij de anderen. Cannabis gevoel iedereen zit te filosoferen. 

Prover 15: wreedheid voel ik wel. 

Veel dromen, dansen. Nachten gedroomd, pijn in maag, zoveel mensen met zoveel ellende hadden. Mensen zaten er vol van, ze moesten het 

kwijt. 

Wreedheid: in de droom wel maar in andere dimensie is het geen wreedheid. Tijdbeeld en cultuur is bepalend. Dus andere cultuur of 

tijdsbeeld kan het logisch zijn. 

Anders in een andere dimensie- botsen van dimensies geeft pijn. 

Afgelopen week werkelijkheid bezig geweest. Vriend duidelijk maken dat het zo was. Ik dacht duidelijk zijn dat werkelijkheid veranderd met 

voorwerp, hoe jij het bekijkt. Ik wilde heel graag dat een andere die waarheid realiseert. Het is niet iets vaststand. 

C4 Trituratie 16 maart 2005 

Prover 1 

Druk op borst en pijn in voorhoofd 

Heel erg in mijzelf 

Laat me met rust 

Met niemand te maken hebben 

Loslaten 

Niet hier willen zijn 

Ik ben goed zoals ik ben 

Hier weg, heb gezien hier = bevrijding gevoel 

Irritatie – hard schrappen 

Wrijven liever dan schrappen 

Wrijven ging goed, schrappen duurde te lang 

Verlangen naar muziek bij weg kunnen zweven 

Heel veel kleuren 

Leegte 

Ego bestaan prima, maar ik ga weg 

Pijn rechter oor 

Ruik frisse geur, lente 

Ik wil hier niet zijn 

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Gevoel dat ik weg ben 

Als ik terugkom, dit is mijn lot 

Daarna eruit.. 

Supervisor: gevoel dat zij (Prover 1) weg ging 

Heftig middel 

Hoe voelde je dat? In je lichaam? 

Ja, licht worden 

Prover 2 

Heel lang leeg gebleven 

Zwaar en blauw 

Voelde stevig draaien, einde licht gevoel 

Eigenlijk te stevig, zacht prettiger 

Rood voor ogen 

Zwart en dan groen en rood 

Gevoel van afstand dood gevoel 

Onverschillig (niet bij me passen) Het is zo als het is. 

Heel lang met ogen dicht 

Hagelslag, kou, stilte en koude wereld 

Er was geen tijd 

Zijn-niet zijn – ik had er niets mee, ik voelde er niets bij 

Het is allemaal goed, onverschillig. 

Rij mensen door sneeuw lopen 

Geen zin in, helemaal nergens toe 

Ik vond het pijnlijk 

Ogen dicht draaien 

SE helderder zie 

Draaien lichter 

Hier lichter allemaal 

Het is helemaal niet zo stevig, lijkt alleen stevig. 

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Prover 3 

Angst om te verwrijven naar C5 door verhaal van 11. 

Ontzettend aangedaan door verhaal 11. Boosheid, verdriet, ongeloof, BALEN! 

Onder de indruk van 11 haar reactie. Sterke vrouw. 

Supervisor: Meelevend zijn is van jezelf, actie maar reactie boosheid, balen is van het middel! 

Dan moet je het echt doen, want nu zit je in de weerstand en daar moet je overheen. 

Prover 5 

Enige gelijkmatige 

Van boven af naar de wereld kijk 

Een sneeuw wereld 

Frisse geur van zeepachtig – kruidige geur in meubel winkels in het oosten, Singapore en zo. 

Kruidig en fris 

Vanuit enige bergdeel naar beneden, geluid gedempt door dikke laag sneeuw 

Gedachten aan overleden mensen 

Dikke pak sneeuw- vertrouwen 

Heel merkwaardig – Alice in Wonderland. 

Wie ben ik dat ik deel mag hebben aan.. 

Barst in eens de concentratie door lachen van iedereen 

Stof: het is mij zo gul 

Prover 6 

Heeft niets te melden 

Prover 7 

Ik heb een blij gevoel (klinkt niet zo), toen ik begon bedoel ik 

Mensen lachen 

Jullie te praten, ik zeg er wat van 

Schaamte, sorry 

Ik moet aan Irene denken 

Iets voor haar willen doen om het lichter te maken 

Wat moet ze inhalen? Wat in familie nog plaats moet krijgen? En dan weg 

Steeds dingen in me opkomen 

Vanuit onzekerheid belangrijk willen zijn, dat hoeft nu niet meer, maar dan ben ik nog wel zeker wanneer ik iets moet zeggen. Geen gevoel 

voor timing. 

Heel blij en dankbaar dat ik tritureer dat er geen PC’s staan. 

Gebonden gevoel, ook kan ik niet iedereen helpen want iedereen heeft eigen stuk 

Het raakt me maar ik denk ik moet het maar laten. 

Zorg om Gert 

Wil in deze toestand blijven, ik hoef niet echt verder 

Het kan alleen maar beter worden 

Zeemanslied in het Duits, maakt me heel blij en dan denk ik.. 

Hopelijk gaat het geheel niet in elkaar barsten als een grote zeeveld? 

Marije experimenten in de oorlog dat mensen iets moeten ervaren wat ze dachten dat ze nooit zouden kunnen doen. Toen geen overzicht en 

dat ze er diep in zaten om dat te beseffen. 

Film moeten zijn van familie en dan ga ik dingen weten zonder ze meegemaakt te hebben, als het al in je ziel ziet. 

Waar zijn mensen krachtig in...???? 

Zouden wij nog veel moeten wrijven, het geeft niets, wij komen er uit met z’n alleen 

Ik voel me er boven staan, het maakt dat ik me schaam 

Ik hoef nu niet meer te schrappen. 

SE speel spel, kijkt naar mij, schamen daarvoor 

Stukje kwijt, heel moe kan niet meer opschrijven 

Ben bang, existentiële angst 

Nu weet ik het weer, het ging te snel 

Als we door blijven gaan blijven in toestand 

Angst voor wat er komt? 

Prover 11 

Dierenverhaal 

Ik vind het een beetje flauw 

Afvragen waar ik ben 

Ik kan niet stoppen met huilen 

Voorhoofd kloppen 

Afgelopen weken heel moeilijk 

Ik wist niet wat ik moest doen 

Riep om hulp 

Prettig om die man om je heen te hebben 

Ik kan niets met Candy voorheen 

Beeld van daken van huizen met antennes 

Waar gaan die antennes naar toe, vooral naar wat? 

Ik word op mijn plaats gezet door middel 

Met ego te maken? 

Zoveel leed 

Vooral vrouwenleed 

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Heeft met werkelijke rituelen te maken 

In soort wolk en mist 

Maan belangrijk 

Jonge wolf, ik ben aan het spelen en dat is heel prettig 

Vacht warmte en zonnewarmte heel belangrijk 

Jeugd en comode heel belangrijk, er staat voor iets maar weet niet wat 

Vuur te maken met beslissingen 

Bij Indianen, trommel ceremonie gaande, het gaat over oorlog 

Vredespijp gerookt maar terwijl we dat doen onderspit moeten leven, het is niet echt. Voor het komisch verhaal is het nodig 

Dik stroperig spul, geel, energetisch allemaal vuil, het is niet fijn maar alle anderen kwaliteiten ook zichtbaar 

Pees en bloed bezig, vooral pezen belangrijk in het verhaal 

Tovenaar, alchemistisch proces het gaat voor de hele wereld en geen emotionele betrokkenheid, het gaat om het totale overzicht. 

Wolven, ik word weer een wolf 

Ik kan alles ruiken en proeven 

Ik communiceert met het water, het gaat over het vuur van de aarde, zeggen de bomen als ik een niew bloesem wil vormen 

Groot zwaart gat, hart tekeer 

Ipv gele verf is het nu wit 

Kattenogen gehad die ik eerder heb gehad 

Jungle constant over vocht, buien, 

Over eenzaamheid, diepe eenzaamheid 

Alles wordt geëlimineerd 

Gemeen gevoel gehad 

Enorm grote spin, zwarte spin zonder richting of ruimte 

Binnenkant huid zwart 

Buitenkant helemaal wit 

Droge mond 

Alles is droog 

Heel moe 

Niets meer zin heeft 

Zin om alles overboord te gooien en niets meer 

Heel interessant, ik ben goed aan het kijken wat er gebeurd 

Er gebeuren hele grote dingen in mijn omgeving 

1 jaar lang partner voor een zaak. Mijn hele toekomst op gebaseerd, bijna verhuisd. 

Alles is weg. Vriendje ging weg. Het is niet erg, maar het heeft ook wel wat. 

Ook geen mannen die leuke dingen tegen me zeggen, integendeel 

7 resoneert met 11 

Ik voel veel angst uit jouw spreken en ook heel veel schaamte 

15 voelt ook veel eenzaamheid. 

Prover 12 

Vanmiddag om 14 uur – elke dag dat we C4 hebben 

HP in voorhoofd en daarna achter 

Gezwollen speeksel klieren 

Buikpijn precies onder middenrif 

Benen strekken ging niet 

Dingen vergeten ondanks goede voorbereiding 

Warme handen en voeten en andere trituraties tegengestelde 

Rust ontspannen 

Onrust chaotisch afwisselend 

Niet kunnen concentreren 

Zwaar in slaap 

Witte wereld alles bedekt en stil maakt 

Sneeuw eruit pakken uit mortier, gevoel,ook die kou 

Wat is dit nou? Gedachten wie ben jij? 

Vervormde gezichten in mortier krijgen en Duitse woorden in mijn hoofd = verwarring 

Wat moet ik daar nou mee? 

En dan chaotisch 

Moe, slaperig en moeite met concentreren 

Zwaarmoedig afwisselend met luchtige stemming 

Kwetsende voelen van oude dingen, lang geleden 

Vooral kwetsende dingen kwamen boven 

Prover 13 

Heel warrig 

Dissociatie gevoel 

Ik vergeet alles 

Hoofd blanco 

Kleuren komen uit, heel duidelijk 

Zo ver over grenzen te zijn dat ik de aarde niet meer zie 

Het is niet eerlijk hoe mensen elkaar belazeren, iedereen doet het. 

Dan slaap 

Zelfs in slaap vallen als ik een moord heb gezien (en dan nog verder slapen) 

Pijn in arm. 

Diepe zee, zweven 

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Half slaap toestand 

Waarom val ik in slaap? 

Wil ik niet weten 

Ik wil wakker en alert zijn 

Actie is die telt maar het is eigenlijk niet zo, weet ik 

Gert heel hard schrappen. 

Soort Lord of the Rings – op het moment dat je in slaap gaat vallen (heb ik vaker) 

Droombeelden bij het schrappen, bijna in slaap vallen. 

Prover 15 

Op een heel bepaalde manier associaties. Niet eenvoudig te vinden 

Moe en hongerig. Begrijp er niets van 

Gevoel van kou, heel letterlijk (geestelijk) 

Spiritueel eenzaam en koud 

Hoe komt het dat het zo is en zal zijn? 

Noordelijke kou 

Uitgestrekt eenzaam en nat 

Idee voor stijgen naar.... 

Het is de overgang 

Wit en sneeuw 

Overgang door doodsgebeuren heen 

Woord: skelet kwam steeds in me op 

Elkaar beschuldigen uitweg om verder te komen om in de vrijheid te kunnen komen, 

Zorgt voor antwoord en oplossing. (te maken heeft met sterk aan de dood doet denken, beelden van Ars patiënten, tibetaanse meditaties met 

stervenden, energie opgespaard door kou om transformatie te maken, nodig is dat voor mensen sterven beschuldigen de omgeving om vrij te 

kunnen komen) 

Doodmakend – op zij zetten. Dat is de doorgang door de dood, kou nodig om in stilte te komen 

Droogte gevoel – zelfs pijnlijk 

Dr Zhivago 

Diepe grote liefde met voortkomen uit het kou, kou nodig om daarin te komen 

Kou bloeit en kracht ontwikkeling, door kou heen en winterslaap 

Energie opbouw nodig om naar buiten toe te komen 

Fenomeen natuur zich terugtrekt in de winter – een aantal bomen en planten nodig om te kunnen groeien. Dat was het gevoel. 

SE dat het doorgegaan moet worden. Verder tritureren naar C5. 

Sterk idee van verstillend zijn. 

Afgevraagd hoe kom ik er bij? 

Prover 16 

Ik zag jou 18? in die sfeer zitten, in het wit spiritueel. Heel leuk gewoon. 

Stil en krachtig en rustig 

Winter vlakte 

Zorgeloos, dankbaar, stil en rust 

Alize resoneert met 17, 7 en 2 voor mijn gevoel is het hetzelfde. 

Niet met 18 

Prover 17 

Diepe onverschilligheid 

Doet me helemaal niets 

Ik reed hier naar toe, voor mij sliep 

Ik wist niet wat ik moest doen, auto op cruise controle 

ABS in werking, op vluchtbaan geweest. 

Ik zag auto’s volop rennen en ik wist niet meer wat ik moest doen 

Met beide benen remmen zoeken, anders ben ik dood. 

Paar seconden maar. 

Ik heb mijn auto bedankt 

Stikaanvallen weer gehad, week of 8 niet gehad 

Dit middel wil ik helemaal niet meer. Klep verkeerd. Ik verslik me overdag. 

Kom hier binnen, voel meteen heel veel bij Irene. Weet niet of ik haar mag storen. 

Begin met stof 

Slaat op mijn keel 

Ik wil niet stikken. Ik wil niet dood 

Ik wil leven , enorm verdriet 

Enorme pijn in linker rib en dan rechts 

Steken alsof longen protesteren 

HP rechter oog en dan naar links en dan voorhoofd 

Niets doet me iets 

Alles zit vast in mij 

Er is geen beweging 

Wat doe ik hier? 

Er is niets, er is niets. 

Verschrompelde huid, 

Geen leven, mummie soort 

Gedroogd 

Ik wil niets doen alleen maar heen en weer 

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SE Borst groeien en zwellen 

Ik voel bijna nooit bij mannen aantrekkingskracht ontzettend onttrekking kracht in 

Hij triggert het geile in mij 

Overgangsfase, SE golfpatroon 

Bevroren van binnen 

Afgelopen weken zo vrij en onbezorgd dat het bijna levensgevaarlijk 

Bijna geschept door grafmachine 

Warmte naar mijn hoofd 

Ik kan genezen met mijn handen, was weg 

Hitte in hoofd en gezicht ook 

Bewust – wel genoeg doe en ben voor omgeving? 

Ik wil niemand te kort doen 

Ik voel me heel verdrietig 

Toekomst beeld – ik mag in de toekomst kijken 

Ontroert mij enorm. 

Daarna allemaal patiënten die ik niet heb kunnen helpen, voorbij komen 

Knikken en zwaaien naar mij alsof het ok is. Ik heb genoeg gegeven. 

Schrappen en verwarring, alles laten vallen geen zin om dingen vast te houden 

Heel erg moe 

Ik heb Torticollis naar links, iedereen zit scheef naar links. Voor kinderen met KISS syndroom. Alleen Gert zat recht. 

Dan in verdriet, ik wil rust en ik wil niets meer doen 

SE alsof ik vast zit, kan niet in andere beweging (KISS) – vastzitten 

Geen zin meer 

Ik wil slapen 

Voor gevoel huil ik 

Ik wil slapen en ik wil niets meer 

Ik wil niet meer 

Geen connectie met omgeving 

Prima alleen 

Afgesloten ruimte zit ik 

Bij bewustwording = kokhalzen 

En nu is het afgelopen 

En dan: ik wil nog steeds niet dood 

En nou moet ik er doorheen 

Driftig draaien 

Ik moet doorzetten om te kunnen leven. 

Enorm bewust van geen tijd. 

Prover 18 

Ook iets met Egypte gehad 

Vanochtend HP links voorhoofd 

2 dagen gelden gedroomd door slang, heel dun, stop in een zak en slang bijt, laat vallen 

gaat weg, kinderen de trappen oplopen en gebeten worden maar ze voelen dat niet. 

Op weg hier naar toe. 3 mannen een soort seksuele energie, gesprekken op de fiets, 

Flirten, met de lente te maken? 

Hoe lang ben jij? 2-3 meter, vrouw zat er naast. Heel grappig! 

Op eens in een tempel waar handen werden geofferd, offeren van het mannelijke ten gunste kracht de vrouw, sterven maar alleen de kleine 

dood = orgasme van de man. 

SE van gebruik, voorwerp om tot het hogere te komen = spirituele. Orgastische energie, spirituele bewust gaan van beneden naar boven. Als 

soort drug, werkt in je geest. 

En dan kruinchakra verruiming. Dat is die explosie ook. = druk in hoofd. Druk moet eruit. Energie opgeslagen. 

Wrijven heel fijn een soort opbouw energie in mij lijf, kwam van benen. 

Inwijdingsritueel. 

OBS: Heel veel lachen in de zaal 

De kleine dood – 3 dagen in sarcofaag. Inleiders dood. 

Verkeerde orakel meegenomen Ik had Godinnen kaart moeten meenemen. Heel veel met priesteressen en Godinnen. 

Sterke vrouwen, vrouwen met veel kracht. 

Hij is dienend in het vrouwelijke principe. Gert enige man. 

Beeldvorming – ritueel met vrouwen, een kring energie vanuit de grond door lichaam heen, schoot van beneden naar boven. 

Waanzinnige power. 

C5 moeten maken, vanuit derde oog heel ruimte. 

Veels te kort. 

Geen HP meer. 

Kleuren? Paars en blauw 

In een wit gewaad met gouden band omhoog. 

Prover 20 

Bijna alles wat prover 15 heeft 

Droge mond 

Heel moe 

Iets met oordeel weet niet wat, schuld aan de andere geven (Alize) het is zo zwaar dat je dan zelf wel door kunt gaan. Eerst negatief 

beoordelen en daarna iets moois uit, het kan ook ok zijn. Deze manier van denken volstrekt nieuw voor mij. Waarneming was het eigenlijk. 

Schuld is dus nodig, als uitweg, ergens uit komen. En ook nog bedenken dat het een oplossing kan zijn. Andere is ervaring van koud en 

doorgang. En transformatie die nodig hebt om te verkouden om alle krachten te verzamelen om te groeien, begin trituratie: waar zal dit toe 

leiden? Kou en eenzaamheid. Noordelijke landen, altijd koud, zag ik. Niets met Egypte te maken. Tegenpool (Vanessa). 

Dementie, verstervend, dood van eigen vader 

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Mager en botten 

Zo moe en hongerig, ben ik ziek? 

C5 Trituratie 1 April 2005 

Prover 2 

Irritatie 

Geen zin 

Alize opmerking –dubbel nog geïrriteerde en een soort vrolijkheid 

Stom gedoe dit, dacht ik 

Zie je wel, ik had het niet moeten doen terwijl ik geen zin in 

Het is hier echt niet serieus 

Ontzettende boosheid 

Ik gooi dat ding uit het raam 

Super belachelijk 

Geen zin meer dan 

Veel plezier om Gert en zijn geschrapt 

Bleekwater 

Sloom gevoel in mond 

Er veranderd niets aan als ik er wel mee of niet mee doe 

Pijn rechter oor 

Misselijkheid < door draaien (wrijven) en er ook niet nakijken 

Geluid vervelend 

Ik ben blij dat het over is! 

Prover 3 

Niet meegedaan aan de trituratie. Weerstand. En niet van mijn gevoel af willen. Bij mijzelf blijven. 

Prover 5 

Duidelijk behoefte aan concentratie 

Tijd 

Verdriet en vreugde door elkaar, blijdschap 

Linker long borst/hart hoogte – soort knagende 

Sterke behoefte vijzel tegen aan te houden 

Transpiratie 

Zoete smaak achter in keel 

Branden de gevoel voeten 

Niet verbonden met substantie als vorige keer 

... 

Verstoringeenheid op 

Zuidpool 

Zee, ruimte 

Fijn voor anderen maar het hoeft niet 

Irritatie en SE verontwaardiging 

Knagende pijn rug rechts naar links 

Knagende pijn rondom hart 

Spierpijn mn schouderbladen 

Ongeduldig erbij 

.... 

Niet aan de stof gehecht 

Wazig zien 

Prover 6 

Joligheid gevoel dat het zo kan omslaan en dan niet leuk (Vanessa) 

Voelde heel erg alsof groep uit elkaar getrokken werd, als jullie weggaan, dan voor eigen tijd zorgen eigen verantwoordelijkheid 

Toen jullie terug kwamen over, dan groep weer bij elkaar 

Ik zie allemaal doornroosjes, jullie waren er niet meer, jullie zaten in dromenland 

Iedereen volkomen weg Obs Gert 

Energie werkt anders op mannen of vrouwen. Iets met seksualiteit te maken. 

SE van verantwoordelijkheid maar sterk voor het hier en nu 

Prover 7 

Blij en opgewonden 

En tegelijk obstinaat 

Wij kunnen net zo goed met elkaar koken, het gaat om het doen 

Hard lachen Nanny en ik dacht dit is een leuk middel, Nanny nooit zo zien doen 

Wilde naar buiten maar niemand houdt dan de tijd bij. 

Ik voelde wat verzet, mooi werd met elkaar het maakte me bang 

Fijn gevoel en straks is dat weer weg 

Verbondenheid met elkaar prettig 

Maakte me bang omdat het onvoorspelbaar is 

Gevoel dat het zo kan draaien 

Ik wist niet dat het vrijdag was 

Vis dag 

Onzin komt uit geloof en ik heb er niets mee 

Goede vrijdag verhaal.. 

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Hoorde iedereen stampen en dat was wel fijn, iedereen bezig met een bepaald ritueel 

SE straks gaat geest opstijgen, ramen moeten open 

Buddha, rituelen 

Voelde heel licht 

Het individuele doet er niet meer toe 

Het viel me op dat iedereen heen en weer lopen 

Iedereen zo bezig met de tijd 

Prover 8 

Verantwoordelijkheid als plicht staan 

Er boven kijken, het gouden van bovenaf 

Moeilijk om het licht te krijgen, waardoor voor mij donker en geïsoleerd aanvoelde omdat ik er niet goed in kon kijken 

Afgeleid door chloor geur (Clara sterk water) 

Tijdloos gevoel 

Pikte gedachten op, helder moment 

Voelde heel helder 

Vorige keer – sterke helderheid gevoeld in mijzelf 

Observerende helderheid 

IJspegels terechtkomen 

Prover 9 

Lichtheid 

Heerlijk om mee te resoneren 

Uitbundigheid 

Prettig als vrijblijvendheid = vrijheid je niet belemmerd voelen 

Totaal onbezorgd 

Heel erg lachen 

Het slaat dan om als ik een beeld van droom zie, afgelopen nacht 

Noordzee 

Jong Anima deel van vermoord wordt, invulling van mijzelf 

Jong vrouwelijke wordt in de kin gesmoord, dat beeld houdt op 

Moeite om het serieus te nemen, ook wat ik hier doe en de homeopathie serieus te nemen. Als ik dit zomaar kan doen = twijfel over 

homeopathie 

Overgelaten gevoel aan het lot 

Derde oog in het midden van substantie schaduw patronen te maken met adelaar, schaduwmakers 

Prikkeling in neus – substantie in via de neus? 

Licht-donker 

Leven in het paradoxe, juist steeds belangrijk om dat te mogen voelen en een keuze te mogen maken 

Prover 11 

Flauw gevoel vond ik het 

Adelaar kwam van de videocasus 

Bij de vrouw overzicht 

Los willen zijn van alles 

Gewoon vrij maar los 

Erg warrig 

Reuzen – alle soorten en maten 

Bergtoppen- echt de top van de bergen 

Het hart als orgaan als symbool 

Heen en weer geslingerd, of heel erg mooi of verdwaasd? 

Boom is vlammenzee staan, elke boom in een kleur 

Lichaam alles samentrekken, gevoel 

Verkrampen 

Alles in lichaam werd klein 

Bovenkant van het hoofd had ik niet meer, er was alleen energie, bewoog omhoog? 

Weer een reus, die keek op de aarde neer, was aan het vijzelen en die maakte de sterren 

Dubbel – ga je daar niet te ver in? Zei tegen mijzelf 

Verantwoordelijk voelen voor alles, maar vooral voor de aarde 

Letterlijk moeder aarde, milieu (Alize ook) 

Verantwoordelijke met mijn hele geest, allemaal verantwoordelijk 

Over verleiding maar niet met lust erbij of uiterlijk 

SE verleidelijkheid zonder lust, zacht, mooi en universeel 

Beeld giraf, ogen van een giraf 

Sneeuw, eskimo’s 

Verantwoordelijkheid welzijn van de aarde 

Visoen over de toekomst, hoe het zou gaan met mij en de zaak 

Het ging allemaal over begrip. 

Toekomst – horkaan, tornado in Amerika vanuit India? 

Ik voel me heel anders als de vorige keer maar wel heel verantwoordelijk, 

Deze verantwoordelijkheid ga ik niet meer kwijt raken (Vanessa een van de trituraties – mijn leven is voorgoed veranderd) 

Prover 13 

Begin wakker zin plezier te maken 

Naar buiten heerlijk, zalig 

Nu wil leven veranderen radicaal maar weet niet waar te beginnen 

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7 minuten duurde heel kort 

Verdriet SE druk op hart? 

... 

Hoe kan ik het toch goed maken? 

Dit na de dood is, gevoel 

Teleurstelling 

.... 

Nu nog niet weg, zit er nog in 

Prover 15 

Hetzelfde gevoel 

Dubbele emoties wel niet wel niet 

Vorige keer hoefde niet en de rest zo overtuigd van wel 

Merkwaardig dat mensen weg zijn van wat ze volovertuiging wilden. 

Tegengestelde emoties 

Tegengestelde van Alumina casus (die daarvoor bekeken werd) 

Ineens heel stil – alsof verdieping lager: 

Om iets te bereiken moet je door weerstand heen angst is... 

Zo verschrikkelijk vervelend ineens kwam ik weer terecht in tegenstelling waardoor oorlog is ontstaan: 

Wij moeten begrijpen dat tegenstelling niet is, als tegenstelling meestelling is dan worden we eens gered... 

Wond is heel groot, hier kan ik er niet uit komen 

Hopeloos gevoel, terug naar 2 e trituratie 

Tegenstelling is niet groot maar lijkt groot 

Obstakel – Obstinaat = weerstand zit er ook in 

Naar buiten gegaan – naar binnen gaan zwaar voor mij 

Oplossing geloof in jezelf te hebben en dat te kunnen overstijgen 

Belast voelen met deze gegevens uit het verleden. 

Er zit veel meer in het middel 

Einde-transformatie 

Gevoel van willen overstijgen en samenkomen. 

Beelden van tegenstelling in de grote wereld. Persoon niveau te overstijgen is belangrijk 

Sterk gevoel van oorlog zijn. Vervelend om het hier te zeggen. 

Middel van Krijgers - eerste symbool getrokken door Jacqueline toen ze naar boven ging. 

Boosheid- waarom moeten we dat proces door om samen te zijn naar het hogere zijnsnivo te zijn. Ik ervaar die tegenstelling als wreedheid. 

Waarom kunnen we die stap niet overslaan? 

Een kinderlijk gevoel was dat! Het donkere overslaan. 

Moment niet willen dat te doorleven. 

Sterke tegenstelling in mij – heel lief en liefdevol naar omgeving en familie kan zijn en wreed naar de wereld zijn = alles met oorlog te 

maken. SE dom en vermoeiend, dat gevoel. 

Chloor heeft daarmee te maken. In Chloor gaat niets leven. Vulkaan – geuren waarin niets kan leven. Chloorlucht is dood. Dodelijke geur, 

leeft midden in de aarde. 

Doorroosje- sprookje tegenstellingen. 

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Licht en luchtig 

Speels 

Helderheid 

Ruimte in mijn denken 

Vrijheid 

Voelde verbinding met iedereen met gevoel vrij erin te bewegen 

Visoen – iedereen leuk lachen – Irene oude bekende 

Ontmoeting met totemdier 

Belangrijk contact te maken met oersymbolen 

Energie door lichaam stromen en tegelijk licht 

Dreamcatcher – je eigen droom opvangen in glaswater en dan opdrinken 

(Dreamcatcher houden slechte dromen tegen) 

Oersymbolen en dan naar boven – pakte er een lezen en dan onzin eigenlijk 

Je moet je eigen symbolen leren begrijpen en doorgronden, veel belangrijker. 

Antwoord ligt in de vraag – Ontsloten 

Prover 19 

Onraakbaar 

Geen gedachten niets 

Wel fijn 

Prover 20 

Heel ongeconcentreerd 

Zal de Paus wel/al dood zijn? 

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Ik vond het niet leuk dat jullie weggingen naar buiten 

Ongeïnteresseerd in het middel 

Na tijdje kreeg ik iets meer maar het blijft een beetje vaag 

Een beetje misselijke 

Seksualiteit en spanning daar om heen 

Buikpijn en misselijk 

Rugpijn 

Thema DOOD – vaag iets met iemand prostaat kanker 

Seksualiteit 

Stel voor dat ze me komen halen omdat er iets gebeurd is thuis, hoe zal ik dan rijden 

Wat zou er dan gebeurd zijn? 

Alles te maken met DOOD 

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